~*~*~ A Lil Note For Ma With Love ~*~*~

Aini Animosity November 8 at 11:27am

Hi Ma,

After wat u shared with me yesterday, i cannot help but kept tossing &turning in bed, tryna figure out what is wrong with kakak..? Doesn't she realise that she's already 26..? Doesn't she realise it's now the time to get realli serious in life and not play to0 much...? It was only last month if i'm not mistaken that u wanted to resign and rest at home.. U wanna be a full-time housewife and take care of the matters at home.. U wanna be the one who prepares the meals.. U wanna be the one whom without fail, have dinner with ayah everyday like u used to, back when we were still living at Telok Blangah.. U juz wanna stae at home.. Shortly after that, kakak told u that she has already quit her job.. Thr goes ur dream~

Apart from that, she even to0k loans.. She even promised to pay back.. But ma, i'm sorry to sae this.. She is ur daughter n of course my sister.. I noticed that wateva that u paed for her, i dun see any returns.. Nothing at all.. Whether anot when she was werkin, she gave u pocket money anot, i have no idea.. That's between u and her.. I dunnoe.. Well, i hope she does.. As e eldest, she should noe wat u're going thru.. She should noe how much money is required for ur medications and all since she's the one whom normally followed u to ur checkups.. She's also the one whom normally stumbled upon ur bills coz u seemed to put them everywhr in the house.. -.- With the reason: u forgot to hide it.. tsk tsk tsk...

Ma, this is a test from God.. He wans to see how strong a lady you are.. N from my point of view, ur the strongest lady i've ever met.. My ma is a warrior.. She faces all obstacles bravely and courageously.. U were dealt with 1 blow afta another..

1. Years ago, when ayah was jobless.. U faced each and everyday smiling, neva once giving up..
2. U took care of ur in-laws despite the fact mom-in-law depised u so0o much.. U were thr for them till their very last..
3. When Tok Man passed awae, u did not even shed a tear - maebe because he doesn't have to suffer animore..
4. So0n after, u hafta care for Om An coz apparently, ayah's siblings are juz plainly useless.. Sumer takot bini.. Takder akal sendiri.. Yes mama, i'm pissed with their attitude.. But thr's nothing much i can sae coz they're aftarall, ayah's siblings..
5. Den, u have diabetes.. And was told it was heredetary..
6. Years later, you were diagnosed with cancer n u tot that was the end of it.. But u remained strong because of us.. :)
7. In between, i gave you countless problems since 2001 - 2005.. Caught smoking, trauncy, skipped my tests, forgery and in 2005, had to attend court case.. I remembered u were short of $30 to pay my $100 fine.. N u were already panicky coz u noe the penalty was 3 days jail term..

See..? U are such a strong lady.. No matter wat befalls u, u stand up and faced the challenge.. Yes, every warrior cried.. But u neva cried openly.. Well, rarely.. Coz i hardly see u cry.. U juz put on a smile.. Eventho i can tell it's fake, but u go all out juz to put on that smile on ur face..

Ayah is so0o blessed to have crossed path with u. And as daughters, we are blessed to have a mom like u.. Despite ur more naggy evasince u were diagnosed with cancer.. But it's ok.. :)

Ma, i am the youngest but i think like i'm more of the eldest.. I juz dunnoe y.. Thr are times i wanna knock some sense into kakak, but i noe i dun have the means to do so.. All i can do is juz to kip it to myself.. N if i cannot take it, ouh well.. Raffi's the punching bag.. I juz meletob at him... Even if he made the smallest mistake.. 0.0

If u need any help, I'll help u as much as i can.. I love you, ma.. Alwaes n foreva..

Love,
Adeq