~*~ | Thoughts Of You At Night | ~*~

Thoughtz of you fills my head
As i lae motionless in my bed..

It's no use tryna sleep
Pictures of u my mind does keep..

Memories we share
Times you show u care..

The gentleness of your touch
That i missed so0o much..

Sleep deprived from thoughts of u
Hoping the night will so0n be thru..

Waiting for tomorrow to see ur smiling face
Seems as though times continues a slow pace..

When finally I sleep... U're in my dreamz
U're alwaes on my mind as though in seemz..

Half of me is missing - I'm empty inside
Holding myself - I've actuallie tried..

Eventhough i wished u were holding me here
In my thoughtz u're alwaez near..

I love to lie awake thinking of u
Hoping my dreams abt u so0n come true..

U're my everything & i'm so glad we're togetha
I'm always thinking abt u, now and foreva......

I love you, Yah~

Just For The Man I Love Deep Deep In My Heart.. :)

You're everything,

that's why I cling to you..

When I emerge,

my thoughts converge to you..

To you,

the world is so small and

everybody's wrong compared to you..

To you,

I begin to see through your eyes,

all the former mysteries are no surprise..

So now you listen

'cuz I'm innocent..

Hey, look at me baby,

I'm just a little lady..

We're lucky to have each other..

We're cute and sweet as candy together..

As charming as a fable,

innocent and disabled

So hug me and kiss me,

and never forget me..

I hope you never leave

'cuz who would hear me scream?

Nobody understands..

Except for you, My Man!

Ayah,

Ibu betol2 bersyukur ngan kehadiran ayah dalam hidop ibu.. Meskipun seringkali ibu buat prangai, ibu tak memberi perhatian kepade kehendak ayah, namun, tak pernah sekali ayah memarahi ibu kerana bagi ayah, yg penting adalah kebahagian ibu..

Biarpun akan datang, ader saje halangan dan rintangan yg akan jua melanda, percayalah kepade cinta kita dan insyaAllah, semuernyer akan dapat kami tempuhi.. Ayah adalah pendorong ibu, penasihat, pengasih, pengarah, cikgu dan sebagainya.. Biler ibu jatoh, ayah angkat ibu dan mendorong ibu supaya troz mencuba.. Biler ibu sedih, bahu dan lengan ayah sentiasa tersedia untuk ibu.. Biler ibu hilang arah, ayah akan pimpin tngn ibu dan membawa ibu ke tempat yg hendak dituju.. Biler ibu da tak tau aper nak buat, ayah akan memberi nasihat yg tak terputus2.. Dengan itu, ibu ingin mengucapkan terima kasih keatas kasih sayang yg telah ayah berikan kepade ibu selame ini.. Nota yg ibu kirimkan ini tak la beberapa panjang.. Namun, ia datang tulus dan ikhlas dari hati ibu yg kecil ini..

Tak pernah sekali terlintas di fikiran untuk mengkhianati percintaan ini.. Teramatlah suci untuk dikhianati.. Ibu tau, ibu mempunyai ramai peminat kat luar.. Ibu nak ayah tau, takder seorang pon yg setaraf ngan ayah.. Bukan dari segi harta dunia, tapi sejauh maner seseorang itu sanggop berkorban demi cinta.. 

Ibu sayang ayah, tau.. Benar2 sayang..

Tulus & Ikhlas,

Seorang wanita kecik yg mencintaimu terlebih dahulu sebelum kamu mencintainya..

What's On My Mind Right Now

Dear Diary,

I feel sorry for the state BF's family is in now.. I cannot help much but to help him morally n mentally.. I'll try my best to help with the finance, but den again, there's a limit to whr that came from.. His mom shared every single detail abt the dad to us.. I was shocked upon hearing the news.. There's not much for me to sae..

BF kept asking me if i was bored with him..? Bored with his life..? Bored with his surroundings..? I noe how he feels.. Certain gerls would juz pack up n leave, not wanting to be tied down to a man who has endless problems, because of the things that are happening ard him.. Family to precise.. He kept asking if i love him.. If so, how much, how big, how deep..

Dear Ayah,

Just so u noe, i chose u as my fren, bestfren, confidante, personal medic n watnots.. U're alwaes thr wheneva i needed u, n u faced my darkest moments with me - together.. U neva let any harm befall me n protects me against all odds.. I feel safe with u.. The state u're in, are all tests from Him.. He wans to see how heavy a burden can u handle.. He wans to see ur strength and weaknesses.. If u give up, then it's pointless isn't it..? Nothing comes easy, Ayah.. This world is filled with lotsa obstacles.. Even a rich person is neva happy.. They haf tonnes of things to think of as well..

Bear in mind that no matter how hard u fall, stand up straight n face the challenge.. I'll be here & i won't be going aniwhr.. I'll wait till the dae u're stable n ready 2 lead a new life.. It doesn't matter that now, u cannot indulge me with wateva my heart desires.. The important thing is that, after all this while, i get wat a woman want from her man.. I love you, Ayah.. Stop fretting abt me gonna leave u.. I seriously love u.. Some ppl at ur age are already married because they  have the means and support.. I understand ur situation.. I'll wait for u.. Patiently waiting..

Love,

Ur Wife :)

Saturdae's Swimming Date With Love Followed By Qirana Nite Out & Sundae's Movie Date

The night before, i got readi all the swimming stuffs.. Excitement filled the air..!! I was jumping for joy when BF initiated a swimming dae out for both of us.. N he saed that he could be called back 2 werk any tyme on that dae.. Praed hard n yeahoo..!! No calls..!! We plaed in the p0ol.. He swam here n thr while i minded my own business.. We laughed alot.. But sadly, i didn't pack much of the egg mayo bread.. Damn..! Next tyme, i gotta pack twice as much.. Or perhaps, triple.. Hehehehe.. After a while, i noticed he's kinda dark.. Hoorah..!! BF is tanned.. Wow~ So m i.. Sin-kissed skin.. Ooh la la..~ Gedebak gedebuk ting tong, we left the p0ol at 2.. Wash up n left the sports complex at 2.45pm.. Thank g0odness we left early though coz a few hours later, rain starts to pour like mad..

At night, met the team at msq foodloft. Since all the stalls are gettin ready to close down, me n BF had our dinner at BK. I dunnoe y, but i juz dun seem to want to talk 2 anibody.. At the steps, Huda & Waty were sitting togetha watchin a video, while i, sat a lil further den dem.. Until BF called me to sit beside him.. We were at the carpark of msq, gonna head down to Changi when he noticed Sharif's bike.. Called kakak n disturbed her.. Hehehehe.. At Changi, i sat beside BF n minded my own business.. I neva talked.. Onli when questioned.. Before leaving, they were all gathered to one side.. I neva joined dem... I juz sto0d beside the bike n waited patienly to leave. Salam dem n left. Normally, if we were to part on the road, i'll wave gdbye.. On sat, i didn't.. I dunnoe y.. I wasn't even lo0kin.. 

On Sundae, it was kinda a draggy dae.. I wasted the time on games.. BF played his guitar.. I tried not to think too much but i juz can't help it.. N i finally asked him, 'Are u having fun..?' He sho0ked his head, i juz smirked n saed 'Glad u noe dat..' The conversation as below:

BF: Why u ask like dat..?

Me: Juz asking..

BF: Since yesterdae..?

Me: *Shrugs*

BF: You're bored issit..?

Me: Ahuh..

BF: Wanna plae game..?

Me: Not in the mo0d..

BF: (0.0) ouh.. Ermm.. Watch TV..?

Me: Nope..

BF: U wanna waste the sundae like dis..?

Me: *Nods*

Mo0d swings here n thr n finally found out that my bestie was already here.. -.- It crossed my mind to watch a movie.. It's been a while though.. Bo0ked 2 tickets to P.A 2 @ 10pm. The movie was freakin awesome n scary.. BF melatah2..!! Hahahha..!! Back at my place, he was screened by the police.. N 1 of the officers talked to him regarding his stolen pipe..  Bla bla bla, he sent me home n we bid each otha gd bye.. In the end, sundae nite was great..!! :D

My Freakin Lo0ong Thursday~

Morning started off pretty bad. I had a hard tyme tryna get myself off the bed. WTH..! I dun wanna miss work. So, i forced myself to get up. Took the shower n got ready.. Wanted to wear a pink top, but i cannot find it anywhr.. So, it was changed to a normal kakhi-coloured top with 3/4 jeanz n my ipanema sandals. :) Simplicity.. Plus, hair tied up~ Initiallie, i wanted to clip it with the pretty pink clip, but things juz seemed so wrong. It juz dun look nice. I dunnoe wat's wrong with me today. I took like..really long to get myself ready, and ended up walking towards the mrt sttn.. WTH~

Reached the office n start to send out emails.. Did wat was instructed by the BF onli to find out it was wrong. I dunnoe.. He dun seemed to appreciate it afta i told him wat i emailed. I mean, since u're hardly on the computer, perhaps calling would be an alternative way.. But wat e hell.. It's all done.. Perhaps next tyme, u can send the email out urself.. Or maebe, text the relevant person regarding ur leave balance.. That wae, u might get a faster response...

Next on FB, i dunnoe wat the hell is wrong with my aunty arh.. Just because we are closer to our frenz, she make it a big hoo-haa.. She posted something abt 'Y some ppl are very 'on' when it comes to frenz n not families..?' Let dem be la.. U dun expect us 2 visit u everydae of the week rite? Or juz appear in front of ur door? Everybody has their own livez to lead wat..? N besides, u're married sia.. Duncha wanna haf tyme alone with ur husband now that he's werkin shifts..? What is wrong with u..?! Haiyah.. Whateva~

Next up, chatted with kakak on FB and asked her why was it rainin indo0rs yesterdae? It all points down to Sharif being jealous.. Dun wish to probe further since it's their relationship. :) N yeah, planned with her to leave the house early tonite before proceeding with each otha's plans. She's goin out with Sharif n me, of coz meeting my darling la.. Sharif saed to meet downstairs at the back stairs at 8pm. I saed y dun ask him 2 meet u at e carpark.. Easier mah.. E ferst thing she saed was - I dunnoe whr's the carpark leii.. Hahahah.. Siakenz.. So yeah, bottom line, me n sista will be leavin early to have a lil talk n some catch up.. Guess she has lots 2 share with me.. :)

At work, Charity made us laugh the entire time.. Heheheh.. She's the CRAZY ANG MOH.. Hahahaha...

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Completed 100% of Mass Deployments for this week..

During The Weekends~~

On Saturday, woke up at 9.30 (instead of 8am) n met bf an hour later. Had breakfast at McDonalds (Wdl Mart), followed by a trip to Global.. It was a visit to Sophia's doctor.. :) On the wae, the sun was scorching above us.. I was in my shorts n tell ya the truth, i was already kinda tanned the moment we reached thr. My skin was like partly red afta which, it turned to be mocha. I loike..!! Tanned.. :D We reached at 1.15pm n everything was completed at 3.45pm. Snap pictures here and thr which will be uploaded into my facebook afta some finishing touches. 

Chillaxation at his place with his mom before we decided to proceed with the nite's plan. Showed her the 10.10.10 video which she hazn't seen n watched the tv. Hindustan was super gd. But neva get to watch till the very end. Half an hour till the shows ova, i was told to shower n get ready. -.- Met Ayie at wheelock carpark. Otw meeting Aan & urat, they saed that they're proceeding back to the carpark.. So, we had to retrace back our footsteps.. The 4 boiz sat n talked while i minded my own business.. We were waiting for Mimi n Watie 2 arrive before proceeding to MSQ. Urat wanted 2 eat thr. Had poori with chrysanthemum tea and bf had nasi lemak with teh tarik tawar.. Hehehe.. The plan proceeded on with a walk to MBS. (Marina Bay Sands).

Before that, we had to pit stop under the brigde while waiting for the rest to arrive. We talked, we laughed n in betweens, some of us minded our own business.. And talked n laughed again.. Hahaha.. Ayie was the Bahan-Of-The-Day. Or more like, he was alwayz the one makin us laugh like thr's no tomorrow.. Hahaha.. When all was thr, we started walking.. Tell ya the truth, i was 95% battery flat afta the wait. (Maklomlah.. Da tua.. Night life is not for me animore..) But jokes n laughters, n of coz, my bf, kept me going.. :) Once we reached the shopping center, KEJAKUNAN sumer teserlah.. Hahahahaha.. N yeah, BF, mimi n faiz had a freaking hard tyme tryna find their bikes when we wanna go home.. Lol~

Overall, the nite was fun.. Eventho thr was still hatred, despise n critics in the air, still, we all managed to put a smile on our faces.. Love it..!! Bestest was - the Group photo.. Nice.. :)

As for Sunday, i spent the day SLEEPING.. Hehehehehe... ;p

And So... It's TGIF.. :)

This morning, me n bf was supposed to have our breakfast at McDonalds, but he has to report to work. He received a text msg at 5am from hiz OM regarding this. So yeah, i was upset, but wat can i possibly do..? Took my tyme gettin ready n left home at 8.45am. Guess wat, i was practically fondling with my throngs of clothings - thinking wat 2 wear so that i look presentable.. I came across my Chaos mini black dress.. I was like, 'Oh my God..!! It's been ages since i wore this, evasince i gained unexpected weight..' I decided to try it on.. After i did, i was admiring myself in the mirror. It fitz - perfectly.. Except for the fact i cannot hide my bunz.. Their kinda bulging out NICELY.. :) On the otha hand, i was lazy 2 wear a 2 piece clothing. I'd rather stick 2 a dress.. Hehehehe..

Reached the office at 9.40am n i saw Joanne, Dawn n William in the room.. The ferst thing i asked them was 'Did i miss anything..??' Thankfully - No... Phew~ Checked my emails and all the SRs mapping for today are all completed. Updated the board n prepare for the printing of pull sheets for Mass Deployments, scheduled to be delivered next Monday. In between, FB-ed here n thr.. :) Received a msg from BF saein that his replacement has arrived n he's proceeding back home.. Lucky him.. I'm still here, stuck, feelin redundant all ova.. :s But to look on the bright side, he's gonna fetch me home.. :) That's nice.. Would be delighted if Jason n Gemok left early like yesterday, so that i can selit n leave at 5 again... Juz like yesterday.

Decided to have my lunch at fork n spoon later. As of now, i'm thinkin of havin chicken rice.. Dunnoe la once i reach thr, will it still be chicken rice anot.. HmMmMmMm.. Ouh well.. Let's see wat Friday has in store for me..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Nothing To Do At Work..

All About My Thursday~

Woke up at 7am this morning.. Breakfast date at fork & spoon with BF before heading down to werk. Had to report extra early today as the big shots are coming. :) And so, instead of having the regular indian breakfast, we decided to change to chinese style~ He had nasi lemak with no nuts while i had fried bee hoon with seaweed chicken n sausage. :) Yum2.. Afta dat, head for werk n we arrived the building @ 9.20am.. Nice.. :D When the big shots came in, they talked 2 us n we laughed n laughed.. We got compliments that they like us.. Hehehehe~

As for werk, things are getting pretty much nice now.. Except for the fact that i am already startin to hate SPF.. Changes here n thr.. Haiyo~ Since in the morning i had to kip askin the ARM for UAM.. N finally, managed to send the mapping 3.14pm..

Aniwae, thr's this idiot who is out to discriminate kakak on FB. He's practically talkin abt not to start a relationship to those who are married till it's gonna be possible that their marriage will be ruined.. Calling her a shit-faced n an icebox.. What e hell man..? I mean, who the hell is he to sae such things? Does he own her? Does he support her in terms of food n lodging all these while..? Who the hell does he think he is..? Call himself a man, when he couldn't even sae it in front of her face directly.. Pathetic..! N ya la, of coz i was fuming mad.. I'm also startin to dislike some of her frenz lor. I cannot ask her to stop be-friending dem, but all i can do is comment wheneva thr's a need to.. Haizzz.. Life.. Ppl cannot see otha ppl hepi.. DUMBASS..!!

Ouh well, i've completed 90% of mass deployment for next week.. Hell yeah..!! Waiting for the time to end so that i can hepily meet my darling bacen who's a cutie.. :D Yes Ayah.. CUTIE..!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Normally Comes To Work, Well, To Be A Model.. Since She Has Most Of Her Tasks Completed..

** Updatez On What's Hot & What's Not **

Soon enough, it's gonna be a month since I forced him 2 go.. Still, the soury sweet memories will alwayz be with me. Those lil hepi moments, those 'i WAN' moments, will be as fresh as it juz happened yesterday. Those pretty dreams that i came across.. Juz leavez me smiling the very next morning. I noe, Smurf is still ard.. I juz noe.. Smurf is there whreva i am.. I juz knew it.. :)

3rd Oct was Jalan Raya Yo with Bunga Hitam.. I waz sexcited lor..!! My ferst raya outing with Bunga Hitam.. Yeahoo..!! N me n bf wore our pretty CUTE pink couple outfit.. N when i looked at us in the mirror, we look like pengantin seii.. Hehehe.. Met Aan n Ajid kat carpark Aan n we head down to Mok's place at Hougang togetha.. Spent quite sometime thr.. More like some of the time was wasted while waiting for the rest to arrive.. The trip 2 e 2nd house was disasterous as some ppl juz intend to forget on waitin for the othaz, n simply left ajid, bf n me behind. We got lost along the wae, but sumhow managed to find the wae to the next house. Which was eventuallie, 1 of the gerls whom i hate. She's mok's NYP frenz i think.. But wateva~ I hate her. She's boastful.. I saw lotsa new faces like WAKA WAKA.. hahahaha..!! Lesbo~ Overall, the outing was splendid.. Many pix were taken n yeah, had a hell of a gd tyme..

For werk last wk, it was pretty fine.. I'm doing really well with werk n i'm hepi.. :) I've completed all the Mass Deployments for this wk.. Yay~ As long as i'm remained undisturbed, things will be ok.. Starting slowly to save my losses previously. I juz wan the figure to be 4 figures.. No more 3 digits.. This will be the last tyme i'm gonna use my savings on acc Sophia needs a doctor.. Well, i ride on her too. I noe bf disagree on me doin the bike.. But hey, juz this once k, ayah..?? I love her too u noe.. Kk.. I love u MORE~ :D So that's the plan for this coming Sat - to bring Sophia out for a trip 2 her doctor. She's startin 2 fall sick liao la.. Cannot delay.. 

I had my hair cut yesterday.. I told the stylist to chop off wateva is spoilt at the ends.. She did a pretty great job n my hair is now healthy n shiny~ :) Doesn't look as dead as it was before. Chop off the fringe abit.. Loike loike..!! Even bf likes it.. Did it at Defone salon @ Woodlands Mart.. Coming back next month to dye my hair at a reasonable price of $80.. Ok  wat hor..? :D

That's all for now.. Will update if thr's more..

Signing Off : The Kitty