~Why Oh Why~

Weekend was a blast despite the fact part of the Saturdae was a total disaster.. Still, as alwaez, he managed to make me realize again and again how in luv he was with me.. Went to the cage at Kallang whr Team Qirana had a frenly match with Team Havana.. BF left the cage with scars on his face.. Aiyo.. Wat e hell..! But still, u're lo0kin as hot as eva, honey.. :) Supper was at KTM which epul did most of the talkin.. Frankly, i was already half aslp.. Thank gawd waty poked me.. Heh~ Back at home, while chillin n talkin 2 him, his brudder stepped in n told uz that he was involved in an accident.. Wounds lo0ked pretty bad... Had to force BF to take a look at e wounds.. -___- & i have a habit for feelin tingly n painful all ova when seein otha ppl's wounds n blo0d.. Still, i wanna see... Crappy rite..? 0_0


On Sunday, BF dropped the bomb to me n saed that he wanna get engage with me.. Wow.. I was left speechless lor.. N blushing at e same tyme... We did the calculations n i came up with a final ans that if he starts to save $500 as of next month (Aug 2010), by Oct 2014, he'll have $25,000 in hiz savingz acc already.. N he finds the month real nice.. It's in btwn the both of us.. I'm Sept & he's Nov.. :)


So on Monday.. Yes..! I was pretty lazy to get my stinkin ass off the bed n into the freakin shower n get ready to go to work.. After much tossin n turnin, i get up n got the ball rolling.. The day was fine.. Things went super well.. Even at werk.. No problemz were raised.. If so, it'z basically juz minor2 onez.. The dae ended, perfectly fine..


Today was kinda sucky.. 1st was about the clothez.. I dun realli noe how to eplain in details arh.. All i can sae was that i'm upset... I came to a point in which i'll throw all those tight-fitting, body-hugging, short skirtz, leggingz awae.. I dun find the purpose into keepin dem already.. So so0n enuff, i'll be back 2 being me again, back in 2005... Whr it's alwaez jeanz n t-shirt... Even if i need to wear office wear, i'll wear those long not-too-tight office pants n long-sleeved office top.. As for work, meeting went well n we came to an agreement between StagingDA & SCCM.. I explained to dem the difficulty on my side, while dey explained theirs.. Back in the office, nearin towards the end of the dae, thingz got pretty rough.. I find myself not in the mo0d for anything since i received an email regarding missing applications.. N truth is, i didn't even do it.. But den, wateva concerns app mapping, i'll b the first in line to get sho0t at by the boss.. Haizz...


Back at home, i didn't noe wat my mind was thinking.. All i azked myself was - wat e hell is wrong with u..? How could u possibly asked for a 4-days off from meetin e man whom u reali luv..? Dun u pity him..? Oh, u self-centered bytch..! But then, he has already agreed to it.. He's givin me all the space he could give even it's for sure it's beyond his meanz.. All i did was cried the moment i got into the room n hugged my bear.. I have no idea wat state i am in now.. All i could think of was to curl up n buried my face in my pillows..


True: I'll miss his hugs..
True: I'll miss his touch..
True: I'll miss his laughter..
True: I'll miss his eyes..
True: I'll miss his kisses..


True enough, I'll miss each & every single detail there is to it abt him..


Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Dazed & Confuzed

All About My Toooos-Day

Morning started off pretty well.. Instead of waking up at 7.45am (after which BF would msg me, to notify me that he has reached his werkplace), i woke up 5 minz earlier.. Eh, eventho it's onli 5 freakin mins, 5 mins u can dream of something k..?! Heh~ But too bad.. I wasn't dreamin of anything.. :( So, off to the shower n got ready for werk... As usual, would call bf before n upon leaving the house..

Along the wae, an argument broke out.. Not realli argumentative la.. I mean, i was upset with the remarks he gave me.. But den again, that's the truth lor.. Still, which child can accept the fact that someone is talkin bad about her family..? Haiyah... So after we hung up, i juz texted him how i felt at that point.. I juz told him stuffs like if he findz it realli hard to adapt to my family's situation, he can jolly well give up.. Which in a wae, he saed that he won't.. Also, another thing that upsets me more was when he texted me n told me that i dun hafta meet him 2nite.. Wat e heck..?! I noe maebe on acc we, or maebe me who was peeved with him, n perhaps distance would be the best solution.. But den, i wanna meet him.. So, i was already fuming mad n texted him angrily.. I remembered he once told me that the relationship is put on a test - in which if a fight/argument/misunderstanding or watsova occur, we are limited to meet onli 1ce a wk.. So i told him that i'd rather sacrifice these few daez juz 2 spend the saturdae with him.. I was realli pissed off lor..! In the end, he sticked to the plan of the meet-up tonite..

Lunch was at Subwae with Joanne n Dawn.. We talked wateva we can talked about n after that, we went to look ard.. I saw a few clothingz at the interchange in which i planned to buy after i get my pay.. No worries, ayah.. They're cheap stuffs.. But pretty..!! Costs ard $12-$15 as stated on the display sign.. Betta rite..? N also, can we go to far east one of the weekends or weekdaez when u're not werkin..? I wanna take a look at the shoes in the shop called Trendyzone... Joanne saed that there rite, the shoes are always on sale!! It's selling off at $9.90... Can ayah..? Pur-lease!!! Heh~

As for the rest of the dae, thingz went pretty smooth.. Done with all the mapping scheduled for thursdae.. Wanted to do for Fridae, but see how arh.. Tired of rushing la.. :)

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Feels Like Her Head Is Juz Gonna Explode Each Tyme She Coughz!

== The Confuzed Kitty Who Finally Made Her Decision ==

Shortly after i posted the previous blog, i've decided to stae n finish up with the pull sheets.. Heh~ Took my tyme n did it slowly.. No interruption, no intermission watsoeva... It took me like 1 hr to get the pull sheets done.. Had to manually upload the apps to DMD n insert the user details.. In between, i finally remembered i've yet to submit my MC.. Hahahah.. Passed it to Rachelle..

So now that i'm done, i can heave a sigh of relief n start afresh for tmrw.. Yay~ So long office...

& hello my hot hubby... Pls ehk, ayah.. Maintain that voice of urs.. I'm so0o0o0o in the mo0d for LURVE rite now.. Heh~ See u soon, bacen.. Muahhh!!!

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Now Skipping Her Heart Awae To Meet Her Hunky Boncet Bear Bacen.. =)

== A Draggy Monday ==

Before i get into details regarding my draggy mondae, let's flash back to Sat & Sun.. HmMmMm.. Whr do i start..? Ok.. Met bf at 11.30am n head down to Civic Centre to collect my photocard liscense from the post office.. The mail man came personally to my home on Fridae, but no one was at home.. So yeah...!! The main card i've been waiting for..!!! Yeeha..! After that, we head down to Kallang KFC & had our lunch.. I couldn't finish up wat i ordered.. Maebe becoz of the wind in my tummy... Heh~ We chatted over lunch n had a great laugh.. We talked about kids nowadaes who are juz not disciplined enuff despite the fact they're old enuff to think wat's Yes & No.. Sheesh..! After that, we proceed with wat was planned for that dae.. :) Had a helluva great tyme with him, eventho somewhr in btwn, thingz got a lil bit frustratin for him.. Sorri ayah... Heh~

On Sundae, everything went smo0thly till e moment we reached his place.. Silent treatment was given n in the evening, a huge fight almost broke out.. Truth is, i was prepared for the fight.. But den again, i'm not prepared to face how it'll be like if he really blowz his top.. God forbid..! The fight started after he kept on sighing n sighing.. N yes, i was frustrated as on y does he kept sighing..? It's realli annoying, though.. We talked things out at nite n things got betta.. Den again, the relationship has now been put on a test.. As 2 whenever we have a fight, we're onli allowed to meet each otha juz 1 tyme..

Back to Mondae.. HmMmMm.. Reached the office n i started doin the app mappings for tmrw without further delay.. Normally, i'll speed my wae thru so that i can start on Wed's as scheduled.. But todae, it seems like i'm in my comfort zone.. I still do my werk, but more like in my own speed.. Hahahah.. Speakin of still-in-my-wkend-mode... Lol~ I managed to complete Tuesday's & Wednesday's mapping.. Yay~ Eventhough thr was alot of agencies, i can still slot tyme for FB.. Wat e heck.. Normally, i dun even have the tyme to even reply in a short moment after someone commented something.. On  the otha hand, perhaps i managed to complete was due for the fact that remedy was slow, so Joanne couldn't schedule all 40-50 users.. She onli managed to schedule 16.. Heh~ Lucky me.. Initiallie the plan was to stae till like 7.45pm, before knockin off & meeting bf on the spot.. Now it's comin to 6.45 n i'm done with everything.. Should i stae n do the pull sheets for wed's, or should i juz pack up n leave...? HmMmMm... I dunnoe.. See how arh..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is In Her Confused Mode 0_o

Finally... :D

Finally, the week has passed n JAIHO..!! Saturdae'z here..!!! Yessaa..!! Gd morning, Saturdae..!! I welcome u with open armz yaw~ Hehehe.. Still, to wait for this very dae to come, lotsa thingz i went thru.. Top of the chart waz my sickness.. Haiyah~ Started with a cough on mondae.. Tot it was minor.. U noe, those kinda cough that comez when u laugh too hard.. Onli to find out that it was the beginning of a very bad sore throat n possibility - fever...! Kabam...!! When nite fallz, body heatz up.. Not externally, but internally.. My eyez were like on fire, i tell u.. N when i rolled dem from left to right, adoi..!! The muscle was being pulled sia.. Pain u noe..!! :( Had to take an mc the very next dae..

Back to werk on weds n continued doin my tasks.. Minded my own bisnes as per normal.. Hardly talked to anibody coz i juz dun feel like talkin.. Wanted to go lunch at e Makcik's place beside Esso, but it turned out to be somewhr else.. Yes la, i was pissed la kan.. But den, haiya~ Wateva la.. As long as my tummy's filled up, i'm fine.. On the otha hand, was pissed again coz i already saed i might walk a lil slow due to my shortness of breath, but it turned out i had to walk extra fast to catch up.. -.- Thank go0dness BF was thr to accompany me on the fone.. That distracted me from the fact that i was eventuallie - OUT OF BREATH..! After werk, met ma at Fork n Spoon n we had our dinner thr.. Nani, saket2 pon, lamb chop tak lepas ehk.. Heheheh.. Met BF at nite n thingz didn't went pretty well.. I was to0 sick to devote all my attention to him.. Sorrie baby.. :(

As for Thurs, another fucttup thing.. Staging boi came up to me n saed that App Mapping is becomin tremendously ridiculous.. Saein stuffs like it'z realli causin dem lotsa pressure n stress.. Keje maner tak stress, boi..? Da agency request tuh macam.. Kau nak aku buat aper..? Per saje jek.. Lao taknak stress gi dudok umah arh.. Abez crite~ Pfft..!

Den fridae (yesterdae), the flu n cough got real bad.. Enader doctor's visit.. BF was with me.. He's on mc to0.. Reason : Back pain... Hehehehe.. After that, we had our brunch at the kopitiam upstairs.. Both of us had Nasi Lemak.. As for BF, his was extra rice.. We ordered milo peng n teh peng.. Mak ai!! Peh tawar.. yelgh..!! N yes, after brunch, i he reminded me in his stern voice - Da makan obat lom...? Heh!

And so, evenin was as planned.. Followed him to the bbq pit organized by his station colleaguez.. When we reached, it was onli Kak Herda, her hubby, Zaki n Aleesya.. They juz started unpackin.. Nothin was ready yet.. Sat down a while to catch my breath before proceedin into helpin dem... I head up towards Aleesya n helped her peel the corns while she cut dem into half.. Once done, we buttered in n wrap it in the aluminium foilz.. :) The first batch of bbq-ing was done by me n BF.. He did the fanning.. :) We ate n laughed alot.. It was a warming nite in which i really enjoied myself despite the fact i am still not feeling well.. Thanx alot everyone.. :))

Reached home n get down to business.. Pack up some stuffz 1zt so that later in e dae, i won't rush.. I added some to-do thingz in e list which was to head down to the post office at civic to collect my photocard liscense (yay..!!) n also to OCBC to withdraw the cash needed for the dae.. OMG..!! I'm freakin excited rite now.. Can't wait can't wait can't wait..!!!

Signin off : The Kitty Who Is Mad Excited..!!!

Saturdae Mode -____-

Morning2 bf told me that there are already planz for tomorrow nite - BBQ with his workmates.. I was told that i'm required to follow.. So i asked him if it was a request or wat... He saed - more like demanded by him for me to follow.. So ok la.. Of coz i'll follow.. So the plan was to bring my helmet to werk.. Ard 7.15 - 7.30 like dat den leave the office n meet him at Clementi.. He's based thr tomorrow.. If i dun intend to go all e wae, i can juz wait for him in the office till like 8.15-8.30pm?? But wat if, i dun intend to stae - how..? -__-

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Hah! It's almost the end of thursdae.. That's when the questions screamz in my head.. It's ONLI Thursdae..? Meanz 2mrw's Fridae.. Alah.. 1 more dae 2 go den it's Saturday... HmMmMm.. Slept for onli 3 hours plus n wow - i'm like hyper-active 2dae, despite i'm still unwell.. I'm not even a lil slpy.. Perhaps, i was racing my wae thru 2 complete the delivery for Monday.. N yes, i made it.. Eventho there are some add-onz.. Sheesh!

Work was fine overall.. No disturbance from anybody n i did manage to get my tasks done peacefully.. Heee... Had an extra serving during lunch tyme coz i was mad hungry.. Alah, it's juz extra scallop... The man was kind enuff to give 2 extras instead of 1.. Heheheheh.. & i juz had 2 pae $1 extra.. Cheap rite..?

In between the dae, bf told me that he has to go to the HQ to do some office thing.. He saed he could leave as early as 6pm.. Which to me was a gd news.. Provided! Thr is nothing else to do.. Praein real hard rite now.. Hehehe..

Last checked with him is that he has since made his wae to the HQ at ard 5... So hopefully, he getz to leave early.. Dun wanna hope too much, but sometimez, these lil thingz are wae beyond our control.. N summore if he were 2 tell me dat he'll leave late as per-normal - partly of coz i'll be upset.. But on the otha hand, juz take it like as if he's at werk lor... That's all i can do.. :)

Seriously, i'm already in my Saturdae mode.. Perhaps due to the planz that are eagerly waiting for us to proceed.. Heee... He informed me that he has already texted Aan that we are not attending the Tahlil n he requested urgent leave from the Team.. Cute siak... Didn't noe they practice that in the team.. Hehehe..

Time check: 5.24pm... I so badly wanna leave the place already...

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Not Onli In Her Saturdae Mode, But Also Her Lazy Mode

Combined Updatez

First n foremost, again, my condolences to Jufri aka Jup n his family, on the death of his beloved daddy.. Mae Allah bestow Jannah upon his soul.. Amin~

So on sat, was suppozed to follow bf to the bike shop get his pipe done (again), but he told me not to coz i was tired.. On fridae (in e wee hours of saturdae mornin), thr was a lil fight in which i didn't expect it to drag till mornin when the sun was up.. Truth is, i couldn't slp maebe bcoz i was guilty dat he doesn't wan me 2 follow on account i was tired.. Well, saper tak penat..? But it's the weekend seii.. Called him at ard 8+am n was told he juz had his shower.. He told me that he planned to leave the house ard 9.. Waited n waited, still no news.. Fell aslp for a few moment before i decided to text him.. He told me that the tymin haz changed n he'z leaving tat 10.40 instead.. Asal tak update ehk..? 0_o

At the bike shop, he doesn't text me much.. So here i was, at home, reading the book which he bought for me at esso near my werkplace.. :) Good book.. Read n read till i forgot the tyme... Quickly got up n had my bath.. Once done, received a text msg from him statin dat he's alreadi on e wae back home.. When he reached home, i juz finished putting on my outfit.. He told me dat he wanted to go to sembawang i think, to get some bike stuffs.. He planned to wash hiz bike with Aan.. He azked if i wanted to follow, which apparently, i declined the offer coz i haven't had my nailz done.. Next, he texted me again to notify that Jup's daddy has passed awae.. Plan was cancelled n they'll be heading down to Jup's place at nite.. I was jokingly askin him, if i could juz stae at home.. N kebam! The war startz again.. Haiz.. Long story.. To cut it short, when we meet up the very evening after he washed hiz bike, thingz are back 2 normal.. :) Luv u, yah~

When nite fallz, we head down to Jup'z place.. In my mindset was, k la.. Jup'z place.. As in umah dier sendiri.. So i came with short sleeve n no selendang at all... Skali sampai, SAPP!! It was hiz parent's blk.. Alamak!! Tak kene gaya beb~ Kuku itam, rambot perang, baju sumwat jarang.. MasyaAllah.. Wateva it iz, i juz had to tebalkan muker arh.. But den again, many ppl tot i was Chinese.. N since i spoke to bf in English, that gave them more assurance that i was Chinese.. Until, when it was the tyme 2 recite the prayers, they have their doubts... Hahahaha~ Tummy was rumbling like hell, i tell u.. When tyme was up, we planned to have supper.. Head down to Jalan Kayu, kesian kitorang tau.. Anak2 terbiar.. Nobody came up 2 serve uz.. Wat e heck!! So after much thiking, we went to Sakura @ Buangkok.. I had Mee Tom Yum Soup.. Power sia! Reached home at ard 2, fell aslp at ard 3 or 3.30am.. Set the alarm at 6.30am, but i overshot n woke up at 7.30am.. Panic jab aku.. Showered n pack the stuffz + make bf hiz tea while he go n shower.. Supposed to be at the place by 9.30am.. We left home juz nice to heat up the bike, meet Aan at hiz blk in which if we dun waste tyme, we can reach at 9.30am.. Skali Aan overslept daa.. Raini pon samer.. Hahahah..

Instead, we reached at ard 10am i think.. Waty n Elynn was thr.. Sit with them n talked wateva we Girls can talk abt.. Wat Elynn wore was, Mak Kau!!! Tak terfikir ke yg kau nih ngah melawat?? Haizz.. Dunnoe la ha.. The boiz escorted the coffin to the cemetery.. Wanted to follow bf, but waty offered to take a ride in her daddy in law's van.. So, ok lor... Dapat air cond.. Heheheh... In the van, i talked to Elynn, juz to distract her from the fact that she has the phobia of goin to the cemetery.. :) When everything was done, i reunited back with bf.. Yay~ Visited Aan's grandma n dad's grave along e wae.. Wanted to visit arwah tok man n pak long nyer jugak.. But i dunnoe whr la.. N i came unprepared.. So, next tyme.. So all i did was to sedekahkan Al-Fateha to each n every jasad lying in thr~Back at the place, we ate kari ayam with french loaf.. I helped myself to 3-4 servingz of the kari n as for the bread, quite a no of slices.. Hehehe.. After eating, was told to change into our uniform coz we're going to a wedding.. Sepatotnyer escort, but tak jadik..

We went to 2 Weddings... 1zt wedding place, i helped myself to lotsa brownies.. hehehehe... Bf luv em too... Sedap u noe~ Taklei angz~
2nd one, aiyo~ Bf was pissed with Ayie.. Kecoh2.. Tsk~
After that, we went bowling.. Uwee~~~ 1zt game, i performed pretty well.. Aan was impressed.. 2nd game, performance dropped real bad.. I sprained my thumb.. Adoi!!!

Fast forward.. Here i am, feelin pretty sick.. Bad sore throat.. Coughing like mad.. Bf is already fast aslp.. But here i am, still wide awake & it's already 3.30am.. I'm on medication, but i dun feel slpy~ Wat e hell seii.. Haizz.. Ayah, i noe u're gonna b pissed off with me for slpin late n sure u have questions like, asal tak tido? asal taklei tido? The ans to those questions is - I tak tau.. That's all.. Blergh~

Niwae, am so0o lookin forward to our 2nd honeymo0n prd this sat.. Planz have been laid out as early as last wk.. Hehehe.. Now is Thursdae.. 2 more daez to go..!! Yabe dabe do0o0o0o~~!!!

Oh n btw, i hate bf's schedule for this week.. It sux! Yucks!

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Wanz To Sleep, But Cannot Sleep.. -.-''

:: The Past, Sumthing In Between & What's New ::

A lot of thingz has been happenin in our livez lately.. The good, the bad  the ugly.. U name it.. We got it.. Be it at werk, at home or in between uz..

Let's start with me ferst..

Previously, things at werk were atrocious, i tell u.. It juz felt like breakin down n cry in front of e whole wide werld.. I was pretty much pushed too hard n also was tryin my very best to make things better.. Stayed back late every nw n den juz to finish up the tasks as much as i could.. There was once, the beginning, i had 2 stae till like 8.15pm juz to complete the tasks.. OMG~ BF was pretty pissed n upset with that.. But thank God he had an extra helmet with him at werk.. So he told me to wait for him.. While waiting, i was practically chillin n sumwhat enjoin the 'nitelife' in a office on a FRIDAE.. Hahahaha.. When BF arrived, he looked super HOT in his FULL uniform.. *Singin* Oh My Gosh~~~~ Ok fine.. Mengakal moment... *slurp*

After that, we head down to Teh Tarik for dinner.. We had a luvly chat during dinner.. Den he received a msg frm Hus n he stated that on dat very nite, thr was a jamming session.. Enader last minute thing... Told him 2 pass the session, but Hus juz kept pleadin him 2 come with the reason the vocal is comin ova.. So ok lor.. Went home right after that, showered, n met him back... To tell u the truth, the vocalist is nowhr near FAME..

Regarding him plak, is basically abt his mom nagging at him 2 get a part tyme job.. Y laze ard at home without any benefits bla bla bla... That's all i noe la kan.. :)

Next, abt us.. Things got pretty much outta hand lately.. There were lotsa fights between us despite we were already ok.. Within a few minutes or perhapz the next dae, we'll start 2 fight again.. Stuffs about gettin a car, abt me, abt him, anything la.. But yesterdae was the werst in our fights list.. Blame me n my foul mouth n PMS.. Haiyah~ I didn't mean to blurt it out coz 2 me, he's not dat kinda person.. He'z juz someone who demands attention whenever he can get any.. And dat onli happenz when he's with me.. Like physically.. So yeah.. He saed somethin hurtftul to me the night before n i made it sound twice as hurtful.. Sometymes i wonder if 'twice' is even the correct calculation.. Could be more den dat.. N yes, i shot him straight in his head, wishing that i could juz point the tip of the gun at my head n juz pull the trigger...But that's equivalent to givin up. I fought for his love so bad. I won't wanna risk everything by givin up..

So we talked the nite awae.. Tryin meanz n waez to settle everything, but it turned out that i'm creatin more problemz in between.. I juz feel like runnin up 2 him n hug him as tight as i could.. Haiz.. I gave him mindless terms n conditions which was in a wae extremely difficult to even sae it out.. But it was saed out aniwae.. Heart was heavy.. It hurts like hell.... I've hurt the man i luved s0o dearly.. This tyme round, it will leave a permanent scar on him.. What haf i done...??? I'm sucha BYTCH....!!!

N yesterdae was fine.. I guess... Met him at his carpark as per normal n had dinner with him.. I talked to him during dinner n shared with him details he nids to noe.. Den along the wae, thru the end, somethin happened.. He was not his oldself.. I could it.. I tried to be nice to him.. But it didn't work out. He was still distant towards me.. But den again, all i could do is juz face up 2 him n smile, assuring myself things are going to be juz fine..

At nite, we chatted on e fone awhile before he started to sing.. I was serenaded by hiz tone n juz remain quiet.. He sang n sang n i wished we could've hung up earlier or maebe i could juz crack my brainz n opened a dumb topic.. He asked me a question which realli hurts me alot.. I tried to avoid it, but comin to e end of the conversation, i juz told him i respected his decisions.. Thinking that he already saed 'gdbye', i juz hung up the fone.. He called me back n saed that i hung up on him again... Wat e heck~ Enader misunderstanding.. He wanted to talk abt it the very nite, but i was too slpy already.. My head was already thumpin like mad it could juz explode.. 

Woke up the very next day n noticed that his msgs were not sincere.. It felt like as if he was forced to msg me.. So i juz texted him that if his not willing to send any msgs, dun bother.. N kabo0m..! The fight continued.. Haishh... We were arguing all the wae from the moment i left home till e very moment i reached the office.. Due to e headache i had, i took a cab..

I juz told him wat was really happenin n wat i'm realli facing. I told him i was apologetic n juz wanz thingz to b the wae it was... I wan the old him back.. I HATE the new him.. I totally DESPISE that person... So i told him that unless i get the old raffi back n m realli assure i got him back, things will definitely b ok.. But den again, onli tyme will tell..

We've been fighting alot lately & it's extremely sucky.. Both of uz juz wan the honeymoon period back.. Coz i can c that e period has sumwhat ended.. I'm tryin my very bezt 2 get that period back.. All i wan is the man whom i used to chase 4 mnths ago like hell - juz to get his freakin attention..

I luv u, ayah.. Alot... More than u can eva imagine.. Despite there are moments i might not show how much u mean 2 me, but truth is, i'm willing to take e bullet for u..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wanz The Man Whom She Used To Chase 4 Months Ago