The Past & The Present.. (I Can't Think Of The Future For Now)...

Lotsa things have been happening lately.. Pretty surprises n also the 'OMG' kinda surprises.. Let's start with 'OMG' shall we..? I was late in my mensus n didn't think much abt it. During the fasting month, thr were some hiccups which i was down with a gastric pain that i neva had before. When i went to the doctor, he kept askin me when was my last period n when should the next one come.. I told him the details and such. As days goes by, i feel a lil uncomfortable n cranky every now n den.. I get hungry easily n i demanded for lotsa things.. HmMmMmMm.. During raya season, i found out i was carryin Smurf..

BF helped me with the research for the clinic he can think off. I was upset for the fact i couldn't keep it.. How to..? i'm not stable enough.. Fast forward - after the appt with the doctor, i decided to keep it for at least a wk before baby has to go.. During the entire wk, i played with it, talked to it, cried with it n even snored with it. Smurf was definitely close to BF coz each n every day, i juz wanna meet him n not wanting to seperate. Eventho i was VERY tired..

During the very last moments, i juz cried my heart out when BF asked me - are you ready for tomorrow..? Truth is - i was NOT..!! I was NOT prepared to let him go~ He was onli 3cm.. He was so0o0o small.. But i could feel how BIG he was inside.. He knew he was luved - alot.. But not much enough to prevent all this from happenin.. He wanted to stae.. But there's nothing we can do.. :'( During the whole procedure, i was aslp.. But then, Smurf gave me a pretty pleasant dream. I love you, Smurf.. Alot.. I juz couldn't stop cryin at nite.. I woke up, with wet face.. OMG.. I was cryin in my slp.

As for work, things are fine now. I've buck with my attendance n definitely - working attitude.

That's all i wanna sae.. My mind is all filled with Smurf.. And BF of coz..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Burried Her Precious Gem Deep In Her Heart.. So So Deep..

Part 2 Of The Updatez

On Saturdae, was iftar session with the Yishun Mob n part of the Ampang Clan.. More like juz Pak Lang, Mak Lang n Hafiz.. Plus, Uncle Asad n his bakal isteri.. Pretty yaw.. When i reached the place, mak andak was like charging me straight in my face n asked: y neva update me that u got boifren already..?? Tsk~~ Notty ehk rahsia2.. Hahah.. I juz told her ma was my PA wat.. She will be the one updating the whole family juz like how she updated u when i broke of my 5yrs relationship with Raini.. Hor..? N she went, well, i think ur mom told tok, but neva tell me la.. Hahaha.. So ok, i gave the the brief details on how it happened n y it happened.. She exclaimed - ROMANTICNYER KORANG NYER LURVE STORY.. Ok~~ So aniwae, iftar was a bliss as well.. Lotsa laughters filled the air.. When mak andak heard that BF was fetching me, she asked him to come up coz she wanted to see how he looks like. Initiallie, he declined the offer.. After buka, he saed that he was coming up n apologised for his behaviour.. When he came, i introduced him to the rest of the peeps at home.. Granny talked to him like as if she has known him for quite a while.. Wae to go, Grandma.. She sure does made him feel the warmth.. N yes, BF was ultimately shy n when we left, his palms were pretty cold.. Nervous yer, syg..? Heee..

After that, we went to Marsiling Lama to hunt for raya outfit.. He planned on Miss Saigon i think, in which it has already changed to Hoyen for quite a few years already.. So yeah, he found the colour n texture of his choice which costs $78 i think, but thr was nothing for me.. After all, that's the onli store that sells baju melayu. So i decided on Geylang after that.. Pumped the petrol n off we go to Ra Ra Bazaar.. K crappy... I noe.. -___-

So we walked ard TKC n we managed to find something we realli liked.. The thing is, it's too damn pricey.. Haiyah.. Wanted to walk along the bazaar itself, but BF insisted we leave the area coz he hatez the crowds.. So ok... Off we went home.. N he tot i was pissed with him for wanting to leave, but actuallie, it was one of my silent moments.. The moment in which i had nothing to sae..

Sundae was enader peaceful dae for us.. He purchased Star Sports on MIO that has MOTO GP n was definitely glued to it.. So, i prepared break fast by laying out the table.. N when tyme was up 2 break fast, we ate n talked.. About MOTO GP.. Y..? His eyes were still glued to the tv.. But i dun mind.. It's his favourtie.. Once in a while den he get to watch the TV.. Juz let him watch till his heart's content.. N yeah, he watched it till the very end of it.. :)

As the tyme flies, it was tyme to leave.. Can't wait to meet him tonight.. I love u, yah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Had A Lovely Weekend.. Can't Wait For The Next One..

What's Hot & What's Not

Ola.. Let's backtrack wae down to last Thursdae.. HmMmMm.. Initiallie, the plan was to stae at werk late n finish all the assignments given, till bf popped the idea of bringing helmet in which he could've fetched me from werk, after he finished his.. He was stationed at Central that dae.. So after a long tot, hmm... Y not i go home n get my helmet then..? He disagreed once on this issue, but i told him that i wanna go shopping.. Maebe shop for some clothez for Sat.. :) In between, there was a so0n-2-be major fight when i was at home n in the cab, but i managed to tone it down back n met him at Central Fire Station... Head down to Wheelock whr he parked his bike n we walked down to Far East Plaza.. We went from shops to shops n still we couldn't find wat we want.. Even if thr was, it's basically solo, not couple wear.. -___- In the end, we bought the Mr Men & Lil Miss tops at the basement which costed him $23 total... His was Mr Grumpy.. Mine was supposed to be Lil Miss Stubborn, but i already have it.. There was no Lil Miss Attitude coz it doesn't exist.. So he got me Lil Miss Naughty.. Heh~We had a focused dinner at KFC.. Both of us were pretty starved by den.. & it was already like 9.30pm or 9.45pm.. After dinner, we walked back to the bike n head home..

Fridae was a dae full of things to do.. BF went for the interview which turned out that it was not realli wat he wanted.. The pae was pretty low.. After that, went to his bike shop near Queenswae Shopping Centre to settle his installment, insurance n road tax.. Next was to Everbright to change his spocket n chain... He's realli hepi with the new one n when he brakes, it makes a c0ol noize.. Heh.. Lunch was at e canteen.. After that, head down to Motor World whr there was enader disappointment - there were no tank bags for him. Aww.. We got ourselves the head cover n visor cleaner.. Ouh..!! I saw the Venecia full faced helmet in pink!! Trade in with my old Hyper Blade n all i need to do is to top up $100..!! Then, went to Kedai Anak Aunty n got ourselves new stickerz n new helmets from Regina.. :) After that, head home, put the tings n left for Woodlands lamer.. Thr, i bought myself the a jacket.. Finally, i own a bike's jacket..

 At night was very explosive... I was pretty upset that he forgotten abt me.. So, i buried myself deep in my games coz that was e onli 'fren' i had.. Apparently, he did noticed my face n asked me wat was wrong.. I jus saed 'nothing'.. I dun wan talk abt it.. On the bike, he rode like nobody's bisness.. N i jus shouted at him that i will jump.. Like seriously, i WILL jump.. Watever happenz, happenz arh.. He stopped by the bus stop n asked me wat was wrong.. I juz shouted at him in the moment of anger.. After in which he saed he gave up, i juz took a cab home, leaving him behind.. I looked back, n slowly seeing him gettin smaller n smaller frm my sight..

Back under my blk, when we met again, he wanted to return back his ring.. After so many failed attempts, i took it n placed it back onto his finger. That's whr it belonged.. It has his name on it.. It has already been sealed.. Nothing's n no one's gonna take that place.. I love him alot, i really do... I'm sucha Self-Centered-Attitude-Demanding-Annoying-Attention-Seeking lady.. Pfft..!

Saturdae, went to do my hair.. It costs $110 + $18 for the hair cream.. Cheap... :) It took ard 2 hours to finally get it done.. After which, head down to Woodlands Mart & bf got his hair cut.. Another dae of disappointment.. The hairdresser kinda like anyhow cut his hair, n he left the shop with a black face.. Tsk! Had lunch there.. I had mee hoon goreng no veggie add big2 meat, while he had a mixture of mee goreng+kwae teow, both mata lembu.. I ordered chicken wings as sides.. :) Back at home, we get down to business n do up the helmets.. It was more like he did the waxing n cleaning, which took 30mins per helmet.. Heheheh.. I proceeded with painting my nailz orange in colour.. Yes, he lovez the colour.. He lovez the hair.. He lovez everything arh.. Hehehehe...

At night, went to Nabins n had our shisha session.. The sugee is nice!!!!! Cocoa powder n almonds.. Oh lazatnyer..!!!! Den head down to Marina Barrage n chill out for a while before we decided to seperate with the rest.. They're planning to chill out at Yishun Dam.. Bf saw me realli sleepy, so he decided to go home.. So sweet of him.. Summore, it was already like 3am.. (-_-)zz

Sundae was filled up with the continue of cleaning the helmets n pasting of stickers.. :) It was indeed, a peaceful Sundae for the both of us..

I Love You, Yah... Muakz~!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes Her Week Will Be As Peaceful As Sunday.. :)

~Why Oh Why~

Weekend was a blast despite the fact part of the Saturdae was a total disaster.. Still, as alwaez, he managed to make me realize again and again how in luv he was with me.. Went to the cage at Kallang whr Team Qirana had a frenly match with Team Havana.. BF left the cage with scars on his face.. Aiyo.. Wat e hell..! But still, u're lo0kin as hot as eva, honey.. :) Supper was at KTM which epul did most of the talkin.. Frankly, i was already half aslp.. Thank gawd waty poked me.. Heh~ Back at home, while chillin n talkin 2 him, his brudder stepped in n told uz that he was involved in an accident.. Wounds lo0ked pretty bad... Had to force BF to take a look at e wounds.. -___- & i have a habit for feelin tingly n painful all ova when seein otha ppl's wounds n blo0d.. Still, i wanna see... Crappy rite..? 0_0


On Sunday, BF dropped the bomb to me n saed that he wanna get engage with me.. Wow.. I was left speechless lor.. N blushing at e same tyme... We did the calculations n i came up with a final ans that if he starts to save $500 as of next month (Aug 2010), by Oct 2014, he'll have $25,000 in hiz savingz acc already.. N he finds the month real nice.. It's in btwn the both of us.. I'm Sept & he's Nov.. :)


So on Monday.. Yes..! I was pretty lazy to get my stinkin ass off the bed n into the freakin shower n get ready to go to work.. After much tossin n turnin, i get up n got the ball rolling.. The day was fine.. Things went super well.. Even at werk.. No problemz were raised.. If so, it'z basically juz minor2 onez.. The dae ended, perfectly fine..


Today was kinda sucky.. 1st was about the clothez.. I dun realli noe how to eplain in details arh.. All i can sae was that i'm upset... I came to a point in which i'll throw all those tight-fitting, body-hugging, short skirtz, leggingz awae.. I dun find the purpose into keepin dem already.. So so0n enuff, i'll be back 2 being me again, back in 2005... Whr it's alwaez jeanz n t-shirt... Even if i need to wear office wear, i'll wear those long not-too-tight office pants n long-sleeved office top.. As for work, meeting went well n we came to an agreement between StagingDA & SCCM.. I explained to dem the difficulty on my side, while dey explained theirs.. Back in the office, nearin towards the end of the dae, thingz got pretty rough.. I find myself not in the mo0d for anything since i received an email regarding missing applications.. N truth is, i didn't even do it.. But den, wateva concerns app mapping, i'll b the first in line to get sho0t at by the boss.. Haizz...


Back at home, i didn't noe wat my mind was thinking.. All i azked myself was - wat e hell is wrong with u..? How could u possibly asked for a 4-days off from meetin e man whom u reali luv..? Dun u pity him..? Oh, u self-centered bytch..! But then, he has already agreed to it.. He's givin me all the space he could give even it's for sure it's beyond his meanz.. All i did was cried the moment i got into the room n hugged my bear.. I have no idea wat state i am in now.. All i could think of was to curl up n buried my face in my pillows..


True: I'll miss his hugs..
True: I'll miss his touch..
True: I'll miss his laughter..
True: I'll miss his eyes..
True: I'll miss his kisses..


True enough, I'll miss each & every single detail there is to it abt him..


Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Dazed & Confuzed

:: The Past, Sumthing In Between & What's New ::

A lot of thingz has been happenin in our livez lately.. The good, the bad  the ugly.. U name it.. We got it.. Be it at werk, at home or in between uz..

Let's start with me ferst..

Previously, things at werk were atrocious, i tell u.. It juz felt like breakin down n cry in front of e whole wide werld.. I was pretty much pushed too hard n also was tryin my very best to make things better.. Stayed back late every nw n den juz to finish up the tasks as much as i could.. There was once, the beginning, i had 2 stae till like 8.15pm juz to complete the tasks.. OMG~ BF was pretty pissed n upset with that.. But thank God he had an extra helmet with him at werk.. So he told me to wait for him.. While waiting, i was practically chillin n sumwhat enjoin the 'nitelife' in a office on a FRIDAE.. Hahahaha.. When BF arrived, he looked super HOT in his FULL uniform.. *Singin* Oh My Gosh~~~~ Ok fine.. Mengakal moment... *slurp*

After that, we head down to Teh Tarik for dinner.. We had a luvly chat during dinner.. Den he received a msg frm Hus n he stated that on dat very nite, thr was a jamming session.. Enader last minute thing... Told him 2 pass the session, but Hus juz kept pleadin him 2 come with the reason the vocal is comin ova.. So ok lor.. Went home right after that, showered, n met him back... To tell u the truth, the vocalist is nowhr near FAME..

Regarding him plak, is basically abt his mom nagging at him 2 get a part tyme job.. Y laze ard at home without any benefits bla bla bla... That's all i noe la kan.. :)

Next, abt us.. Things got pretty much outta hand lately.. There were lotsa fights between us despite we were already ok.. Within a few minutes or perhapz the next dae, we'll start 2 fight again.. Stuffs about gettin a car, abt me, abt him, anything la.. But yesterdae was the werst in our fights list.. Blame me n my foul mouth n PMS.. Haiyah~ I didn't mean to blurt it out coz 2 me, he's not dat kinda person.. He'z juz someone who demands attention whenever he can get any.. And dat onli happenz when he's with me.. Like physically.. So yeah.. He saed somethin hurtftul to me the night before n i made it sound twice as hurtful.. Sometymes i wonder if 'twice' is even the correct calculation.. Could be more den dat.. N yes, i shot him straight in his head, wishing that i could juz point the tip of the gun at my head n juz pull the trigger...But that's equivalent to givin up. I fought for his love so bad. I won't wanna risk everything by givin up..

So we talked the nite awae.. Tryin meanz n waez to settle everything, but it turned out that i'm creatin more problemz in between.. I juz feel like runnin up 2 him n hug him as tight as i could.. Haiz.. I gave him mindless terms n conditions which was in a wae extremely difficult to even sae it out.. But it was saed out aniwae.. Heart was heavy.. It hurts like hell.... I've hurt the man i luved s0o dearly.. This tyme round, it will leave a permanent scar on him.. What haf i done...??? I'm sucha BYTCH....!!!

N yesterdae was fine.. I guess... Met him at his carpark as per normal n had dinner with him.. I talked to him during dinner n shared with him details he nids to noe.. Den along the wae, thru the end, somethin happened.. He was not his oldself.. I could it.. I tried to be nice to him.. But it didn't work out. He was still distant towards me.. But den again, all i could do is juz face up 2 him n smile, assuring myself things are going to be juz fine..

At nite, we chatted on e fone awhile before he started to sing.. I was serenaded by hiz tone n juz remain quiet.. He sang n sang n i wished we could've hung up earlier or maebe i could juz crack my brainz n opened a dumb topic.. He asked me a question which realli hurts me alot.. I tried to avoid it, but comin to e end of the conversation, i juz told him i respected his decisions.. Thinking that he already saed 'gdbye', i juz hung up the fone.. He called me back n saed that i hung up on him again... Wat e heck~ Enader misunderstanding.. He wanted to talk abt it the very nite, but i was too slpy already.. My head was already thumpin like mad it could juz explode.. 

Woke up the very next day n noticed that his msgs were not sincere.. It felt like as if he was forced to msg me.. So i juz texted him that if his not willing to send any msgs, dun bother.. N kabo0m..! The fight continued.. Haishh... We were arguing all the wae from the moment i left home till e very moment i reached the office.. Due to e headache i had, i took a cab..

I juz told him wat was really happenin n wat i'm realli facing. I told him i was apologetic n juz wanz thingz to b the wae it was... I wan the old him back.. I HATE the new him.. I totally DESPISE that person... So i told him that unless i get the old raffi back n m realli assure i got him back, things will definitely b ok.. But den again, onli tyme will tell..

We've been fighting alot lately & it's extremely sucky.. Both of uz juz wan the honeymoon period back.. Coz i can c that e period has sumwhat ended.. I'm tryin my very bezt 2 get that period back.. All i wan is the man whom i used to chase 4 mnths ago like hell - juz to get his freakin attention..

I luv u, ayah.. Alot... More than u can eva imagine.. Despite there are moments i might not show how much u mean 2 me, but truth is, i'm willing to take e bullet for u..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wanz The Man Whom She Used To Chase 4 Months Ago

My Poor Baby

And so, baby is upset n depressed of the tings that are goin on his life.. He feelz realli down at dis very moment due to various issues.. He needs me - really bad.. But i feel bad myself coz i can't be thr for him... Thr he is, in e comfort of him own home, thinkin of all e things he could think off, waiting for me patiently to finish e dae at werk... Here i am, at werk, basically hafta complete wateva tasks assigned to me & at e same tyme, wanting to be thr for him.. But wat can i do? Juz hafta wait for e dae to pass by asap.. Coz each n every moment in my life, is alwayz waiting for e dae for me to reunite back with him.. It's in hiz armz whr i belonged..

I miss you~

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Noez That Her Master Yearns For Her Now

All I Can Think About For Now

Damn!! I ovaslept.. Told BF i wanna shower at 6.30am, but i fell aslp eventuallie.. Lucky thing he called at 7.40am.. Hah! Panick attack!!! But me, being e CUTE one, juz cutely told him ova my cute fone in a cute tone, 'Heh.. I juz woke up....' N he was pissed la of coz...

So off e bed n dragged my feet to e shower n showered lazily... Eyes were still closed btw.. Hahahaha.. Told it was half an hour alreadi, but neh.. It lasted for onli 20 mins.. Normal tymin.. HmMmMm.. Texted BF to come ova while waitin for me.. At least he's not bored.. So, as i was doin my make up, i gave him his toi - my mobile.. Or should i sae - OUR mobile... :)

Breakfast at KFC was simply lurve~~ Enader craving down - porridge.. =) BF was juz in hiz berangan moment abt us married alreadi coz he was readin e paper n i was preparin hiz bweakfast.. I plaed along with him.. Hehehehe.. Manerla tau, berangan akan menjadik kenyataan.. InsyaAllah.. ;)

He sent me to werk n off he went to do his bike...

Morning was bad for my Lil Miss Joanne... Email war.. NYEH!! Kecoh abez.. It sux when u get a person whose sto0pid for a boss.. Dey dun c as a whole, dey c as a part.. Dey kept on adding fuel to the flame n kept saein thr's lotsa problemz.. Clarified with Joanne, she saed thr's actuallie NO PROBLEMZ at all.. Gosh boss!! U're practically outdated i muz sae.. -.-

Ouh ya.. Random pix taken at BF's place.. He was forced by ME to entertain me.. Hahahaha!! I LUV U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Luvz The Attention She's Getting

To All The People Out Thr..

Domestic violence.. HmMmMm.. Dat phrase lingers in my head... It's happening like - everywhere.. The internet, the news & even to those whom i really care for..

Met up with cik gerl yesterdae with BF n we drove to Mandai... Thr, she really poured out all dat's been happening to her.. It's like, wat i noe, since their engagement, he has laid his handz on her n caused her lips to slit opened.. But lil did i expect, it will continue till today. She's ur wife.. She takez care of ur needz, ur basic necessities, the houze, the catz n even ur manly nids.. She was there when u needed her, despite takin unnecessary MCs n all.. Y must u do dis to a lady whom i can confidently sae - an ideal wife? U've hurt her not juz outside, but inside.. U dun see to her demands.. U dun see to her wanz n nidz.. Promised to luv n cherished her during the wedding vow.. Was it juz for show? Was it juz for matter of saein all those accordin to procedurez? True enuff, i wanted her to end all dis.. But being a wife, she thinks of u 1zt eventhough she noes this is a losing end for her. & u deemly fit noez y i'm saein all dis. I respect u on account of being a leader.. But to lay hands on a woman, do u even think, personally u deserve any respect?

To all men out there, when u've already got a gerl of ur dreamz / choice, cherish her.. Hold her hands n guide her.. Coz along e wae, she can still get lost.. Hug her n kip her safe.. Coz there will be tymes whrby she'll get scared of wat's happening around her.. Kiss her forehead every now n den to remind her dat u're constantly thinking of her.. Coz thr are moments she will think u might have forgotten her.. Say Thank You if u mean it.. Coz sometymez she might feel unappreciated..

Juz so u noe, wateva negative things u're doin 2 ur partner, there's alwaez someone out thr who wishes he/she could take ur place n give ur partner a betta treatment..

Vice Versa..

So fellaz, tell your lady she's THE ONE~

Ladies, tell your man he's got your LOVE~

My man has got my love & it ain't goin nowhr.. I admit, i am scared to get married afta all e stories ard me.. But with a man like HIM, i guess i can juz clear wateva doubts i'm havin rite now.. He luvz me &; i noe it's alot.. Not as much as he missez me every now n den.. So yeah, point is - i'm willin to be his wife, despite e fact i'll get kick in e bed when we're aslp.. Or more like, he's aslp.. Coz at e end of it, he still gives me endless luv.. InsyaAllah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Afraid Of Domestic Violence (DUH!), But Ready To Face Her Next Step In Life..