Updates On Me..

Hi..! I noticed i've been away for a VERY long tyme with no updates in btwn. Been busy with work, life & whatnots. Many things have been goin on lately, such as:

• The friendship between me & yaty is realli strong. It's hard to keep us apart.
• Aan now has a gerlfren & he kinda like changed a lot. Haizz..
• My relationship with the gerlfrenz @ work has fallen out. Miss Porky is still being ubber bitcy & i dun wish to have any other contacts with her except during working hours (IF NEEDED!).

I still remembered what me & BF went thru shit just to make our holidae werked! Initial plan was to go with Waty, Mimi & Aan. But Waty & Mimi backed out due to some family issues. Shortly afta, Aan backed out with reasons that he wanna continue study. So the money he has can onli go to his motorbike insurance & studies. The holidae was on 31st March 2011, Waty's bdae. I still remembered that me & even fell out many times in between the planning. I almost couldn't go..! But afta much2 planning, the holiday was a success..! We had tonnes of fun & indulged to a lot of fo0d..!! I'm realli looking forward to another one, if thr's means for us.. InsyaAllah.. :)

Just For The Man I Love Deep Deep In My Heart.. :)

You're everything,

that's why I cling to you..

When I emerge,

my thoughts converge to you..

To you,

the world is so small and

everybody's wrong compared to you..

To you,

I begin to see through your eyes,

all the former mysteries are no surprise..

So now you listen

'cuz I'm innocent..

Hey, look at me baby,

I'm just a little lady..

We're lucky to have each other..

We're cute and sweet as candy together..

As charming as a fable,

innocent and disabled

So hug me and kiss me,

and never forget me..

I hope you never leave

'cuz who would hear me scream?

Nobody understands..

Except for you, My Man!

Ayah,

Ibu betol2 bersyukur ngan kehadiran ayah dalam hidop ibu.. Meskipun seringkali ibu buat prangai, ibu tak memberi perhatian kepade kehendak ayah, namun, tak pernah sekali ayah memarahi ibu kerana bagi ayah, yg penting adalah kebahagian ibu..

Biarpun akan datang, ader saje halangan dan rintangan yg akan jua melanda, percayalah kepade cinta kita dan insyaAllah, semuernyer akan dapat kami tempuhi.. Ayah adalah pendorong ibu, penasihat, pengasih, pengarah, cikgu dan sebagainya.. Biler ibu jatoh, ayah angkat ibu dan mendorong ibu supaya troz mencuba.. Biler ibu sedih, bahu dan lengan ayah sentiasa tersedia untuk ibu.. Biler ibu hilang arah, ayah akan pimpin tngn ibu dan membawa ibu ke tempat yg hendak dituju.. Biler ibu da tak tau aper nak buat, ayah akan memberi nasihat yg tak terputus2.. Dengan itu, ibu ingin mengucapkan terima kasih keatas kasih sayang yg telah ayah berikan kepade ibu selame ini.. Nota yg ibu kirimkan ini tak la beberapa panjang.. Namun, ia datang tulus dan ikhlas dari hati ibu yg kecil ini..

Tak pernah sekali terlintas di fikiran untuk mengkhianati percintaan ini.. Teramatlah suci untuk dikhianati.. Ibu tau, ibu mempunyai ramai peminat kat luar.. Ibu nak ayah tau, takder seorang pon yg setaraf ngan ayah.. Bukan dari segi harta dunia, tapi sejauh maner seseorang itu sanggop berkorban demi cinta.. 

Ibu sayang ayah, tau.. Benar2 sayang..

Tulus & Ikhlas,

Seorang wanita kecik yg mencintaimu terlebih dahulu sebelum kamu mencintainya..

My Freakin Lo0ong Thursday~

Morning started off pretty bad. I had a hard tyme tryna get myself off the bed. WTH..! I dun wanna miss work. So, i forced myself to get up. Took the shower n got ready.. Wanted to wear a pink top, but i cannot find it anywhr.. So, it was changed to a normal kakhi-coloured top with 3/4 jeanz n my ipanema sandals. :) Simplicity.. Plus, hair tied up~ Initiallie, i wanted to clip it with the pretty pink clip, but things juz seemed so wrong. It juz dun look nice. I dunnoe wat's wrong with me today. I took like..really long to get myself ready, and ended up walking towards the mrt sttn.. WTH~

Reached the office n start to send out emails.. Did wat was instructed by the BF onli to find out it was wrong. I dunnoe.. He dun seemed to appreciate it afta i told him wat i emailed. I mean, since u're hardly on the computer, perhaps calling would be an alternative way.. But wat e hell.. It's all done.. Perhaps next tyme, u can send the email out urself.. Or maebe, text the relevant person regarding ur leave balance.. That wae, u might get a faster response...

Next on FB, i dunnoe wat the hell is wrong with my aunty arh.. Just because we are closer to our frenz, she make it a big hoo-haa.. She posted something abt 'Y some ppl are very 'on' when it comes to frenz n not families..?' Let dem be la.. U dun expect us 2 visit u everydae of the week rite? Or juz appear in front of ur door? Everybody has their own livez to lead wat..? N besides, u're married sia.. Duncha wanna haf tyme alone with ur husband now that he's werkin shifts..? What is wrong with u..?! Haiyah.. Whateva~

Next up, chatted with kakak on FB and asked her why was it rainin indo0rs yesterdae? It all points down to Sharif being jealous.. Dun wish to probe further since it's their relationship. :) N yeah, planned with her to leave the house early tonite before proceeding with each otha's plans. She's goin out with Sharif n me, of coz meeting my darling la.. Sharif saed to meet downstairs at the back stairs at 8pm. I saed y dun ask him 2 meet u at e carpark.. Easier mah.. E ferst thing she saed was - I dunnoe whr's the carpark leii.. Hahahah.. Siakenz.. So yeah, bottom line, me n sista will be leavin early to have a lil talk n some catch up.. Guess she has lots 2 share with me.. :)

At work, Charity made us laugh the entire time.. Heheheh.. She's the CRAZY ANG MOH.. Hahahaha...

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Completed 100% of Mass Deployments for this week..

** Updatez On What's Hot & What's Not **

Soon enough, it's gonna be a month since I forced him 2 go.. Still, the soury sweet memories will alwayz be with me. Those lil hepi moments, those 'i WAN' moments, will be as fresh as it juz happened yesterday. Those pretty dreams that i came across.. Juz leavez me smiling the very next morning. I noe, Smurf is still ard.. I juz noe.. Smurf is there whreva i am.. I juz knew it.. :)

3rd Oct was Jalan Raya Yo with Bunga Hitam.. I waz sexcited lor..!! My ferst raya outing with Bunga Hitam.. Yeahoo..!! N me n bf wore our pretty CUTE pink couple outfit.. N when i looked at us in the mirror, we look like pengantin seii.. Hehehe.. Met Aan n Ajid kat carpark Aan n we head down to Mok's place at Hougang togetha.. Spent quite sometime thr.. More like some of the time was wasted while waiting for the rest to arrive.. The trip 2 e 2nd house was disasterous as some ppl juz intend to forget on waitin for the othaz, n simply left ajid, bf n me behind. We got lost along the wae, but sumhow managed to find the wae to the next house. Which was eventuallie, 1 of the gerls whom i hate. She's mok's NYP frenz i think.. But wateva~ I hate her. She's boastful.. I saw lotsa new faces like WAKA WAKA.. hahahaha..!! Lesbo~ Overall, the outing was splendid.. Many pix were taken n yeah, had a hell of a gd tyme..

For werk last wk, it was pretty fine.. I'm doing really well with werk n i'm hepi.. :) I've completed all the Mass Deployments for this wk.. Yay~ As long as i'm remained undisturbed, things will be ok.. Starting slowly to save my losses previously. I juz wan the figure to be 4 figures.. No more 3 digits.. This will be the last tyme i'm gonna use my savings on acc Sophia needs a doctor.. Well, i ride on her too. I noe bf disagree on me doin the bike.. But hey, juz this once k, ayah..?? I love her too u noe.. Kk.. I love u MORE~ :D So that's the plan for this coming Sat - to bring Sophia out for a trip 2 her doctor. She's startin 2 fall sick liao la.. Cannot delay.. 

I had my hair cut yesterday.. I told the stylist to chop off wateva is spoilt at the ends.. She did a pretty great job n my hair is now healthy n shiny~ :) Doesn't look as dead as it was before. Chop off the fringe abit.. Loike loike..!! Even bf likes it.. Did it at Defone salon @ Woodlands Mart.. Coming back next month to dye my hair at a reasonable price of $80.. Ok  wat hor..? :D

That's all for now.. Will update if thr's more..

Signing Off : The Kitty

The Past & The Present.. (I Can't Think Of The Future For Now)...

Lotsa things have been happening lately.. Pretty surprises n also the 'OMG' kinda surprises.. Let's start with 'OMG' shall we..? I was late in my mensus n didn't think much abt it. During the fasting month, thr were some hiccups which i was down with a gastric pain that i neva had before. When i went to the doctor, he kept askin me when was my last period n when should the next one come.. I told him the details and such. As days goes by, i feel a lil uncomfortable n cranky every now n den.. I get hungry easily n i demanded for lotsa things.. HmMmMmMm.. During raya season, i found out i was carryin Smurf..

BF helped me with the research for the clinic he can think off. I was upset for the fact i couldn't keep it.. How to..? i'm not stable enough.. Fast forward - after the appt with the doctor, i decided to keep it for at least a wk before baby has to go.. During the entire wk, i played with it, talked to it, cried with it n even snored with it. Smurf was definitely close to BF coz each n every day, i juz wanna meet him n not wanting to seperate. Eventho i was VERY tired..

During the very last moments, i juz cried my heart out when BF asked me - are you ready for tomorrow..? Truth is - i was NOT..!! I was NOT prepared to let him go~ He was onli 3cm.. He was so0o0o small.. But i could feel how BIG he was inside.. He knew he was luved - alot.. But not much enough to prevent all this from happenin.. He wanted to stae.. But there's nothing we can do.. :'( During the whole procedure, i was aslp.. But then, Smurf gave me a pretty pleasant dream. I love you, Smurf.. Alot.. I juz couldn't stop cryin at nite.. I woke up, with wet face.. OMG.. I was cryin in my slp.

As for work, things are fine now. I've buck with my attendance n definitely - working attitude.

That's all i wanna sae.. My mind is all filled with Smurf.. And BF of coz..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Burried Her Precious Gem Deep In Her Heart.. So So Deep..

During Ramadhan...

During Ramadhan, macam2 dugaan yg dialami, dilalui, diberi etc.. Starting jek, thr were some miscommunicationz n misunderstandingz back in e office.. On top of that, gastric started to attack.. Ouch..!! Me n bf broke up for a few hours, stuffs like dat..

In e early weeks of Ramadhan, me n bf head down to geylang to hunt for baju raya.. We found wat we like, but it was too expensive.. But in e end, we finally got it, in pink (not his choice of colour tone though, but he likes the design).. In e process of gettin one, i have to go thru his baby moods like, his rimas moment, rushing nak buka tyming.. Stuffs like dat.. As for him, he did his part to.. He entertained my perfectionist attitude.. As in, everything has to be in order and the same.. :) Mine is tailormade n it costed $180, while BF, for once, bought an expensive outfit n costed him $160. Take it as a reward that this yr, u fast whole-heartedly... :)

Work, same shit different day arh.. Each day when i stepped in the office, i was in e good mood until i saw his face.. -.- It irks me like hell.. Yucks..!

This morning, reached the office n got a disgusting email from the lead regarding half day might not be approved.. How inconsiderate can this leads get sia..? Blardy A-hole..!

Raya is juz ard the corner.. 4 days to be exact.. Mom n sista are at home cleanin the house.. Hopefully, mostly are done by the tyme i get home.. 2 more days and it's tyme for me to drive the apv home (with daddy as my instructor..) Hopefully he's in a good mood when dat happens.. :) And yesterday at Geylang, bought the family outfit n mama got me a gold pendant which is the letter N.. I'm wearin it now out of excitement..!! Hehehe..

N yes, i miss my bear bacen alot.. Like, seriously, alot.. All i wanna do is hug him tightly when we meet, juz look into his seductive n sae nothing (juz let e eyez do the talk), fondle with his hair when he lies down comfortably on my legs or perhaps, beside me.. Snuggle up with him, bury my face in his skin n get lost within, n eventuallie, fall aslp beside the man i realli adore, love n respect...

I Love You, Yah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Pissed With The Leads At Work But Hepi With Things Outside..

A Perfect Saturday

Let's skip Friday's story, shall we..? All i can sae was SALT was an extremely great movie which worth every penny paid n just so u noe, the nite almost ended in a complete disaster.. Like i saed, let's juz skip dat part..

So on sat, followed BF to his relatives place at AMK whr they're having prayers for the deceased.. Practically, i was shy.. Found a place beside his sister which his mom has given up n thank goodness he sat beside me as well.. Phew~ Recite together with dem n halfwae thru, the tummy starts to rumble.. Luckily no one heard the disturbing noise.. Hehehe... During the short break, when the food was served, the dishes were superb n wanted to help myself to more servings.. But den i remembered i was at a relative's place, so i maintained.. Control beb.. Ader jek kene label pelahap.. Paiseh beb... Lol.. After the closing prayers were done, bf was told to send the man whom has helped the family with the reciting, home.. He had to send him all the wae to MacPherson.. So ok.. I helped ard the house by cleaning up the mess left behind - for the 2nd batch of ppl to eat.. After awhile, i felt like i was redundant thr, so i asked Fizah to accompany me to the shop.. In a wae, i can get to noe her more closer.. :)

When BF is back, he bought me again to the shop - thinking i hadn't got my stuffs.. When i told him i already did, he was like - Alah.. I'm bringin u thr 2 buy ur things leiiii.... Lol.. But we still proceed to the shop whr i bought him a pkt of milo n me, chocolate milk.. We sat n talked, he was complaining to me the fact he had to send the man all the wae to MacPherson, when 1 of his uncles saed that it's along Thompson.. Lol~ Back upstairs, he introduced me to his relatives, whom he labelled "My Favourite Ones".. Found them funny n easy to click.. After which we helped ourselves to the 2nd serving.. Had mee goreng this tyme round.. The 1zt one was lontong, rendang n serunding.. Sedap you..! When tyme was up, we bid each other goodbye n proceeded with our plan - shopping at bugis..!

There, we bought 3 sets of couple tees.. KTM, stripe polo tees inspired by 77 Street n a random pink top with printings.. Mine was Daddy's Little Princess, while his was a printing of a music note.. Since he's into music.. We spent $118 altogether.. After that, we head home to put the things since there were too many for me to carry.. Reached home n quickly took my shower since we're goin out again - to Dam n meet the team for their monthly meeting.. ;)

At the dam, sat n talked with Waty n Huda.. Wow.. Macam2 woo kiter bobal.. Tsk.. Heard lotsa stories from the past to the present and definitely to the near future. Aiyo..! Betol tak betol seii nih..? I have no comments la to be precise.. All i can sae is - all the best n good luck.. Supper was at buangkok sakura n after that, some of us head home while the rest head to punggol park..

The blog continues with a different title.. Till den, adios~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Enjoied Her Saturdae.. :D

My Cold Wet-Ness-Day

After i left the shower in the morning, i noticed the skiez doesn't lo0k so g0od.. True enuff, it was cloudy.. Pretty dark out thr.. How lovely if i could just slp the dae awae.. But na-ah.. I've changed my mindset.. I'm gonna kip up with work before it kips up with me.. N yeah, i can see now i'm pretty good with the apps.. No more complaints on my side.. InsyaAllah, all this will go sm0othly each n every day.. :) Btw, Joanne didn't turn up for work today as she called in sick.. Left home, the rain's pretty heavy.. Thank go0dness there's shelter all the wae to the bustop.. At least i dun hafta carry my ella with me.. The onli part that was wet was basically my feet n part of the dress..

When i reached the office, was told by Jason that IDA are coming.. Doing a security check n we'll hafta tidy up the place.. So, it's just me n Rachelle who does the cleaning since Dawn is awae in the warehouse.. The shitty part was, i planned to leave for lunch at 12.30pm.... But that damn blardy asshole decided to hold an abrupt meeting at that tyme..! Wat e hell..?! Despite it doesn't really concerns me since he wazn't putting his attention towards me, but den, wanna leave the place just like dat oso not nice mah.. Dawn n i were practically grumbling to each otha thru the communicator.. At 1pm, i juz pte chat with Rachelle n told her that i'm leaving for lunch no matter wat.. I haf gastritis, mind u..!

Lunch wat at Blk 92 thr, where i had marinara.. Yessa..! The indulgence to a plate of pasta with extra scallop... Ouh yeah~ While waiting, Dawn played with my hp n i just sit n looked at her.. Kinda funny when she gets so0o stressed up into finding the difference.. Hahahahah.. She sure enjoied herself with the game.. She browsed thru all the apps n such.. Can tell she realli loves my fone - ALOT.. Heee..

Back in the office, werk was as per normal.. Did all that was this wk n haf since started for next Tuesdae.. The go0d news is, my worst nightmare is ova... Did the PUB together with Rachelle.. Yay~ Kinda spent the dae takin my own swit tyme gettin the apps done.... :)

A few more mins n i'm off to meet my one n onli hunnie bunnie bear bacen.. Macam2 namer btol aku kasi dier ehk..? Yg penting, he's the HUBBY.. Nyeh~ Luv u, yah.. Can't wait 2 meet u.... Uwee~~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Contented With Her Work

~Why Oh Why~

Weekend was a blast despite the fact part of the Saturdae was a total disaster.. Still, as alwaez, he managed to make me realize again and again how in luv he was with me.. Went to the cage at Kallang whr Team Qirana had a frenly match with Team Havana.. BF left the cage with scars on his face.. Aiyo.. Wat e hell..! But still, u're lo0kin as hot as eva, honey.. :) Supper was at KTM which epul did most of the talkin.. Frankly, i was already half aslp.. Thank gawd waty poked me.. Heh~ Back at home, while chillin n talkin 2 him, his brudder stepped in n told uz that he was involved in an accident.. Wounds lo0ked pretty bad... Had to force BF to take a look at e wounds.. -___- & i have a habit for feelin tingly n painful all ova when seein otha ppl's wounds n blo0d.. Still, i wanna see... Crappy rite..? 0_0


On Sunday, BF dropped the bomb to me n saed that he wanna get engage with me.. Wow.. I was left speechless lor.. N blushing at e same tyme... We did the calculations n i came up with a final ans that if he starts to save $500 as of next month (Aug 2010), by Oct 2014, he'll have $25,000 in hiz savingz acc already.. N he finds the month real nice.. It's in btwn the both of us.. I'm Sept & he's Nov.. :)


So on Monday.. Yes..! I was pretty lazy to get my stinkin ass off the bed n into the freakin shower n get ready to go to work.. After much tossin n turnin, i get up n got the ball rolling.. The day was fine.. Things went super well.. Even at werk.. No problemz were raised.. If so, it'z basically juz minor2 onez.. The dae ended, perfectly fine..


Today was kinda sucky.. 1st was about the clothez.. I dun realli noe how to eplain in details arh.. All i can sae was that i'm upset... I came to a point in which i'll throw all those tight-fitting, body-hugging, short skirtz, leggingz awae.. I dun find the purpose into keepin dem already.. So so0n enuff, i'll be back 2 being me again, back in 2005... Whr it's alwaez jeanz n t-shirt... Even if i need to wear office wear, i'll wear those long not-too-tight office pants n long-sleeved office top.. As for work, meeting went well n we came to an agreement between StagingDA & SCCM.. I explained to dem the difficulty on my side, while dey explained theirs.. Back in the office, nearin towards the end of the dae, thingz got pretty rough.. I find myself not in the mo0d for anything since i received an email regarding missing applications.. N truth is, i didn't even do it.. But den, wateva concerns app mapping, i'll b the first in line to get sho0t at by the boss.. Haizz...


Back at home, i didn't noe wat my mind was thinking.. All i azked myself was - wat e hell is wrong with u..? How could u possibly asked for a 4-days off from meetin e man whom u reali luv..? Dun u pity him..? Oh, u self-centered bytch..! But then, he has already agreed to it.. He's givin me all the space he could give even it's for sure it's beyond his meanz.. All i did was cried the moment i got into the room n hugged my bear.. I have no idea wat state i am in now.. All i could think of was to curl up n buried my face in my pillows..


True: I'll miss his hugs..
True: I'll miss his touch..
True: I'll miss his laughter..
True: I'll miss his eyes..
True: I'll miss his kisses..


True enough, I'll miss each & every single detail there is to it abt him..


Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Dazed & Confuzed

Finally... :D

Finally, the week has passed n JAIHO..!! Saturdae'z here..!!! Yessaa..!! Gd morning, Saturdae..!! I welcome u with open armz yaw~ Hehehe.. Still, to wait for this very dae to come, lotsa thingz i went thru.. Top of the chart waz my sickness.. Haiyah~ Started with a cough on mondae.. Tot it was minor.. U noe, those kinda cough that comez when u laugh too hard.. Onli to find out that it was the beginning of a very bad sore throat n possibility - fever...! Kabam...!! When nite fallz, body heatz up.. Not externally, but internally.. My eyez were like on fire, i tell u.. N when i rolled dem from left to right, adoi..!! The muscle was being pulled sia.. Pain u noe..!! :( Had to take an mc the very next dae..

Back to werk on weds n continued doin my tasks.. Minded my own bisnes as per normal.. Hardly talked to anibody coz i juz dun feel like talkin.. Wanted to go lunch at e Makcik's place beside Esso, but it turned out to be somewhr else.. Yes la, i was pissed la kan.. But den, haiya~ Wateva la.. As long as my tummy's filled up, i'm fine.. On the otha hand, was pissed again coz i already saed i might walk a lil slow due to my shortness of breath, but it turned out i had to walk extra fast to catch up.. -.- Thank go0dness BF was thr to accompany me on the fone.. That distracted me from the fact that i was eventuallie - OUT OF BREATH..! After werk, met ma at Fork n Spoon n we had our dinner thr.. Nani, saket2 pon, lamb chop tak lepas ehk.. Heheheh.. Met BF at nite n thingz didn't went pretty well.. I was to0 sick to devote all my attention to him.. Sorrie baby.. :(

As for Thurs, another fucttup thing.. Staging boi came up to me n saed that App Mapping is becomin tremendously ridiculous.. Saein stuffs like it'z realli causin dem lotsa pressure n stress.. Keje maner tak stress, boi..? Da agency request tuh macam.. Kau nak aku buat aper..? Per saje jek.. Lao taknak stress gi dudok umah arh.. Abez crite~ Pfft..!

Den fridae (yesterdae), the flu n cough got real bad.. Enader doctor's visit.. BF was with me.. He's on mc to0.. Reason : Back pain... Hehehehe.. After that, we had our brunch at the kopitiam upstairs.. Both of us had Nasi Lemak.. As for BF, his was extra rice.. We ordered milo peng n teh peng.. Mak ai!! Peh tawar.. yelgh..!! N yes, after brunch, i he reminded me in his stern voice - Da makan obat lom...? Heh!

And so, evenin was as planned.. Followed him to the bbq pit organized by his station colleaguez.. When we reached, it was onli Kak Herda, her hubby, Zaki n Aleesya.. They juz started unpackin.. Nothin was ready yet.. Sat down a while to catch my breath before proceedin into helpin dem... I head up towards Aleesya n helped her peel the corns while she cut dem into half.. Once done, we buttered in n wrap it in the aluminium foilz.. :) The first batch of bbq-ing was done by me n BF.. He did the fanning.. :) We ate n laughed alot.. It was a warming nite in which i really enjoied myself despite the fact i am still not feeling well.. Thanx alot everyone.. :))

Reached home n get down to business.. Pack up some stuffz 1zt so that later in e dae, i won't rush.. I added some to-do thingz in e list which was to head down to the post office at civic to collect my photocard liscense (yay..!!) n also to OCBC to withdraw the cash needed for the dae.. OMG..!! I'm freakin excited rite now.. Can't wait can't wait can't wait..!!!

Signin off : The Kitty Who Is Mad Excited..!!!

:: The Past, Sumthing In Between & What's New ::

A lot of thingz has been happenin in our livez lately.. The good, the bad  the ugly.. U name it.. We got it.. Be it at werk, at home or in between uz..

Let's start with me ferst..

Previously, things at werk were atrocious, i tell u.. It juz felt like breakin down n cry in front of e whole wide werld.. I was pretty much pushed too hard n also was tryin my very best to make things better.. Stayed back late every nw n den juz to finish up the tasks as much as i could.. There was once, the beginning, i had 2 stae till like 8.15pm juz to complete the tasks.. OMG~ BF was pretty pissed n upset with that.. But thank God he had an extra helmet with him at werk.. So he told me to wait for him.. While waiting, i was practically chillin n sumwhat enjoin the 'nitelife' in a office on a FRIDAE.. Hahahaha.. When BF arrived, he looked super HOT in his FULL uniform.. *Singin* Oh My Gosh~~~~ Ok fine.. Mengakal moment... *slurp*

After that, we head down to Teh Tarik for dinner.. We had a luvly chat during dinner.. Den he received a msg frm Hus n he stated that on dat very nite, thr was a jamming session.. Enader last minute thing... Told him 2 pass the session, but Hus juz kept pleadin him 2 come with the reason the vocal is comin ova.. So ok lor.. Went home right after that, showered, n met him back... To tell u the truth, the vocalist is nowhr near FAME..

Regarding him plak, is basically abt his mom nagging at him 2 get a part tyme job.. Y laze ard at home without any benefits bla bla bla... That's all i noe la kan.. :)

Next, abt us.. Things got pretty much outta hand lately.. There were lotsa fights between us despite we were already ok.. Within a few minutes or perhapz the next dae, we'll start 2 fight again.. Stuffs about gettin a car, abt me, abt him, anything la.. But yesterdae was the werst in our fights list.. Blame me n my foul mouth n PMS.. Haiyah~ I didn't mean to blurt it out coz 2 me, he's not dat kinda person.. He'z juz someone who demands attention whenever he can get any.. And dat onli happenz when he's with me.. Like physically.. So yeah.. He saed somethin hurtftul to me the night before n i made it sound twice as hurtful.. Sometymes i wonder if 'twice' is even the correct calculation.. Could be more den dat.. N yes, i shot him straight in his head, wishing that i could juz point the tip of the gun at my head n juz pull the trigger...But that's equivalent to givin up. I fought for his love so bad. I won't wanna risk everything by givin up..

So we talked the nite awae.. Tryin meanz n waez to settle everything, but it turned out that i'm creatin more problemz in between.. I juz feel like runnin up 2 him n hug him as tight as i could.. Haiz.. I gave him mindless terms n conditions which was in a wae extremely difficult to even sae it out.. But it was saed out aniwae.. Heart was heavy.. It hurts like hell.... I've hurt the man i luved s0o dearly.. This tyme round, it will leave a permanent scar on him.. What haf i done...??? I'm sucha BYTCH....!!!

N yesterdae was fine.. I guess... Met him at his carpark as per normal n had dinner with him.. I talked to him during dinner n shared with him details he nids to noe.. Den along the wae, thru the end, somethin happened.. He was not his oldself.. I could it.. I tried to be nice to him.. But it didn't work out. He was still distant towards me.. But den again, all i could do is juz face up 2 him n smile, assuring myself things are going to be juz fine..

At nite, we chatted on e fone awhile before he started to sing.. I was serenaded by hiz tone n juz remain quiet.. He sang n sang n i wished we could've hung up earlier or maebe i could juz crack my brainz n opened a dumb topic.. He asked me a question which realli hurts me alot.. I tried to avoid it, but comin to e end of the conversation, i juz told him i respected his decisions.. Thinking that he already saed 'gdbye', i juz hung up the fone.. He called me back n saed that i hung up on him again... Wat e heck~ Enader misunderstanding.. He wanted to talk abt it the very nite, but i was too slpy already.. My head was already thumpin like mad it could juz explode.. 

Woke up the very next day n noticed that his msgs were not sincere.. It felt like as if he was forced to msg me.. So i juz texted him that if his not willing to send any msgs, dun bother.. N kabo0m..! The fight continued.. Haishh... We were arguing all the wae from the moment i left home till e very moment i reached the office.. Due to e headache i had, i took a cab..

I juz told him wat was really happenin n wat i'm realli facing. I told him i was apologetic n juz wanz thingz to b the wae it was... I wan the old him back.. I HATE the new him.. I totally DESPISE that person... So i told him that unless i get the old raffi back n m realli assure i got him back, things will definitely b ok.. But den again, onli tyme will tell..

We've been fighting alot lately & it's extremely sucky.. Both of uz juz wan the honeymoon period back.. Coz i can c that e period has sumwhat ended.. I'm tryin my very bezt 2 get that period back.. All i wan is the man whom i used to chase 4 mnths ago like hell - juz to get his freakin attention..

I luv u, ayah.. Alot... More than u can eva imagine.. Despite there are moments i might not show how much u mean 2 me, but truth is, i'm willing to take e bullet for u..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wanz The Man Whom She Used To Chase 4 Months Ago

-- A Day Spent With The Man --

This happened yesterdae - 2nd June 2010...

Woke up, opened e main do0r n wow!!! It was damn cold out thr!! Cold breeze kissed my skin.. N tell u e truth, dat is not such a gd thing~ So when i wanted to shower, along e wae, i was coughin like hell.. Throat starts to hurt wheneva i coughed or swallow anithing.. N mom - being e kastam officer as olwaez, stopped me n feel my forehead... She went, 'adeq, u're running a temperature alreadi.. Go see a doctor or something...' I told her, 'No Ma, i got things to do...' She juz sho0k her head n continued makin breakfast..

Met BF n off we went to have breakfast at McDonald's.. He requested for it.. Yes Ayah.. I asked u 3x in a row if u realli wanted it.. N u saed YES.. =p So, i got myself breakfast deluxe, n BF got himself sausage mcmuffin, but later found out he hatez cheeze.. So we traded.. I made him enader burger frm my BD dis tyme with egg n i ate hiz burger.. =) Breakfast was lurve!! The the premium brewed coffee - SUPERB! But den, throat starts to swell again.. Coughin hurts n i can't even yawn.. Adoi!! Texted the main ppl dat i won't b comin in.. So off to BF's place..

Played with Ikhy the moment i stepped in.. Hehehe... Scratchin her head, her ears n whereva i can lae my fingers on.. Lepak2 in his room n dozed off.. My head started to spin alreadi.. It was unbearable.. N i admit, when i'm sick, i can get very mengakal.. U noe to a certain fact that i wan him 2 be with me but at e same tyme i dun wanna be disturbed...? Fickle-minded la me.. Wahlao! He WAS craving for my attenti0n.. But i simply shoved him away.. OH MY GOD!! I'm such a meanie.. I mean, i'm sorie.. I didn't mean it.. Yet, he still hugged me n all.. Even when i dun respond to him.. Gosh AYAH.. I luv u, sia!!!!

Later in e dae, he finally confessed to me.. He saed that i m jealous of him n his electric guitar while he's jealous of me n my FB... 0_0 i'm like - ouhkae.. Perhaps i put too much attention into it.. Hehehe.. Round the clock it's me n FB.. Nyeh!

At nite, we went to cozwae point.. By BUS.. Wow!!! I managed to drag BF to take e bus with me... Hehehe.. N he kept complainin n yawning.. But i dun care.. I won!! I managed to make him take e bus!!! JAIHO! Our missio at cozwae - to find me a top (a navy blue one) to match with e CK top i bought for him.. N mission was a complete failure.. I couldn't find anithin.. Haiyah!! Got a pair of earringz instead.. Wanted to get a ring as well, but wat we saw is not wat we wanted... Haizz..

Dinner was at Burger King.. Wow!! BF ate burger - again.. I dun mind if u're still cho0zy.. Enader mission success.. Hehehehe.. I made u eat burgers.. Hehehehe.. N he was hepi dat his craving was satisfied.. He sure enjoyed his Hershey's Sundae Pie.. He was too buzy indulging himself, dat it was me doin the talkin all e wae.. But i dun mind.. He talked alot already back at home.. So it's my turn.. =) We balance things, ok.. ;p Dinner was filled with lotsa laughter.. N yes, i enjoyed entertainin him during dinner.. Undergoin training? Guess so.. Hehehe..

I'm like seriously head over heels with my man.. Practically if i can do a cartwheel, i'll do it.. Kk.. Too drama-mama.. If i were to do it, i think he'll go : Yenna rascal la... MIND IT! Hahaha... K ayah, i noe u're smiling widely n maebe laughin as well.. Control.. Heheheheheh.... I luv ya, baby!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Luvz Her Man Alot.. (Like DUH!)

My Poor Baby

And so, baby is upset n depressed of the tings that are goin on his life.. He feelz realli down at dis very moment due to various issues.. He needs me - really bad.. But i feel bad myself coz i can't be thr for him... Thr he is, in e comfort of him own home, thinkin of all e things he could think off, waiting for me patiently to finish e dae at werk... Here i am, at werk, basically hafta complete wateva tasks assigned to me & at e same tyme, wanting to be thr for him.. But wat can i do? Juz hafta wait for e dae to pass by asap.. Coz each n every moment in my life, is alwayz waiting for e dae for me to reunite back with him.. It's in hiz armz whr i belonged..

I miss you~

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Noez That Her Master Yearns For Her Now

I Am So0o0o0o Goin To Swensen's...

Morning started off not too bad.. Did my tasks e moment i switched on the lappy.. Sucky thing is dat e LAN is kinda problematic todae.. Internet connections are pretty slow... Haiyah! Managed to email out an agency with 84 userz right before lunch tyme.. Phew~

Lunch was at Swensen's with my 2 luvly ladiez.. Finally!! After a month of waitin, i'm so0o0o goin thr.. Nyeh!! E service was kinda bad.. Right from e start till e very end.. N the wait for dessert is OMG! The 2 ladies was chattin awae n as for me - basically enjoin my fo0d.. Butt in a little as n when i feel like buttin in.. The rest of it, juz in my own swensen's werld.. Nyahahahaha!!!

The spicy chicken as a starter.. Well actuallie, it's part of e sides.. It's a 1 for 1 lunch thingy...

All tyme favourite - Salmon Baked Rice! Heaven on earth!!!

It all ended with my enader all tyme favourite dessert - Sticky Chewy Chocolate!! Hell yeah!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Pleased With What's For Lunch..

All I Can Think About For Now

Damn!! I ovaslept.. Told BF i wanna shower at 6.30am, but i fell aslp eventuallie.. Lucky thing he called at 7.40am.. Hah! Panick attack!!! But me, being e CUTE one, juz cutely told him ova my cute fone in a cute tone, 'Heh.. I juz woke up....' N he was pissed la of coz...

So off e bed n dragged my feet to e shower n showered lazily... Eyes were still closed btw.. Hahahaha.. Told it was half an hour alreadi, but neh.. It lasted for onli 20 mins.. Normal tymin.. HmMmMm.. Texted BF to come ova while waitin for me.. At least he's not bored.. So, as i was doin my make up, i gave him his toi - my mobile.. Or should i sae - OUR mobile... :)

Breakfast at KFC was simply lurve~~ Enader craving down - porridge.. =) BF was juz in hiz berangan moment abt us married alreadi coz he was readin e paper n i was preparin hiz bweakfast.. I plaed along with him.. Hehehehe.. Manerla tau, berangan akan menjadik kenyataan.. InsyaAllah.. ;)

He sent me to werk n off he went to do his bike...

Morning was bad for my Lil Miss Joanne... Email war.. NYEH!! Kecoh abez.. It sux when u get a person whose sto0pid for a boss.. Dey dun c as a whole, dey c as a part.. Dey kept on adding fuel to the flame n kept saein thr's lotsa problemz.. Clarified with Joanne, she saed thr's actuallie NO PROBLEMZ at all.. Gosh boss!! U're practically outdated i muz sae.. -.-

Ouh ya.. Random pix taken at BF's place.. He was forced by ME to entertain me.. Hahahaha!! I LUV U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Luvz The Attention She's Getting

= You're Still The One =

The dae ended kinda bad yesterdae.. Had a massive fight with BF n e cause was juz a repeated question which to me, was silly.. I mean, u already got e confermation.. Wat more do u wan..? At his place, before leavin, i azked him if he's seen my lighter.. He was searchin for it high n low.. Me too.. Except for e fact his cat was distractin me.. So, i plaed with his kitty for a while, n was shocked with his reaction upon seein me plaed with Ekhy/Ikhy.. So yeah, i went home straight.. Was supposed to follow him 2 e store 2 get his ciggies, but i was too peeved.. I didn't even wanna talk 2 him, let alone c his face.. Y..? I was upset.. Supportin reason: I dun wanna cry in front of him... Reached my flo0r, i juz took back wateva dat was mine, salam him n turned to e do0r.. I neva even kissed him..

E moment i slammed e do0r after me, tears started to flow.. I tried meanz n waez 2 control, but it juz kept comin out.. Went into e ro0m & asked myself - wat haf i done? y is he treatin me dis wae? wat has he done? wat went wrong? Soo many questions.. I couldn't even lie down 4 1min.. Decided to text him to ask if he decided to come anot.. He was downstairs already when he texted me back.. So he came 2 a decision to come up n see me..

We talked in e ro0m n cleared e air.. He even sat down in front of me.. He looked up at me.. I juz stared at him.. Feelin guilty for wat i've done.. Feel like huggin him in an instant.. But i'm still mad.. I dun wan e hugs to make me forgot i was peeved.. Like i mentioned, his hugs does c0olz me down when i'm fuming mad.. So yeah.. Cleared e air n den - it all ends with a hug..

I feel safe with him.. He pampers me.. He puts me before him - despite i told him to be selfish as n when needed.. He gave me all e things a gerl could eva wish for.. Attention, Love, Understanding, Mutual Respect.... He makes me feel worth it.. I love you, baby..

So wateva obstacles we are gonna face later, at e end of e dae, it'z still u whom i love, whom i'll run to & e one whom i'll kiss gd nite...

I love you, Ayah..







Signing Off : The Kitty Who Nearly Scratched Her BF, But Decided To Keep Her Freshly Manicured Nails Clean & Also On Account She Luvz Him ALOT!

- Tak Sanggop Lagi -

Ayah, kenape mesti ader orang dengki ngan kiter..? Juz bcoz niat kiter baik nak menolong, dier hina n caci kiter.. Tuduh macam2.. Biler menolong, orang akan cakap kiter memandai... Biler tak tolong, orang akan ckp luper member.. Pentingkan diri sendiri.. Ibu betol2 tak tau macam maner lagi nak paham aper erti persahabatan..

Ibu da taknak masok campor dalam apape hal agik arh, yah.. Da takder maknenyer nak tolong2 orang lagi.. Ayah nak tolong, ayah leii carry on.. But if it happens yg ader masalah tuh kawan kiter, pls ehk ayah.. Tell e person not to bother me.. I've had enuff arh.. Even if e person wans to meet u with me along, Ibu ikot.. Tapi ibu tukang dgr jek.. Ibu taknak kasi apape pendapat agik kat orang2 nih sumer.. Walao macam maner ibu sayang diorang pon, takperla.. Lebih rela handle masalah sendiri.. I'd rather be selfish already..

Agikpon, kiter kan takder experience part2 yg da berumah-tangge.. Kiter maner leii kasi pendapat atao nasihat agik.. Kiter kan anak abu.. Orang tuh bbl macam dier da berumah-tangge.. Dier sendiri macam paham, nak ckp orang... Dier saper seii..? Sedare? Adeq? Ader blood relations ke? Wateva la haa.. Like wat i saed, ibu da tak kuase nak tlng lagik.. Ibu da penat.. Ibu da taknak ader kene mengena ngan masalah2 diorang agik.. I've got things to do rather den butt in into someone else's affairs or watsoeva...

I have to focus on my family & dat includes YOU, career, liscence n our future.. Tuh lagi penting.. Apape masalah yg ader kaitan ngan hubungan matair ke, suami isteri ke, scandalism ke - KIRIM SALAM...! Takder maser nak layan n perah2 otak nih sumer... Ayah nyer orang baik hati.. Ibu tau ayah maseh leii mampu tlng sesaper yg perlukan bantuan.. So go ahead ayah.. I won't stop u.. I won't even get angry.. In fact, i'm blessed to have someone like u in my life..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Given Up Part Of Being A Go0d Fren..

Ubber Random

K arh.. This is like realli random to e point whrby i can't think of anything to do.. So, bloggin is all thr is in mind..

Waitin for BF to come back home.. He's gone to JB for enader touch n go session... Plaed FB n watched youtube.. It's like, i feel so bored.. Maebe on account BF is not here & i have nothin to do? I dunnoe.. Kept on goin back to FB to see wat'z in store.. Any new notificationz..? Nope - NIL.. So, was browsin thru my fren's lizt n came accross raini's profile.. WOW~ Ubber random lor to masok his profile.. Coz frankly, i onli kip myself updated to e 9 featured frenz on my profile... Cuzzins, as n when it's on news feed la..

So, was practically goin thru wat was written on his wall posts n stuffs.. Haha.. Certain of e comments does hurt me though.. But e question is - y ehk..? Y does it still affect me? I mean, i already haf wat i really wanted - a man who see to my wanz n nidz.. But in those comments, it states clearly dat it's e ladies dat were all to blame, for e failed relationshipz.. Or either wae - for being such a bastard.. Hah!

Well, some people juz seemed to try to cover their asses as much as dey can eyy... Ouh well.. It's proven dat e story which was layout is definitely the climax - She went with my bro instead.. TYPICAL MEN~! Ego as high as e sky, as thick as any dictionary or whatsoeva..

There are moments i azked myself - y in e werld doez he add me back on FB? & y send me all those msgs via FB? N tell u e truth, i will ask myself dat question & ans it myself.. The ans would be - Dunnoe, Dun care.. Hahaha... =_=

So again, like i saed, this kinda thing doesn't realli effect me dat much.. It's juz random dat i'm typin all dis.. Maebe i was juz plain bored or somethin.. HmMmMm.. Should be arh.. On e bright side, i've already gotten a bf whom i realli luv, despite he called himself a freakin bf who doesn't have anithin.. But after a gd conversation with him, i made him realise his worth towards me.. So baby, juz remember e important lil details we talked abt previously.. Dat wae, u won't sto0p so0o low.. I dun demand ALL the gd things in life.. The lil thingz dat u do, e effort u put in is all worth it.. I luv you juz e wae u are & who u are..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Juz.. Well.. Being Random..