** Updatez On What's Hot & What's Not **

Soon enough, it's gonna be a month since I forced him 2 go.. Still, the soury sweet memories will alwayz be with me. Those lil hepi moments, those 'i WAN' moments, will be as fresh as it juz happened yesterday. Those pretty dreams that i came across.. Juz leavez me smiling the very next morning. I noe, Smurf is still ard.. I juz noe.. Smurf is there whreva i am.. I juz knew it.. :)

3rd Oct was Jalan Raya Yo with Bunga Hitam.. I waz sexcited lor..!! My ferst raya outing with Bunga Hitam.. Yeahoo..!! N me n bf wore our pretty CUTE pink couple outfit.. N when i looked at us in the mirror, we look like pengantin seii.. Hehehe.. Met Aan n Ajid kat carpark Aan n we head down to Mok's place at Hougang togetha.. Spent quite sometime thr.. More like some of the time was wasted while waiting for the rest to arrive.. The trip 2 e 2nd house was disasterous as some ppl juz intend to forget on waitin for the othaz, n simply left ajid, bf n me behind. We got lost along the wae, but sumhow managed to find the wae to the next house. Which was eventuallie, 1 of the gerls whom i hate. She's mok's NYP frenz i think.. But wateva~ I hate her. She's boastful.. I saw lotsa new faces like WAKA WAKA.. hahahaha..!! Lesbo~ Overall, the outing was splendid.. Many pix were taken n yeah, had a hell of a gd tyme..

For werk last wk, it was pretty fine.. I'm doing really well with werk n i'm hepi.. :) I've completed all the Mass Deployments for this wk.. Yay~ As long as i'm remained undisturbed, things will be ok.. Starting slowly to save my losses previously. I juz wan the figure to be 4 figures.. No more 3 digits.. This will be the last tyme i'm gonna use my savings on acc Sophia needs a doctor.. Well, i ride on her too. I noe bf disagree on me doin the bike.. But hey, juz this once k, ayah..?? I love her too u noe.. Kk.. I love u MORE~ :D So that's the plan for this coming Sat - to bring Sophia out for a trip 2 her doctor. She's startin 2 fall sick liao la.. Cannot delay.. 

I had my hair cut yesterday.. I told the stylist to chop off wateva is spoilt at the ends.. She did a pretty great job n my hair is now healthy n shiny~ :) Doesn't look as dead as it was before. Chop off the fringe abit.. Loike loike..!! Even bf likes it.. Did it at Defone salon @ Woodlands Mart.. Coming back next month to dye my hair at a reasonable price of $80.. Ok  wat hor..? :D

That's all for now.. Will update if thr's more..

Signing Off : The Kitty

The Past & The Present.. (I Can't Think Of The Future For Now)...

Lotsa things have been happening lately.. Pretty surprises n also the 'OMG' kinda surprises.. Let's start with 'OMG' shall we..? I was late in my mensus n didn't think much abt it. During the fasting month, thr were some hiccups which i was down with a gastric pain that i neva had before. When i went to the doctor, he kept askin me when was my last period n when should the next one come.. I told him the details and such. As days goes by, i feel a lil uncomfortable n cranky every now n den.. I get hungry easily n i demanded for lotsa things.. HmMmMmMm.. During raya season, i found out i was carryin Smurf..

BF helped me with the research for the clinic he can think off. I was upset for the fact i couldn't keep it.. How to..? i'm not stable enough.. Fast forward - after the appt with the doctor, i decided to keep it for at least a wk before baby has to go.. During the entire wk, i played with it, talked to it, cried with it n even snored with it. Smurf was definitely close to BF coz each n every day, i juz wanna meet him n not wanting to seperate. Eventho i was VERY tired..

During the very last moments, i juz cried my heart out when BF asked me - are you ready for tomorrow..? Truth is - i was NOT..!! I was NOT prepared to let him go~ He was onli 3cm.. He was so0o0o small.. But i could feel how BIG he was inside.. He knew he was luved - alot.. But not much enough to prevent all this from happenin.. He wanted to stae.. But there's nothing we can do.. :'( During the whole procedure, i was aslp.. But then, Smurf gave me a pretty pleasant dream. I love you, Smurf.. Alot.. I juz couldn't stop cryin at nite.. I woke up, with wet face.. OMG.. I was cryin in my slp.

As for work, things are fine now. I've buck with my attendance n definitely - working attitude.

That's all i wanna sae.. My mind is all filled with Smurf.. And BF of coz..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Burried Her Precious Gem Deep In Her Heart.. So So Deep..

During Ramadhan...

During Ramadhan, macam2 dugaan yg dialami, dilalui, diberi etc.. Starting jek, thr were some miscommunicationz n misunderstandingz back in e office.. On top of that, gastric started to attack.. Ouch..!! Me n bf broke up for a few hours, stuffs like dat..

In e early weeks of Ramadhan, me n bf head down to geylang to hunt for baju raya.. We found wat we like, but it was too expensive.. But in e end, we finally got it, in pink (not his choice of colour tone though, but he likes the design).. In e process of gettin one, i have to go thru his baby moods like, his rimas moment, rushing nak buka tyming.. Stuffs like dat.. As for him, he did his part to.. He entertained my perfectionist attitude.. As in, everything has to be in order and the same.. :) Mine is tailormade n it costed $180, while BF, for once, bought an expensive outfit n costed him $160. Take it as a reward that this yr, u fast whole-heartedly... :)

Work, same shit different day arh.. Each day when i stepped in the office, i was in e good mood until i saw his face.. -.- It irks me like hell.. Yucks..!

This morning, reached the office n got a disgusting email from the lead regarding half day might not be approved.. How inconsiderate can this leads get sia..? Blardy A-hole..!

Raya is juz ard the corner.. 4 days to be exact.. Mom n sista are at home cleanin the house.. Hopefully, mostly are done by the tyme i get home.. 2 more days and it's tyme for me to drive the apv home (with daddy as my instructor..) Hopefully he's in a good mood when dat happens.. :) And yesterday at Geylang, bought the family outfit n mama got me a gold pendant which is the letter N.. I'm wearin it now out of excitement..!! Hehehe..

N yes, i miss my bear bacen alot.. Like, seriously, alot.. All i wanna do is hug him tightly when we meet, juz look into his seductive n sae nothing (juz let e eyez do the talk), fondle with his hair when he lies down comfortably on my legs or perhaps, beside me.. Snuggle up with him, bury my face in his skin n get lost within, n eventuallie, fall aslp beside the man i realli adore, love n respect...

I Love You, Yah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Pissed With The Leads At Work But Hepi With Things Outside..

Part 2 Of The Updatez

On Saturdae, was iftar session with the Yishun Mob n part of the Ampang Clan.. More like juz Pak Lang, Mak Lang n Hafiz.. Plus, Uncle Asad n his bakal isteri.. Pretty yaw.. When i reached the place, mak andak was like charging me straight in my face n asked: y neva update me that u got boifren already..?? Tsk~~ Notty ehk rahsia2.. Hahah.. I juz told her ma was my PA wat.. She will be the one updating the whole family juz like how she updated u when i broke of my 5yrs relationship with Raini.. Hor..? N she went, well, i think ur mom told tok, but neva tell me la.. Hahaha.. So ok, i gave the the brief details on how it happened n y it happened.. She exclaimed - ROMANTICNYER KORANG NYER LURVE STORY.. Ok~~ So aniwae, iftar was a bliss as well.. Lotsa laughters filled the air.. When mak andak heard that BF was fetching me, she asked him to come up coz she wanted to see how he looks like. Initiallie, he declined the offer.. After buka, he saed that he was coming up n apologised for his behaviour.. When he came, i introduced him to the rest of the peeps at home.. Granny talked to him like as if she has known him for quite a while.. Wae to go, Grandma.. She sure does made him feel the warmth.. N yes, BF was ultimately shy n when we left, his palms were pretty cold.. Nervous yer, syg..? Heee..

After that, we went to Marsiling Lama to hunt for raya outfit.. He planned on Miss Saigon i think, in which it has already changed to Hoyen for quite a few years already.. So yeah, he found the colour n texture of his choice which costs $78 i think, but thr was nothing for me.. After all, that's the onli store that sells baju melayu. So i decided on Geylang after that.. Pumped the petrol n off we go to Ra Ra Bazaar.. K crappy... I noe.. -___-

So we walked ard TKC n we managed to find something we realli liked.. The thing is, it's too damn pricey.. Haiyah.. Wanted to walk along the bazaar itself, but BF insisted we leave the area coz he hatez the crowds.. So ok... Off we went home.. N he tot i was pissed with him for wanting to leave, but actuallie, it was one of my silent moments.. The moment in which i had nothing to sae..

Sundae was enader peaceful dae for us.. He purchased Star Sports on MIO that has MOTO GP n was definitely glued to it.. So, i prepared break fast by laying out the table.. N when tyme was up 2 break fast, we ate n talked.. About MOTO GP.. Y..? His eyes were still glued to the tv.. But i dun mind.. It's his favourtie.. Once in a while den he get to watch the TV.. Juz let him watch till his heart's content.. N yeah, he watched it till the very end of it.. :)

As the tyme flies, it was tyme to leave.. Can't wait to meet him tonight.. I love u, yah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Had A Lovely Weekend.. Can't Wait For The Next One..

A Perfect Saturday

Let's skip Friday's story, shall we..? All i can sae was SALT was an extremely great movie which worth every penny paid n just so u noe, the nite almost ended in a complete disaster.. Like i saed, let's juz skip dat part..

So on sat, followed BF to his relatives place at AMK whr they're having prayers for the deceased.. Practically, i was shy.. Found a place beside his sister which his mom has given up n thank goodness he sat beside me as well.. Phew~ Recite together with dem n halfwae thru, the tummy starts to rumble.. Luckily no one heard the disturbing noise.. Hehehe... During the short break, when the food was served, the dishes were superb n wanted to help myself to more servings.. But den i remembered i was at a relative's place, so i maintained.. Control beb.. Ader jek kene label pelahap.. Paiseh beb... Lol.. After the closing prayers were done, bf was told to send the man whom has helped the family with the reciting, home.. He had to send him all the wae to MacPherson.. So ok.. I helped ard the house by cleaning up the mess left behind - for the 2nd batch of ppl to eat.. After awhile, i felt like i was redundant thr, so i asked Fizah to accompany me to the shop.. In a wae, i can get to noe her more closer.. :)

When BF is back, he bought me again to the shop - thinking i hadn't got my stuffs.. When i told him i already did, he was like - Alah.. I'm bringin u thr 2 buy ur things leiiii.... Lol.. But we still proceed to the shop whr i bought him a pkt of milo n me, chocolate milk.. We sat n talked, he was complaining to me the fact he had to send the man all the wae to MacPherson, when 1 of his uncles saed that it's along Thompson.. Lol~ Back upstairs, he introduced me to his relatives, whom he labelled "My Favourite Ones".. Found them funny n easy to click.. After which we helped ourselves to the 2nd serving.. Had mee goreng this tyme round.. The 1zt one was lontong, rendang n serunding.. Sedap you..! When tyme was up, we bid each other goodbye n proceeded with our plan - shopping at bugis..!

There, we bought 3 sets of couple tees.. KTM, stripe polo tees inspired by 77 Street n a random pink top with printings.. Mine was Daddy's Little Princess, while his was a printing of a music note.. Since he's into music.. We spent $118 altogether.. After that, we head home to put the things since there were too many for me to carry.. Reached home n quickly took my shower since we're goin out again - to Dam n meet the team for their monthly meeting.. ;)

At the dam, sat n talked with Waty n Huda.. Wow.. Macam2 woo kiter bobal.. Tsk.. Heard lotsa stories from the past to the present and definitely to the near future. Aiyo..! Betol tak betol seii nih..? I have no comments la to be precise.. All i can sae is - all the best n good luck.. Supper was at buangkok sakura n after that, some of us head home while the rest head to punggol park..

The blog continues with a different title.. Till den, adios~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Enjoied Her Saturdae.. :D

Thirst-Day

And so, my thursdae started off pretty rushy... Set the alarm at 6.45am, but i swear i didn't heard the buzzer went off.. An hour after that, BF called me thrice, den i heard the phone rang... The 1zt tot was - y is the sound so soft..? When i saw the tyme, i was like - Holy Canope..!!! Please dun tell me he has already gotten ready...! Answered the call n was about to apologize, onli to hear that he was e one whom apologised to me... Reason: He lowered down the volume of my hp, n forgot to set it back to its original volume... -___- No wonder la..~ Off the bed n straight to the shower.. Texted Rachelle n saed that i'll be late coz i overslept..

Met him at 8.30am n went for breakfast at KFC.. Had the usual - Plain porridge (no spring onions n fried shallots).. Talked as we had breakfast.. N the bf was supposed to report to HQ at 10.30am, but he texted his OM, askin if it was ok if he neva turn up.. Replied was that he has to go to Clementi/Tamp to cover as 2nd Medic.. He asked me if it was ok for him to go home first n change his footwear.. I agreed.. Upon reachin, he asked again if i could spare him some time.. I was like - huh..? Wat else do u wanna do..? He gave me that evil grin n i noe he was up to no good.. He called the one of his colleagues stationed at Tamp i think, n asked her to pakat with him.. Asking her to sign in n out on his behalf.. Pfft..!

Reached the office at ard 10.45am, somewhr thr.. Quickly switched on the computer n get down to business.. Lunch was at pepper lunch n i scalded my right arm, thanks to the hotplate.. -___-'' After which we went to the display area whr there was John Little's sale.. I was lookin for a purple polo for the bf that matches with my purple top dress.. Found some, but i dun dare to buy it, in case he doesn't like it.. So might as well go with him lor..

Back in the office, work was easy breezy.. In my own world, doin my own thing.. At e same time joked n laughed with Joanne.. She left at 5.20pm, since the boss n the man who is a pain in his ass aka best friend was not around.. A few minutes before my time was up, the stupid lady forwarded me an email regarding an issue in which she can check for herself.. Like wat e hell siak..? Stop with the last minute can, u A-Hole..?!

Purchased 2 aparrels from bf's cuzzin n has since decided to come over to her place to  collect n make paement.. I wanted a dress n a printed animal top.. But sad, the S size was too big for me.. Instead, i got a black top as a replacement.. She deals with F21 aparrels.. Chilled out at her place for awhile.. The baby's cute, though.. Geram jek..!!

We head back home at atd 8 i think, n had dinner.. The dish was my all time favourite.. Heh~ During dinner, bf refreshed my memory bout the conflict he had with his cuzzin.. K, so now i noe who's she, the hubby is bf's friend etc.. After that, he spent his tyme with my hp, while i spent mine with psp, den shower, den psp again and den project... Heheh.. N we managed to book a pair of tix to SALT tomorrow at Iluma.. Show time starts at 8.10pm... :) I'm so sexcited yaw..!!! Can't wait for the date...!!!!

Alright.. That's all for now.. As of now, i have a thirst for something which i need to quench... Hehehehe.. Sayonara~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Excited

What's Hot & What's Not

Ola.. Let's backtrack wae down to last Thursdae.. HmMmMm.. Initiallie, the plan was to stae at werk late n finish all the assignments given, till bf popped the idea of bringing helmet in which he could've fetched me from werk, after he finished his.. He was stationed at Central that dae.. So after a long tot, hmm... Y not i go home n get my helmet then..? He disagreed once on this issue, but i told him that i wanna go shopping.. Maebe shop for some clothez for Sat.. :) In between, there was a so0n-2-be major fight when i was at home n in the cab, but i managed to tone it down back n met him at Central Fire Station... Head down to Wheelock whr he parked his bike n we walked down to Far East Plaza.. We went from shops to shops n still we couldn't find wat we want.. Even if thr was, it's basically solo, not couple wear.. -___- In the end, we bought the Mr Men & Lil Miss tops at the basement which costed him $23 total... His was Mr Grumpy.. Mine was supposed to be Lil Miss Stubborn, but i already have it.. There was no Lil Miss Attitude coz it doesn't exist.. So he got me Lil Miss Naughty.. Heh~We had a focused dinner at KFC.. Both of us were pretty starved by den.. & it was already like 9.30pm or 9.45pm.. After dinner, we walked back to the bike n head home..

Fridae was a dae full of things to do.. BF went for the interview which turned out that it was not realli wat he wanted.. The pae was pretty low.. After that, went to his bike shop near Queenswae Shopping Centre to settle his installment, insurance n road tax.. Next was to Everbright to change his spocket n chain... He's realli hepi with the new one n when he brakes, it makes a c0ol noize.. Heh.. Lunch was at e canteen.. After that, head down to Motor World whr there was enader disappointment - there were no tank bags for him. Aww.. We got ourselves the head cover n visor cleaner.. Ouh..!! I saw the Venecia full faced helmet in pink!! Trade in with my old Hyper Blade n all i need to do is to top up $100..!! Then, went to Kedai Anak Aunty n got ourselves new stickerz n new helmets from Regina.. :) After that, head home, put the tings n left for Woodlands lamer.. Thr, i bought myself the a jacket.. Finally, i own a bike's jacket..

 At night was very explosive... I was pretty upset that he forgotten abt me.. So, i buried myself deep in my games coz that was e onli 'fren' i had.. Apparently, he did noticed my face n asked me wat was wrong.. I jus saed 'nothing'.. I dun wan talk abt it.. On the bike, he rode like nobody's bisness.. N i jus shouted at him that i will jump.. Like seriously, i WILL jump.. Watever happenz, happenz arh.. He stopped by the bus stop n asked me wat was wrong.. I juz shouted at him in the moment of anger.. After in which he saed he gave up, i juz took a cab home, leaving him behind.. I looked back, n slowly seeing him gettin smaller n smaller frm my sight..

Back under my blk, when we met again, he wanted to return back his ring.. After so many failed attempts, i took it n placed it back onto his finger. That's whr it belonged.. It has his name on it.. It has already been sealed.. Nothing's n no one's gonna take that place.. I love him alot, i really do... I'm sucha Self-Centered-Attitude-Demanding-Annoying-Attention-Seeking lady.. Pfft..!

Saturdae, went to do my hair.. It costs $110 + $18 for the hair cream.. Cheap... :) It took ard 2 hours to finally get it done.. After which, head down to Woodlands Mart & bf got his hair cut.. Another dae of disappointment.. The hairdresser kinda like anyhow cut his hair, n he left the shop with a black face.. Tsk! Had lunch there.. I had mee hoon goreng no veggie add big2 meat, while he had a mixture of mee goreng+kwae teow, both mata lembu.. I ordered chicken wings as sides.. :) Back at home, we get down to business n do up the helmets.. It was more like he did the waxing n cleaning, which took 30mins per helmet.. Heheheh.. I proceeded with painting my nailz orange in colour.. Yes, he lovez the colour.. He lovez the hair.. He lovez everything arh.. Hehehehe...

At night, went to Nabins n had our shisha session.. The sugee is nice!!!!! Cocoa powder n almonds.. Oh lazatnyer..!!!! Den head down to Marina Barrage n chill out for a while before we decided to seperate with the rest.. They're planning to chill out at Yishun Dam.. Bf saw me realli sleepy, so he decided to go home.. So sweet of him.. Summore, it was already like 3am.. (-_-)zz

Sundae was filled up with the continue of cleaning the helmets n pasting of stickers.. :) It was indeed, a peaceful Sundae for the both of us..

I Love You, Yah... Muakz~!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes Her Week Will Be As Peaceful As Sunday.. :)

~Why Oh Why~

Weekend was a blast despite the fact part of the Saturdae was a total disaster.. Still, as alwaez, he managed to make me realize again and again how in luv he was with me.. Went to the cage at Kallang whr Team Qirana had a frenly match with Team Havana.. BF left the cage with scars on his face.. Aiyo.. Wat e hell..! But still, u're lo0kin as hot as eva, honey.. :) Supper was at KTM which epul did most of the talkin.. Frankly, i was already half aslp.. Thank gawd waty poked me.. Heh~ Back at home, while chillin n talkin 2 him, his brudder stepped in n told uz that he was involved in an accident.. Wounds lo0ked pretty bad... Had to force BF to take a look at e wounds.. -___- & i have a habit for feelin tingly n painful all ova when seein otha ppl's wounds n blo0d.. Still, i wanna see... Crappy rite..? 0_0


On Sunday, BF dropped the bomb to me n saed that he wanna get engage with me.. Wow.. I was left speechless lor.. N blushing at e same tyme... We did the calculations n i came up with a final ans that if he starts to save $500 as of next month (Aug 2010), by Oct 2014, he'll have $25,000 in hiz savingz acc already.. N he finds the month real nice.. It's in btwn the both of us.. I'm Sept & he's Nov.. :)


So on Monday.. Yes..! I was pretty lazy to get my stinkin ass off the bed n into the freakin shower n get ready to go to work.. After much tossin n turnin, i get up n got the ball rolling.. The day was fine.. Things went super well.. Even at werk.. No problemz were raised.. If so, it'z basically juz minor2 onez.. The dae ended, perfectly fine..


Today was kinda sucky.. 1st was about the clothez.. I dun realli noe how to eplain in details arh.. All i can sae was that i'm upset... I came to a point in which i'll throw all those tight-fitting, body-hugging, short skirtz, leggingz awae.. I dun find the purpose into keepin dem already.. So so0n enuff, i'll be back 2 being me again, back in 2005... Whr it's alwaez jeanz n t-shirt... Even if i need to wear office wear, i'll wear those long not-too-tight office pants n long-sleeved office top.. As for work, meeting went well n we came to an agreement between StagingDA & SCCM.. I explained to dem the difficulty on my side, while dey explained theirs.. Back in the office, nearin towards the end of the dae, thingz got pretty rough.. I find myself not in the mo0d for anything since i received an email regarding missing applications.. N truth is, i didn't even do it.. But den, wateva concerns app mapping, i'll b the first in line to get sho0t at by the boss.. Haizz...


Back at home, i didn't noe wat my mind was thinking.. All i azked myself was - wat e hell is wrong with u..? How could u possibly asked for a 4-days off from meetin e man whom u reali luv..? Dun u pity him..? Oh, u self-centered bytch..! But then, he has already agreed to it.. He's givin me all the space he could give even it's for sure it's beyond his meanz.. All i did was cried the moment i got into the room n hugged my bear.. I have no idea wat state i am in now.. All i could think of was to curl up n buried my face in my pillows..


True: I'll miss his hugs..
True: I'll miss his touch..
True: I'll miss his laughter..
True: I'll miss his eyes..
True: I'll miss his kisses..


True enough, I'll miss each & every single detail there is to it abt him..


Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Dazed & Confuzed

== A Draggy Monday ==

Before i get into details regarding my draggy mondae, let's flash back to Sat & Sun.. HmMmMm.. Whr do i start..? Ok.. Met bf at 11.30am n head down to Civic Centre to collect my photocard liscense from the post office.. The mail man came personally to my home on Fridae, but no one was at home.. So yeah...!! The main card i've been waiting for..!!! Yeeha..! After that, we head down to Kallang KFC & had our lunch.. I couldn't finish up wat i ordered.. Maebe becoz of the wind in my tummy... Heh~ We chatted over lunch n had a great laugh.. We talked about kids nowadaes who are juz not disciplined enuff despite the fact they're old enuff to think wat's Yes & No.. Sheesh..! After that, we proceed with wat was planned for that dae.. :) Had a helluva great tyme with him, eventho somewhr in btwn, thingz got a lil bit frustratin for him.. Sorri ayah... Heh~

On Sundae, everything went smo0thly till e moment we reached his place.. Silent treatment was given n in the evening, a huge fight almost broke out.. Truth is, i was prepared for the fight.. But den again, i'm not prepared to face how it'll be like if he really blowz his top.. God forbid..! The fight started after he kept on sighing n sighing.. N yes, i was frustrated as on y does he kept sighing..? It's realli annoying, though.. We talked things out at nite n things got betta.. Den again, the relationship has now been put on a test.. As 2 whenever we have a fight, we're onli allowed to meet each otha juz 1 tyme..

Back to Mondae.. HmMmMm.. Reached the office n i started doin the app mappings for tmrw without further delay.. Normally, i'll speed my wae thru so that i can start on Wed's as scheduled.. But todae, it seems like i'm in my comfort zone.. I still do my werk, but more like in my own speed.. Hahahah.. Speakin of still-in-my-wkend-mode... Lol~ I managed to complete Tuesday's & Wednesday's mapping.. Yay~ Eventhough thr was alot of agencies, i can still slot tyme for FB.. Wat e heck.. Normally, i dun even have the tyme to even reply in a short moment after someone commented something.. On  the otha hand, perhaps i managed to complete was due for the fact that remedy was slow, so Joanne couldn't schedule all 40-50 users.. She onli managed to schedule 16.. Heh~ Lucky me.. Initiallie the plan was to stae till like 7.45pm, before knockin off & meeting bf on the spot.. Now it's comin to 6.45 n i'm done with everything.. Should i stae n do the pull sheets for wed's, or should i juz pack up n leave...? HmMmMm... I dunnoe.. See how arh..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is In Her Confused Mode 0_o

:: The Past, Sumthing In Between & What's New ::

A lot of thingz has been happenin in our livez lately.. The good, the bad  the ugly.. U name it.. We got it.. Be it at werk, at home or in between uz..

Let's start with me ferst..

Previously, things at werk were atrocious, i tell u.. It juz felt like breakin down n cry in front of e whole wide werld.. I was pretty much pushed too hard n also was tryin my very best to make things better.. Stayed back late every nw n den juz to finish up the tasks as much as i could.. There was once, the beginning, i had 2 stae till like 8.15pm juz to complete the tasks.. OMG~ BF was pretty pissed n upset with that.. But thank God he had an extra helmet with him at werk.. So he told me to wait for him.. While waiting, i was practically chillin n sumwhat enjoin the 'nitelife' in a office on a FRIDAE.. Hahahaha.. When BF arrived, he looked super HOT in his FULL uniform.. *Singin* Oh My Gosh~~~~ Ok fine.. Mengakal moment... *slurp*

After that, we head down to Teh Tarik for dinner.. We had a luvly chat during dinner.. Den he received a msg frm Hus n he stated that on dat very nite, thr was a jamming session.. Enader last minute thing... Told him 2 pass the session, but Hus juz kept pleadin him 2 come with the reason the vocal is comin ova.. So ok lor.. Went home right after that, showered, n met him back... To tell u the truth, the vocalist is nowhr near FAME..

Regarding him plak, is basically abt his mom nagging at him 2 get a part tyme job.. Y laze ard at home without any benefits bla bla bla... That's all i noe la kan.. :)

Next, abt us.. Things got pretty much outta hand lately.. There were lotsa fights between us despite we were already ok.. Within a few minutes or perhapz the next dae, we'll start 2 fight again.. Stuffs about gettin a car, abt me, abt him, anything la.. But yesterdae was the werst in our fights list.. Blame me n my foul mouth n PMS.. Haiyah~ I didn't mean to blurt it out coz 2 me, he's not dat kinda person.. He'z juz someone who demands attention whenever he can get any.. And dat onli happenz when he's with me.. Like physically.. So yeah.. He saed somethin hurtftul to me the night before n i made it sound twice as hurtful.. Sometymes i wonder if 'twice' is even the correct calculation.. Could be more den dat.. N yes, i shot him straight in his head, wishing that i could juz point the tip of the gun at my head n juz pull the trigger...But that's equivalent to givin up. I fought for his love so bad. I won't wanna risk everything by givin up..

So we talked the nite awae.. Tryin meanz n waez to settle everything, but it turned out that i'm creatin more problemz in between.. I juz feel like runnin up 2 him n hug him as tight as i could.. Haiz.. I gave him mindless terms n conditions which was in a wae extremely difficult to even sae it out.. But it was saed out aniwae.. Heart was heavy.. It hurts like hell.... I've hurt the man i luved s0o dearly.. This tyme round, it will leave a permanent scar on him.. What haf i done...??? I'm sucha BYTCH....!!!

N yesterdae was fine.. I guess... Met him at his carpark as per normal n had dinner with him.. I talked to him during dinner n shared with him details he nids to noe.. Den along the wae, thru the end, somethin happened.. He was not his oldself.. I could it.. I tried to be nice to him.. But it didn't work out. He was still distant towards me.. But den again, all i could do is juz face up 2 him n smile, assuring myself things are going to be juz fine..

At nite, we chatted on e fone awhile before he started to sing.. I was serenaded by hiz tone n juz remain quiet.. He sang n sang n i wished we could've hung up earlier or maebe i could juz crack my brainz n opened a dumb topic.. He asked me a question which realli hurts me alot.. I tried to avoid it, but comin to e end of the conversation, i juz told him i respected his decisions.. Thinking that he already saed 'gdbye', i juz hung up the fone.. He called me back n saed that i hung up on him again... Wat e heck~ Enader misunderstanding.. He wanted to talk abt it the very nite, but i was too slpy already.. My head was already thumpin like mad it could juz explode.. 

Woke up the very next day n noticed that his msgs were not sincere.. It felt like as if he was forced to msg me.. So i juz texted him that if his not willing to send any msgs, dun bother.. N kabo0m..! The fight continued.. Haishh... We were arguing all the wae from the moment i left home till e very moment i reached the office.. Due to e headache i had, i took a cab..

I juz told him wat was really happenin n wat i'm realli facing. I told him i was apologetic n juz wanz thingz to b the wae it was... I wan the old him back.. I HATE the new him.. I totally DESPISE that person... So i told him that unless i get the old raffi back n m realli assure i got him back, things will definitely b ok.. But den again, onli tyme will tell..

We've been fighting alot lately & it's extremely sucky.. Both of uz juz wan the honeymoon period back.. Coz i can c that e period has sumwhat ended.. I'm tryin my very bezt 2 get that period back.. All i wan is the man whom i used to chase 4 mnths ago like hell - juz to get his freakin attention..

I luv u, ayah.. Alot... More than u can eva imagine.. Despite there are moments i might not show how much u mean 2 me, but truth is, i'm willing to take e bullet for u..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wanz The Man Whom She Used To Chase 4 Months Ago

:: Jai Ho ::

Ouhkae.. Fine.. Tau la it's been a while since i last blogged in.. Hehehehe... So aniwae, here's the latest update on me, as well as the MAN himself.. =)

11 June was the happiest dae of his life - he passed his TP with 12 points.. 1 tyme, k? Despite the last min practicalz..!! He passed~ Yay.... N so, all hopez were pinned on me afta dat....

Mine waz 22 June, which was yesterdae.. Before the TP, in the morning, a massive issue occured at home..! Wat e heck....! Left home without gettin a gd luck hug frm ma n ayah.. Onli kakak gave me.. Still, i was in e wrong.. I can't expect any verbal contactz frm dem, let alone - physical.. So yeah.. BF was thr to encourage me all e wae... I got car no 85 - juz wat i wanted.. That waz my 3rd tyme takin TP.. During the real test, i got a nice TP man.. He guided me along e wae juz like an instructor.. Heheheheh.. Or maebe on account, i've been takin it 4 3x.. So perhapz, he juz wan me out of that skool.. =p I passed! With 6 pts! Yay!!!!!

At night, showed dad the result n he gave me a hug.. Hehehe.. Mom came back n saw e result, another hug.. Yay~ Ma saed dat when she comes back from her holidae at mersing, she wanz to rent a car... HmMmMm... Ouhkae lor..

Next, planning with BF to rent a car.. I wanna drive as much as he doez. Heheheh. Thinkin of gettin either a Honda Fit or Civic or City.. C la which one is affordable.. Renting frm fridae - mondae.. Hope we can realli get a car under P-Plate... *Prae hard2*

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Can Now Drive - LEGALLY.. Hell Yeah~!

That msg goes out to u too, ayah.... Hehehehe...

Random

Despite the massive huge fight we had yesterdae, it all ended juz e wae we want it to be - to be in each other'z armz again.. =)

So yeah, todae's saturdae.. Gettin used to staein at home in e dae already.. Waiting patiently for BF to finish werk.. Woke up at 2.30pm n greeted him a gd afternoon via sms.. He's e 1zt person to come across my mind e moment these lazy eyez are open.. Hehehehe... After a few sms, we talked over the fone.. The sound of hiz voice realli putz a smile on my face.. I realli luv him alot leii.. How i wished he's rite here with me now.. In e comfort of my own bed in a cold ro0m...

After we hung up, went to wash my face n brush my teeth.. Had my lunch n decided to watch the Frog Princess on Mio; followed by kinder bueno... I can't help it.. Chocolate is part of my drugs... Hehehehe... I still have lotsa chocolates in my room.. Not to mention, e sour strawberry stripz in which i bought like a while ago, is still in my ro0m.. Not even opened yet.. Y..? Bcoz, either i forgot all abt it or i was juz to0 bz with werk.. Nyeh~

Yay.. Ma called n told me dat she's gettin e biscuits.. The moment she saw the price, she was like - "OMG adeq!! I tot onli ur clothes are expensive.. Ur snackz to0...????'' It's juz once in awhile, mama.. =p But their nice rite...??? Sheesh!! Sometymes, u gotta invest a lil more to get somethin betta...

It's 6.40 now.. Approximately 3 hours more before i can reunite with baby luv!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Juz Lazing Ard At Home In The Comfort Of Her Own Bed

A Sucky Feeling

Morning started off pretty sucky.. It all started from a minor issue, till now, it evolves into a bigger issue. I dunnoe arh.. I juz feel like screamin n cryin.. My head hurts real bad.. I juz feel like hittin it against e wall... I hafta keep tellin myself to remain calm.. Dun fret too much... But den, i noe it'z onli temporary dat i can control my anger.. After a while, it'll explode again... I keep tellin myself dat ppl will not like it.. But yeah, dis is who i am whether u like it anot..

At 1 point, i juz feel like being a markswoman, enader a ninja & enader juz being myself, waiting for the very moment to reunite back with e man i love.. I do feel like strangling him already... Haiyah!!! I juz feel like lockin myself in my room, shut off from e werld for a moment - something like running awae.. I dun wanna face e bitterness out thr.. Maebe it's juz me.. But den, i love him too much to even see whr the fight is going.. If onli i could turn back e tyme to whr e mistake 1zt started...

My greatest fear - The fact of losing him one dae....

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes To Hide In A Corner & Cry

-- A Day Spent With The Man --

This happened yesterdae - 2nd June 2010...

Woke up, opened e main do0r n wow!!! It was damn cold out thr!! Cold breeze kissed my skin.. N tell u e truth, dat is not such a gd thing~ So when i wanted to shower, along e wae, i was coughin like hell.. Throat starts to hurt wheneva i coughed or swallow anithing.. N mom - being e kastam officer as olwaez, stopped me n feel my forehead... She went, 'adeq, u're running a temperature alreadi.. Go see a doctor or something...' I told her, 'No Ma, i got things to do...' She juz sho0k her head n continued makin breakfast..

Met BF n off we went to have breakfast at McDonald's.. He requested for it.. Yes Ayah.. I asked u 3x in a row if u realli wanted it.. N u saed YES.. =p So, i got myself breakfast deluxe, n BF got himself sausage mcmuffin, but later found out he hatez cheeze.. So we traded.. I made him enader burger frm my BD dis tyme with egg n i ate hiz burger.. =) Breakfast was lurve!! The the premium brewed coffee - SUPERB! But den, throat starts to swell again.. Coughin hurts n i can't even yawn.. Adoi!! Texted the main ppl dat i won't b comin in.. So off to BF's place..

Played with Ikhy the moment i stepped in.. Hehehe... Scratchin her head, her ears n whereva i can lae my fingers on.. Lepak2 in his room n dozed off.. My head started to spin alreadi.. It was unbearable.. N i admit, when i'm sick, i can get very mengakal.. U noe to a certain fact that i wan him 2 be with me but at e same tyme i dun wanna be disturbed...? Fickle-minded la me.. Wahlao! He WAS craving for my attenti0n.. But i simply shoved him away.. OH MY GOD!! I'm such a meanie.. I mean, i'm sorie.. I didn't mean it.. Yet, he still hugged me n all.. Even when i dun respond to him.. Gosh AYAH.. I luv u, sia!!!!

Later in e dae, he finally confessed to me.. He saed that i m jealous of him n his electric guitar while he's jealous of me n my FB... 0_0 i'm like - ouhkae.. Perhaps i put too much attention into it.. Hehehe.. Round the clock it's me n FB.. Nyeh!

At nite, we went to cozwae point.. By BUS.. Wow!!! I managed to drag BF to take e bus with me... Hehehe.. N he kept complainin n yawning.. But i dun care.. I won!! I managed to make him take e bus!!! JAIHO! Our missio at cozwae - to find me a top (a navy blue one) to match with e CK top i bought for him.. N mission was a complete failure.. I couldn't find anithin.. Haiyah!! Got a pair of earringz instead.. Wanted to get a ring as well, but wat we saw is not wat we wanted... Haizz..

Dinner was at Burger King.. Wow!! BF ate burger - again.. I dun mind if u're still cho0zy.. Enader mission success.. Hehehehe.. I made u eat burgers.. Hehehehe.. N he was hepi dat his craving was satisfied.. He sure enjoyed his Hershey's Sundae Pie.. He was too buzy indulging himself, dat it was me doin the talkin all e wae.. But i dun mind.. He talked alot already back at home.. So it's my turn.. =) We balance things, ok.. ;p Dinner was filled with lotsa laughter.. N yes, i enjoyed entertainin him during dinner.. Undergoin training? Guess so.. Hehehe..

I'm like seriously head over heels with my man.. Practically if i can do a cartwheel, i'll do it.. Kk.. Too drama-mama.. If i were to do it, i think he'll go : Yenna rascal la... MIND IT! Hahaha... K ayah, i noe u're smiling widely n maebe laughin as well.. Control.. Heheheheheh.... I luv ya, baby!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Luvz Her Man Alot.. (Like DUH!)

My Poor Baby

And so, baby is upset n depressed of the tings that are goin on his life.. He feelz realli down at dis very moment due to various issues.. He needs me - really bad.. But i feel bad myself coz i can't be thr for him... Thr he is, in e comfort of him own home, thinkin of all e things he could think off, waiting for me patiently to finish e dae at werk... Here i am, at werk, basically hafta complete wateva tasks assigned to me & at e same tyme, wanting to be thr for him.. But wat can i do? Juz hafta wait for e dae to pass by asap.. Coz each n every moment in my life, is alwayz waiting for e dae for me to reunite back with him.. It's in hiz armz whr i belonged..

I miss you~

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Noez That Her Master Yearns For Her Now

All I Can Think About For Now

Damn!! I ovaslept.. Told BF i wanna shower at 6.30am, but i fell aslp eventuallie.. Lucky thing he called at 7.40am.. Hah! Panick attack!!! But me, being e CUTE one, juz cutely told him ova my cute fone in a cute tone, 'Heh.. I juz woke up....' N he was pissed la of coz...

So off e bed n dragged my feet to e shower n showered lazily... Eyes were still closed btw.. Hahahaha.. Told it was half an hour alreadi, but neh.. It lasted for onli 20 mins.. Normal tymin.. HmMmMm.. Texted BF to come ova while waitin for me.. At least he's not bored.. So, as i was doin my make up, i gave him his toi - my mobile.. Or should i sae - OUR mobile... :)

Breakfast at KFC was simply lurve~~ Enader craving down - porridge.. =) BF was juz in hiz berangan moment abt us married alreadi coz he was readin e paper n i was preparin hiz bweakfast.. I plaed along with him.. Hehehehe.. Manerla tau, berangan akan menjadik kenyataan.. InsyaAllah.. ;)

He sent me to werk n off he went to do his bike...

Morning was bad for my Lil Miss Joanne... Email war.. NYEH!! Kecoh abez.. It sux when u get a person whose sto0pid for a boss.. Dey dun c as a whole, dey c as a part.. Dey kept on adding fuel to the flame n kept saein thr's lotsa problemz.. Clarified with Joanne, she saed thr's actuallie NO PROBLEMZ at all.. Gosh boss!! U're practically outdated i muz sae.. -.-

Ouh ya.. Random pix taken at BF's place.. He was forced by ME to entertain me.. Hahahaha!! I LUV U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Luvz The Attention She's Getting

= You're Still The One =

The dae ended kinda bad yesterdae.. Had a massive fight with BF n e cause was juz a repeated question which to me, was silly.. I mean, u already got e confermation.. Wat more do u wan..? At his place, before leavin, i azked him if he's seen my lighter.. He was searchin for it high n low.. Me too.. Except for e fact his cat was distractin me.. So, i plaed with his kitty for a while, n was shocked with his reaction upon seein me plaed with Ekhy/Ikhy.. So yeah, i went home straight.. Was supposed to follow him 2 e store 2 get his ciggies, but i was too peeved.. I didn't even wanna talk 2 him, let alone c his face.. Y..? I was upset.. Supportin reason: I dun wanna cry in front of him... Reached my flo0r, i juz took back wateva dat was mine, salam him n turned to e do0r.. I neva even kissed him..

E moment i slammed e do0r after me, tears started to flow.. I tried meanz n waez 2 control, but it juz kept comin out.. Went into e ro0m & asked myself - wat haf i done? y is he treatin me dis wae? wat has he done? wat went wrong? Soo many questions.. I couldn't even lie down 4 1min.. Decided to text him to ask if he decided to come anot.. He was downstairs already when he texted me back.. So he came 2 a decision to come up n see me..

We talked in e ro0m n cleared e air.. He even sat down in front of me.. He looked up at me.. I juz stared at him.. Feelin guilty for wat i've done.. Feel like huggin him in an instant.. But i'm still mad.. I dun wan e hugs to make me forgot i was peeved.. Like i mentioned, his hugs does c0olz me down when i'm fuming mad.. So yeah.. Cleared e air n den - it all ends with a hug..

I feel safe with him.. He pampers me.. He puts me before him - despite i told him to be selfish as n when needed.. He gave me all e things a gerl could eva wish for.. Attention, Love, Understanding, Mutual Respect.... He makes me feel worth it.. I love you, baby..

So wateva obstacles we are gonna face later, at e end of e dae, it'z still u whom i love, whom i'll run to & e one whom i'll kiss gd nite...

I love you, Ayah..







Signing Off : The Kitty Who Nearly Scratched Her BF, But Decided To Keep Her Freshly Manicured Nails Clean & Also On Account She Luvz Him ALOT!

A Bad Fall, A Painful Night & A Random Moment

Yesterdae, 23rd of May, accompanied BF to Junction 8 to get his hp serviced. He's been whining all along dat his hp iz spoilt n thr's no music to listen to while on e bike.. He was hopin 4 his sister 2 send it on his behalf, but neh, she didn't send.. Hehehe.. Jgn la marah syg.. Maebe she's bz or she forgot..? HmMmMm.. After dat, went to Charles N Keith i saw a couple or more shoes which really captures my attention... Besides dat, i was thinkin of gettin a pair of heels dat are black with hot pink straps.. Any idea whr 2 get dat, baby??

Nxt waz dinner at Teh Tarik.. Ordered Gado2.. =) & dat was when mishap started!!! OMG! I fell into e drain.. I saw it.. But still, i fell into it.. It's sheen level n tell u e truth, it hurts like hell... 2 bruisez at e same tyme! Waddafish! Pain u noe.. I tried to distract myself from e shock dat i fell into e drain, but afta a while, e pain was KAPOW!!! My right leg starts to shake uncontrollably coz it hurts... I tried to control e pain and all.. So when e order arrived, i ate juz 2 distract myself.. N bf, being e medic (hehe), attended to my bruisez.. He complained dat i was bein uncooperative, but den - i'm juz bein me.. =/ He was pissed on 2 things.. My behaviour & the fact i fell into e drain... -.-

So den, had to limp my wae all e wae 2 whreva we're heading... Nxt stop, was home swit home.. It was basically a nice night at home.. We chilled in kakak's ro0m.. Yay..!! BF made frenz with kakak.. Or should i sae - ALMOST.. At least he tried.. N kakak, being ubber random (like me) or vice versa, cursed n swear n sh0ot any questions she felt like sh0otin... Hehehehe...

Back in the r0om, while watchin Peanut  n Jeff Dunham on U-tube, BF plaed with my hair.. Nyeh! Missed ur long hair...? Too bad, baby.. U're far beyond the fact of gettin ur long hair back.. =p Some random pix taken~~

Hahaha.. The crazy lil thingz we can do or will do... I luv him, alot... He's juz like a baby - demands all e attention he can possibly get outta me...

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Doez Not Onli Fell Into E Drain, But Also Fallin In Lurve Each & Every Dae Dat Passez By..