Randomness...

On Friday, i was freakin pissed with BF coz he overslept. As a result, i didn't get 2 haf breakfast.. Haiyah..! Reached the office @ 9am and noone was thr yet.. I was the ferst to arrive.. Settled down n switched on my lappy.. In FB, yaty greeted me and the conversation was iniatiallie smooth, till she opened the topic abt BF.. I told her nicely that i do not wish to talk abt him with the specific reasons.. She understo0d me, but afta a while, i noticed she seemed to make it more werst by probing the subject.. I was so mad, i blurt out whateva that comes to mind. I was pissed.. U can't expect me to sae all the nice things every now and then.. Not everybody is like u.. OK..? We remained silent towards each otha the whole entire dae. That was the last i heard from her, till today. In the evening, BF fetched me quietly, without me knowing. He waited for me at the fitness area which i called 'Halfwae'. Things were fine the moment we met.. Upon seein his face, automatically i smiled.. N he responded to my smile.. That's the main reason on y, if i'm pissed, i dun wanna see his face.. I can't help smiling.. :) Proceeded with our movie date at nite.. HP7 was awesome..! It's the 7th series.. I cannot recall all 6.. Sorie. Hehehe..

On Sat, met Aan, Mimi n Waty at Unique motor shop at the east area. Aan had his bike tyres changed and bike service at the same time. Survey for the bike alarm, n it wasn't to BF's liking. He saed the sensitivity is not high enough for protection. Next, we proceed to the IT show at Suntec. I bought the choco snax n Waty bought the Nutella that was imported from Italy. Cheap~ The next thing i noe, migraine attack..! Ouh crap.. Reason could be due to the fact thr were too many lights glaring at me and also, i had to keep on searching for them. Haiyah~ Had our dinner at Marina Sq foodloft. Thr, was an amazing race. Carik UOB/OCBC 1 marina sq.. In the end, we found it at B1 near to 7-11.. Guess wat, when we were at the escalator heading up to foodloft, UOB atm machine was at the entrance of the foodloft! WTH..!! Hahahaha.. Nasi ayam penyet for dinner.. Yum..!! Chilled at MSQ staircase before n think of a plan next. We came up with various plans like, karaoke, wii, e-gaming.. Hahaha.. N we ended up with e-gaming at cineleisure.. Gerek derh...!! Despite i was having a migraine, it was extremely fun..!! Yeah..!!

Can't wait for the next gaming session..!! :)

Signin Off : The Kitty..

My Freakin Lo0ong Thursday~

Morning started off pretty bad. I had a hard tyme tryna get myself off the bed. WTH..! I dun wanna miss work. So, i forced myself to get up. Took the shower n got ready.. Wanted to wear a pink top, but i cannot find it anywhr.. So, it was changed to a normal kakhi-coloured top with 3/4 jeanz n my ipanema sandals. :) Simplicity.. Plus, hair tied up~ Initiallie, i wanted to clip it with the pretty pink clip, but things juz seemed so wrong. It juz dun look nice. I dunnoe wat's wrong with me today. I took like..really long to get myself ready, and ended up walking towards the mrt sttn.. WTH~

Reached the office n start to send out emails.. Did wat was instructed by the BF onli to find out it was wrong. I dunnoe.. He dun seemed to appreciate it afta i told him wat i emailed. I mean, since u're hardly on the computer, perhaps calling would be an alternative way.. But wat e hell.. It's all done.. Perhaps next tyme, u can send the email out urself.. Or maebe, text the relevant person regarding ur leave balance.. That wae, u might get a faster response...

Next on FB, i dunnoe wat the hell is wrong with my aunty arh.. Just because we are closer to our frenz, she make it a big hoo-haa.. She posted something abt 'Y some ppl are very 'on' when it comes to frenz n not families..?' Let dem be la.. U dun expect us 2 visit u everydae of the week rite? Or juz appear in front of ur door? Everybody has their own livez to lead wat..? N besides, u're married sia.. Duncha wanna haf tyme alone with ur husband now that he's werkin shifts..? What is wrong with u..?! Haiyah.. Whateva~

Next up, chatted with kakak on FB and asked her why was it rainin indo0rs yesterdae? It all points down to Sharif being jealous.. Dun wish to probe further since it's their relationship. :) N yeah, planned with her to leave the house early tonite before proceeding with each otha's plans. She's goin out with Sharif n me, of coz meeting my darling la.. Sharif saed to meet downstairs at the back stairs at 8pm. I saed y dun ask him 2 meet u at e carpark.. Easier mah.. E ferst thing she saed was - I dunnoe whr's the carpark leii.. Hahahah.. Siakenz.. So yeah, bottom line, me n sista will be leavin early to have a lil talk n some catch up.. Guess she has lots 2 share with me.. :)

At work, Charity made us laugh the entire time.. Heheheh.. She's the CRAZY ANG MOH.. Hahahaha...

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Completed 100% of Mass Deployments for this week..

And So... It's TGIF.. :)

This morning, me n bf was supposed to have our breakfast at McDonalds, but he has to report to work. He received a text msg at 5am from hiz OM regarding this. So yeah, i was upset, but wat can i possibly do..? Took my tyme gettin ready n left home at 8.45am. Guess wat, i was practically fondling with my throngs of clothings - thinking wat 2 wear so that i look presentable.. I came across my Chaos mini black dress.. I was like, 'Oh my God..!! It's been ages since i wore this, evasince i gained unexpected weight..' I decided to try it on.. After i did, i was admiring myself in the mirror. It fitz - perfectly.. Except for the fact i cannot hide my bunz.. Their kinda bulging out NICELY.. :) On the otha hand, i was lazy 2 wear a 2 piece clothing. I'd rather stick 2 a dress.. Hehehehe..

Reached the office at 9.40am n i saw Joanne, Dawn n William in the room.. The ferst thing i asked them was 'Did i miss anything..??' Thankfully - No... Phew~ Checked my emails and all the SRs mapping for today are all completed. Updated the board n prepare for the printing of pull sheets for Mass Deployments, scheduled to be delivered next Monday. In between, FB-ed here n thr.. :) Received a msg from BF saein that his replacement has arrived n he's proceeding back home.. Lucky him.. I'm still here, stuck, feelin redundant all ova.. :s But to look on the bright side, he's gonna fetch me home.. :) That's nice.. Would be delighted if Jason n Gemok left early like yesterday, so that i can selit n leave at 5 again... Juz like yesterday.

Decided to have my lunch at fork n spoon later. As of now, i'm thinkin of havin chicken rice.. Dunnoe la once i reach thr, will it still be chicken rice anot.. HmMmMmMm.. Ouh well.. Let's see wat Friday has in store for me..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Nothing To Do At Work..

All About My Thursday~

Woke up at 7am this morning.. Breakfast date at fork & spoon with BF before heading down to werk. Had to report extra early today as the big shots are coming. :) And so, instead of having the regular indian breakfast, we decided to change to chinese style~ He had nasi lemak with no nuts while i had fried bee hoon with seaweed chicken n sausage. :) Yum2.. Afta dat, head for werk n we arrived the building @ 9.20am.. Nice.. :D When the big shots came in, they talked 2 us n we laughed n laughed.. We got compliments that they like us.. Hehehehe~

As for werk, things are getting pretty much nice now.. Except for the fact that i am already startin to hate SPF.. Changes here n thr.. Haiyo~ Since in the morning i had to kip askin the ARM for UAM.. N finally, managed to send the mapping 3.14pm..

Aniwae, thr's this idiot who is out to discriminate kakak on FB. He's practically talkin abt not to start a relationship to those who are married till it's gonna be possible that their marriage will be ruined.. Calling her a shit-faced n an icebox.. What e hell man..? I mean, who the hell is he to sae such things? Does he own her? Does he support her in terms of food n lodging all these while..? Who the hell does he think he is..? Call himself a man, when he couldn't even sae it in front of her face directly.. Pathetic..! N ya la, of coz i was fuming mad.. I'm also startin to dislike some of her frenz lor. I cannot ask her to stop be-friending dem, but all i can do is comment wheneva thr's a need to.. Haizzz.. Life.. Ppl cannot see otha ppl hepi.. DUMBASS..!!

Ouh well, i've completed 90% of mass deployment for next week.. Hell yeah..!! Waiting for the time to end so that i can hepily meet my darling bacen who's a cutie.. :D Yes Ayah.. CUTIE..!!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Normally Comes To Work, Well, To Be A Model.. Since She Has Most Of Her Tasks Completed..

** Updatez On What's Hot & What's Not **

Soon enough, it's gonna be a month since I forced him 2 go.. Still, the soury sweet memories will alwayz be with me. Those lil hepi moments, those 'i WAN' moments, will be as fresh as it juz happened yesterday. Those pretty dreams that i came across.. Juz leavez me smiling the very next morning. I noe, Smurf is still ard.. I juz noe.. Smurf is there whreva i am.. I juz knew it.. :)

3rd Oct was Jalan Raya Yo with Bunga Hitam.. I waz sexcited lor..!! My ferst raya outing with Bunga Hitam.. Yeahoo..!! N me n bf wore our pretty CUTE pink couple outfit.. N when i looked at us in the mirror, we look like pengantin seii.. Hehehe.. Met Aan n Ajid kat carpark Aan n we head down to Mok's place at Hougang togetha.. Spent quite sometime thr.. More like some of the time was wasted while waiting for the rest to arrive.. The trip 2 e 2nd house was disasterous as some ppl juz intend to forget on waitin for the othaz, n simply left ajid, bf n me behind. We got lost along the wae, but sumhow managed to find the wae to the next house. Which was eventuallie, 1 of the gerls whom i hate. She's mok's NYP frenz i think.. But wateva~ I hate her. She's boastful.. I saw lotsa new faces like WAKA WAKA.. hahahaha..!! Lesbo~ Overall, the outing was splendid.. Many pix were taken n yeah, had a hell of a gd tyme..

For werk last wk, it was pretty fine.. I'm doing really well with werk n i'm hepi.. :) I've completed all the Mass Deployments for this wk.. Yay~ As long as i'm remained undisturbed, things will be ok.. Starting slowly to save my losses previously. I juz wan the figure to be 4 figures.. No more 3 digits.. This will be the last tyme i'm gonna use my savings on acc Sophia needs a doctor.. Well, i ride on her too. I noe bf disagree on me doin the bike.. But hey, juz this once k, ayah..?? I love her too u noe.. Kk.. I love u MORE~ :D So that's the plan for this coming Sat - to bring Sophia out for a trip 2 her doctor. She's startin 2 fall sick liao la.. Cannot delay.. 

I had my hair cut yesterday.. I told the stylist to chop off wateva is spoilt at the ends.. She did a pretty great job n my hair is now healthy n shiny~ :) Doesn't look as dead as it was before. Chop off the fringe abit.. Loike loike..!! Even bf likes it.. Did it at Defone salon @ Woodlands Mart.. Coming back next month to dye my hair at a reasonable price of $80.. Ok  wat hor..? :D

That's all for now.. Will update if thr's more..

Signing Off : The Kitty

The Past & The Present.. (I Can't Think Of The Future For Now)...

Lotsa things have been happening lately.. Pretty surprises n also the 'OMG' kinda surprises.. Let's start with 'OMG' shall we..? I was late in my mensus n didn't think much abt it. During the fasting month, thr were some hiccups which i was down with a gastric pain that i neva had before. When i went to the doctor, he kept askin me when was my last period n when should the next one come.. I told him the details and such. As days goes by, i feel a lil uncomfortable n cranky every now n den.. I get hungry easily n i demanded for lotsa things.. HmMmMmMm.. During raya season, i found out i was carryin Smurf..

BF helped me with the research for the clinic he can think off. I was upset for the fact i couldn't keep it.. How to..? i'm not stable enough.. Fast forward - after the appt with the doctor, i decided to keep it for at least a wk before baby has to go.. During the entire wk, i played with it, talked to it, cried with it n even snored with it. Smurf was definitely close to BF coz each n every day, i juz wanna meet him n not wanting to seperate. Eventho i was VERY tired..

During the very last moments, i juz cried my heart out when BF asked me - are you ready for tomorrow..? Truth is - i was NOT..!! I was NOT prepared to let him go~ He was onli 3cm.. He was so0o0o small.. But i could feel how BIG he was inside.. He knew he was luved - alot.. But not much enough to prevent all this from happenin.. He wanted to stae.. But there's nothing we can do.. :'( During the whole procedure, i was aslp.. But then, Smurf gave me a pretty pleasant dream. I love you, Smurf.. Alot.. I juz couldn't stop cryin at nite.. I woke up, with wet face.. OMG.. I was cryin in my slp.

As for work, things are fine now. I've buck with my attendance n definitely - working attitude.

That's all i wanna sae.. My mind is all filled with Smurf.. And BF of coz..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Burried Her Precious Gem Deep In Her Heart.. So So Deep..

Sleepy Wet-Ness-Day

Hi, i'm bored.. N you are..? Yes, i'm seriously bored n slpy since it started raining.. Plus, the internet connection is kinda slow n also, DMD is givin me a hard time.. Reason: Despite the successfull attempts in validating n importing, still, e application mappings came out blank.. 0.0 So, whr did the apps go..? HmMmMm.. Emailed the engineers n asked dem to look into the matter..

Secondly, in the morning, i emailed the boss n clarified with him whether on Raya eve, are we given half dae.. Till now he hasn't replied.. Find it not important..? Up to u.. If i were 2 send my leave requests later den the standard procedures, dun blame me.. But aniwae, heard that he's flyin back home for 2 wks.. So yeah.. I think he's leavin on Raya Eve itself.. Bz callin here n thr to check on his flight.. Still, at least reply the email la.. Wah lao..!

So here i am, glued to my sit, eyes forced opened.. Not talkin to anione n i noe that if i were 2 start talking, i'll need to clear my throat first. If not, it will sound like system rosak, u noe.. Called bf ard noon tyme n was definitely jealous that he was slpin.. =_= I wanna go home n slp la... My eyes are pretty heavy.. But den, when nite comes, nak tido susah.. Alwaes..! At werk, slpy as hell despite got things to do.. At home, as fresh as a daisy.. HmMm.. Typical human being.. Hahahahaha..

Gosh..! It's cold here..! Who the hell decrease the temp when i've already set it to a nice cozy office..? Neither too cold nor too warm.. Grrrr..!!!

K la.. Till den.. Will update if thr's anithing.. Chiao..!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Half Awake.. (=_0)

A Draggy Tuesday For A Start & An Irrinoying Note Frm The Boss

No 1) I skipped pre-dawn despite bf called to wake me up..

No 2) I had a tough tyme gettin off bed..

Tsk..! He was actuallie hoping that i called him, in e end, it turned out the otha wae.. I realli couldn't get my lazy bumz off the bed for both occasionz.. Aiyoyo..!!! Woke up at 7.45am n forced myself to get off the bed.. -____- *Grumpy mode* Head for the shower n kinda took a lil longer time in thr.. Heh.. Wore my 2 in 1 outfit 2dae n suprisingly, i'm using my high heels afta a lo0ong2 tyme.. Heh.. The one with 3 straps n golden bucklez at the sidez.. N yes, terkedek2 jln.. Had a hard tyme balancing at 1zt, but after a while, it seemed to be perfectly alright.. Managed to balance myself in the end.. :) The dae at werk was.. Ok la.. Kinda draggy too.. Like yesterdae also lor.. Irritating arh..

Next, heard that thr are issues on PUB, again.. Jason is getting realli pissed with all this n saed that if we (Rachelle, Fecility n Jason) dun clean this up, he will expect a weekend shift n it's e WHOLE damn dae.. Aper seii..?! Mepek siak..!! He even saed that NO ONE is exempted frm this n all muzt come to clean this entire mess up.. Siak arh.. This tyme round ayah, ibu da takleii buat apape.. If we must come, den no choice... Juz prae the issue will be resolved n our weekend won't be disturbed.. Hopefully.. InsyaAllah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes To Throw Her Heels At The Person Who's Causing This Mess..!

Part 2 Of The Updatez

On Saturdae, was iftar session with the Yishun Mob n part of the Ampang Clan.. More like juz Pak Lang, Mak Lang n Hafiz.. Plus, Uncle Asad n his bakal isteri.. Pretty yaw.. When i reached the place, mak andak was like charging me straight in my face n asked: y neva update me that u got boifren already..?? Tsk~~ Notty ehk rahsia2.. Hahah.. I juz told her ma was my PA wat.. She will be the one updating the whole family juz like how she updated u when i broke of my 5yrs relationship with Raini.. Hor..? N she went, well, i think ur mom told tok, but neva tell me la.. Hahaha.. So ok, i gave the the brief details on how it happened n y it happened.. She exclaimed - ROMANTICNYER KORANG NYER LURVE STORY.. Ok~~ So aniwae, iftar was a bliss as well.. Lotsa laughters filled the air.. When mak andak heard that BF was fetching me, she asked him to come up coz she wanted to see how he looks like. Initiallie, he declined the offer.. After buka, he saed that he was coming up n apologised for his behaviour.. When he came, i introduced him to the rest of the peeps at home.. Granny talked to him like as if she has known him for quite a while.. Wae to go, Grandma.. She sure does made him feel the warmth.. N yes, BF was ultimately shy n when we left, his palms were pretty cold.. Nervous yer, syg..? Heee..

After that, we went to Marsiling Lama to hunt for raya outfit.. He planned on Miss Saigon i think, in which it has already changed to Hoyen for quite a few years already.. So yeah, he found the colour n texture of his choice which costs $78 i think, but thr was nothing for me.. After all, that's the onli store that sells baju melayu. So i decided on Geylang after that.. Pumped the petrol n off we go to Ra Ra Bazaar.. K crappy... I noe.. -___-

So we walked ard TKC n we managed to find something we realli liked.. The thing is, it's too damn pricey.. Haiyah.. Wanted to walk along the bazaar itself, but BF insisted we leave the area coz he hatez the crowds.. So ok... Off we went home.. N he tot i was pissed with him for wanting to leave, but actuallie, it was one of my silent moments.. The moment in which i had nothing to sae..

Sundae was enader peaceful dae for us.. He purchased Star Sports on MIO that has MOTO GP n was definitely glued to it.. So, i prepared break fast by laying out the table.. N when tyme was up 2 break fast, we ate n talked.. About MOTO GP.. Y..? His eyes were still glued to the tv.. But i dun mind.. It's his favourtie.. Once in a while den he get to watch the TV.. Juz let him watch till his heart's content.. N yeah, he watched it till the very end of it.. :)

As the tyme flies, it was tyme to leave.. Can't wait to meet him tonight.. I love u, yah..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Had A Lovely Weekend.. Can't Wait For The Next One..

1st Day Of Puasa = Bad Wednesday

So here's the story..

Today was the beginning of Ramadhan and as Muslims, it's a must for us to fast unless we aren't allowed to and on the otha hand, it's a common practice to fast from everything else.. Such as thinking negative, seeing or looking at things which aren't supposed to be looked at, mind wat u sae n think before u act.. The key factor is to have lots n lots of patience..

Reached work today and was praying real hard, hoping to have a smooth month ahead with no stress n such.. Even if thr was, try 2 kip it 2 a minimal level.. Once i switched on the pc, the gemok man started to bomb me with an email which is - i can sae: kinda stupid though.. Even the lady asked me stupid question.. I mean, it's pretty obvious what each colour means.. I just shoot directly at her n asked her y things are getting more n more confusing..? She saed it was due to agencies coming back to us with missing apps.. Like hello, the missing ones are yellow-coloured apps - which are manual... Initallie, i admit i hated the idea of DMD.. But now everything's fine already.. Y make it worst by implementing more work n confusion..? My task is a 1-Woman show.. I do it my wae, as long as it's all correct..! Y must u keep bugging me..?! True enuff, i jus stormed out of the door n straight to the toilet n called BF.. Along the wae, i started to cry...

Bf told me to relax and he wanted to hear the story.. And so i told him, which in a wae, it almost ended up in a heated argument between the 2 of us.. I kept telling him i wanna go home, n he saed just go.. But the thing is, i'll neva be allowed to go n the problem is, i'm not brave enough to just go.. In a wae, i hate to leave things behind - undone.. So back into the room, i continued with my work in my own world.. I neva talked to anibody n buried myself deeply in my work.. In between, i diverted my attention to FB as my means of short break.. I didn't even go to the toilet to pee after that.. I just stay glued to my seat.. N yes, the fone was silent since the time i called him.. He didn't even msg me how m i n stuffs.. Bz..? Maebe.. Could be...

As of now, i'm done with most for Thursdae.. I can eventuallie start for Friday, but i would like to take it slow.. 1hr n 25mins more to go before i can finally leave this hell hole~

Singing Off : The Kitty Who Not Onli Had A Bad Day But Part Of Her Pahala Has Already Went Down

When Sophia Needs A Doctor - BADLY..!

This happened yesterdae, when we were at the carpark, getting ready to proceed to Dam to meet the team.. BF found it hard to start her, and when she finally starts, the meter needle went up again.. Not a good sign though.. Means that her battery is really weak.. But the thing is, he juz got her battery changed 2 wks ago...!

At dam, when we wanted to proceed to sakura, she juz won't start.. She refuses 2 start.. The bois gave a helping hand n helped to push start.. BF was seriously upset n me, was confused.. Like i saed, it's onli been 2 wks.. Y is this happening..? Even after we had our supper, she needed a push start again..

On Sundae afternoon, BF called his mechanic n was told to leave the bike thr, and can onli collect it on Tuesdae.. Shop close mah.. Definitely, he hates the idea of leaving her behind.. So i just told him to send to Tommy's.. He was indecisive, but i pestered him to send her thr since she needed a doctor - BADLY.. If she's sick, so is the medic/bf/hubby.. N when he's sick, wat can e data analyst/gf/wife do..? All she can do was to make things rite.. By investing into something for a good cause.. That is to send her to the doctor n get her fixed.. Thr, we were both waiting anxiously, hoping it's jus the battery, and not some other things linked to it.. After a long wait, true enuff it was jus the battery.. They changed the battery n was charged $65 for it..

We den head down to McDonald's at Woodland Mart n had our dinner thr... At the carpark before heading home, we laughed alot.. BF la, buat lawak..! Hehehe....

Now that Sophia is fine, so is the medic.. N now that they're both fine, i can heave a sigh of relief a wake to a brand new day tomorrow.. :) Good night Sophia.. Rest well.. Maebe u're gonna get a bath later today... See u so0n..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Contented With Today.. :)

Thirst-Day

And so, my thursdae started off pretty rushy... Set the alarm at 6.45am, but i swear i didn't heard the buzzer went off.. An hour after that, BF called me thrice, den i heard the phone rang... The 1zt tot was - y is the sound so soft..? When i saw the tyme, i was like - Holy Canope..!!! Please dun tell me he has already gotten ready...! Answered the call n was about to apologize, onli to hear that he was e one whom apologised to me... Reason: He lowered down the volume of my hp, n forgot to set it back to its original volume... -___- No wonder la..~ Off the bed n straight to the shower.. Texted Rachelle n saed that i'll be late coz i overslept..

Met him at 8.30am n went for breakfast at KFC.. Had the usual - Plain porridge (no spring onions n fried shallots).. Talked as we had breakfast.. N the bf was supposed to report to HQ at 10.30am, but he texted his OM, askin if it was ok if he neva turn up.. Replied was that he has to go to Clementi/Tamp to cover as 2nd Medic.. He asked me if it was ok for him to go home first n change his footwear.. I agreed.. Upon reachin, he asked again if i could spare him some time.. I was like - huh..? Wat else do u wanna do..? He gave me that evil grin n i noe he was up to no good.. He called the one of his colleagues stationed at Tamp i think, n asked her to pakat with him.. Asking her to sign in n out on his behalf.. Pfft..!

Reached the office at ard 10.45am, somewhr thr.. Quickly switched on the computer n get down to business.. Lunch was at pepper lunch n i scalded my right arm, thanks to the hotplate.. -___-'' After which we went to the display area whr there was John Little's sale.. I was lookin for a purple polo for the bf that matches with my purple top dress.. Found some, but i dun dare to buy it, in case he doesn't like it.. So might as well go with him lor..

Back in the office, work was easy breezy.. In my own world, doin my own thing.. At e same time joked n laughed with Joanne.. She left at 5.20pm, since the boss n the man who is a pain in his ass aka best friend was not around.. A few minutes before my time was up, the stupid lady forwarded me an email regarding an issue in which she can check for herself.. Like wat e hell siak..? Stop with the last minute can, u A-Hole..?!

Purchased 2 aparrels from bf's cuzzin n has since decided to come over to her place to  collect n make paement.. I wanted a dress n a printed animal top.. But sad, the S size was too big for me.. Instead, i got a black top as a replacement.. She deals with F21 aparrels.. Chilled out at her place for awhile.. The baby's cute, though.. Geram jek..!!

We head back home at atd 8 i think, n had dinner.. The dish was my all time favourite.. Heh~ During dinner, bf refreshed my memory bout the conflict he had with his cuzzin.. K, so now i noe who's she, the hubby is bf's friend etc.. After that, he spent his tyme with my hp, while i spent mine with psp, den shower, den psp again and den project... Heheh.. N we managed to book a pair of tix to SALT tomorrow at Iluma.. Show time starts at 8.10pm... :) I'm so sexcited yaw..!!! Can't wait for the date...!!!!

Alright.. That's all for now.. As of now, i have a thirst for something which i need to quench... Hehehehe.. Sayonara~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Excited

My Cold Wet-Ness-Day

After i left the shower in the morning, i noticed the skiez doesn't lo0k so g0od.. True enuff, it was cloudy.. Pretty dark out thr.. How lovely if i could just slp the dae awae.. But na-ah.. I've changed my mindset.. I'm gonna kip up with work before it kips up with me.. N yeah, i can see now i'm pretty good with the apps.. No more complaints on my side.. InsyaAllah, all this will go sm0othly each n every day.. :) Btw, Joanne didn't turn up for work today as she called in sick.. Left home, the rain's pretty heavy.. Thank go0dness there's shelter all the wae to the bustop.. At least i dun hafta carry my ella with me.. The onli part that was wet was basically my feet n part of the dress..

When i reached the office, was told by Jason that IDA are coming.. Doing a security check n we'll hafta tidy up the place.. So, it's just me n Rachelle who does the cleaning since Dawn is awae in the warehouse.. The shitty part was, i planned to leave for lunch at 12.30pm.... But that damn blardy asshole decided to hold an abrupt meeting at that tyme..! Wat e hell..?! Despite it doesn't really concerns me since he wazn't putting his attention towards me, but den, wanna leave the place just like dat oso not nice mah.. Dawn n i were practically grumbling to each otha thru the communicator.. At 1pm, i juz pte chat with Rachelle n told her that i'm leaving for lunch no matter wat.. I haf gastritis, mind u..!

Lunch wat at Blk 92 thr, where i had marinara.. Yessa..! The indulgence to a plate of pasta with extra scallop... Ouh yeah~ While waiting, Dawn played with my hp n i just sit n looked at her.. Kinda funny when she gets so0o stressed up into finding the difference.. Hahahahah.. She sure enjoied herself with the game.. She browsed thru all the apps n such.. Can tell she realli loves my fone - ALOT.. Heee..

Back in the office, werk was as per normal.. Did all that was this wk n haf since started for next Tuesdae.. The go0d news is, my worst nightmare is ova... Did the PUB together with Rachelle.. Yay~ Kinda spent the dae takin my own swit tyme gettin the apps done.... :)

A few more mins n i'm off to meet my one n onli hunnie bunnie bear bacen.. Macam2 namer btol aku kasi dier ehk..? Yg penting, he's the HUBBY.. Nyeh~ Luv u, yah.. Can't wait 2 meet u.... Uwee~~

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Contented With Her Work

What's Hot & What's Not

Ola.. Let's backtrack wae down to last Thursdae.. HmMmMm.. Initiallie, the plan was to stae at werk late n finish all the assignments given, till bf popped the idea of bringing helmet in which he could've fetched me from werk, after he finished his.. He was stationed at Central that dae.. So after a long tot, hmm... Y not i go home n get my helmet then..? He disagreed once on this issue, but i told him that i wanna go shopping.. Maebe shop for some clothez for Sat.. :) In between, there was a so0n-2-be major fight when i was at home n in the cab, but i managed to tone it down back n met him at Central Fire Station... Head down to Wheelock whr he parked his bike n we walked down to Far East Plaza.. We went from shops to shops n still we couldn't find wat we want.. Even if thr was, it's basically solo, not couple wear.. -___- In the end, we bought the Mr Men & Lil Miss tops at the basement which costed him $23 total... His was Mr Grumpy.. Mine was supposed to be Lil Miss Stubborn, but i already have it.. There was no Lil Miss Attitude coz it doesn't exist.. So he got me Lil Miss Naughty.. Heh~We had a focused dinner at KFC.. Both of us were pretty starved by den.. & it was already like 9.30pm or 9.45pm.. After dinner, we walked back to the bike n head home..

Fridae was a dae full of things to do.. BF went for the interview which turned out that it was not realli wat he wanted.. The pae was pretty low.. After that, went to his bike shop near Queenswae Shopping Centre to settle his installment, insurance n road tax.. Next was to Everbright to change his spocket n chain... He's realli hepi with the new one n when he brakes, it makes a c0ol noize.. Heh.. Lunch was at e canteen.. After that, head down to Motor World whr there was enader disappointment - there were no tank bags for him. Aww.. We got ourselves the head cover n visor cleaner.. Ouh..!! I saw the Venecia full faced helmet in pink!! Trade in with my old Hyper Blade n all i need to do is to top up $100..!! Then, went to Kedai Anak Aunty n got ourselves new stickerz n new helmets from Regina.. :) After that, head home, put the tings n left for Woodlands lamer.. Thr, i bought myself the a jacket.. Finally, i own a bike's jacket..

 At night was very explosive... I was pretty upset that he forgotten abt me.. So, i buried myself deep in my games coz that was e onli 'fren' i had.. Apparently, he did noticed my face n asked me wat was wrong.. I jus saed 'nothing'.. I dun wan talk abt it.. On the bike, he rode like nobody's bisness.. N i jus shouted at him that i will jump.. Like seriously, i WILL jump.. Watever happenz, happenz arh.. He stopped by the bus stop n asked me wat was wrong.. I juz shouted at him in the moment of anger.. After in which he saed he gave up, i juz took a cab home, leaving him behind.. I looked back, n slowly seeing him gettin smaller n smaller frm my sight..

Back under my blk, when we met again, he wanted to return back his ring.. After so many failed attempts, i took it n placed it back onto his finger. That's whr it belonged.. It has his name on it.. It has already been sealed.. Nothing's n no one's gonna take that place.. I love him alot, i really do... I'm sucha Self-Centered-Attitude-Demanding-Annoying-Attention-Seeking lady.. Pfft..!

Saturdae, went to do my hair.. It costs $110 + $18 for the hair cream.. Cheap... :) It took ard 2 hours to finally get it done.. After which, head down to Woodlands Mart & bf got his hair cut.. Another dae of disappointment.. The hairdresser kinda like anyhow cut his hair, n he left the shop with a black face.. Tsk! Had lunch there.. I had mee hoon goreng no veggie add big2 meat, while he had a mixture of mee goreng+kwae teow, both mata lembu.. I ordered chicken wings as sides.. :) Back at home, we get down to business n do up the helmets.. It was more like he did the waxing n cleaning, which took 30mins per helmet.. Heheheh.. I proceeded with painting my nailz orange in colour.. Yes, he lovez the colour.. He lovez the hair.. He lovez everything arh.. Hehehehe...

At night, went to Nabins n had our shisha session.. The sugee is nice!!!!! Cocoa powder n almonds.. Oh lazatnyer..!!!! Den head down to Marina Barrage n chill out for a while before we decided to seperate with the rest.. They're planning to chill out at Yishun Dam.. Bf saw me realli sleepy, so he decided to go home.. So sweet of him.. Summore, it was already like 3am.. (-_-)zz

Sundae was filled up with the continue of cleaning the helmets n pasting of stickers.. :) It was indeed, a peaceful Sundae for the both of us..

I Love You, Yah... Muakz~!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes Her Week Will Be As Peaceful As Sunday.. :)

~Why Oh Why~

Weekend was a blast despite the fact part of the Saturdae was a total disaster.. Still, as alwaez, he managed to make me realize again and again how in luv he was with me.. Went to the cage at Kallang whr Team Qirana had a frenly match with Team Havana.. BF left the cage with scars on his face.. Aiyo.. Wat e hell..! But still, u're lo0kin as hot as eva, honey.. :) Supper was at KTM which epul did most of the talkin.. Frankly, i was already half aslp.. Thank gawd waty poked me.. Heh~ Back at home, while chillin n talkin 2 him, his brudder stepped in n told uz that he was involved in an accident.. Wounds lo0ked pretty bad... Had to force BF to take a look at e wounds.. -___- & i have a habit for feelin tingly n painful all ova when seein otha ppl's wounds n blo0d.. Still, i wanna see... Crappy rite..? 0_0


On Sunday, BF dropped the bomb to me n saed that he wanna get engage with me.. Wow.. I was left speechless lor.. N blushing at e same tyme... We did the calculations n i came up with a final ans that if he starts to save $500 as of next month (Aug 2010), by Oct 2014, he'll have $25,000 in hiz savingz acc already.. N he finds the month real nice.. It's in btwn the both of us.. I'm Sept & he's Nov.. :)


So on Monday.. Yes..! I was pretty lazy to get my stinkin ass off the bed n into the freakin shower n get ready to go to work.. After much tossin n turnin, i get up n got the ball rolling.. The day was fine.. Things went super well.. Even at werk.. No problemz were raised.. If so, it'z basically juz minor2 onez.. The dae ended, perfectly fine..


Today was kinda sucky.. 1st was about the clothez.. I dun realli noe how to eplain in details arh.. All i can sae was that i'm upset... I came to a point in which i'll throw all those tight-fitting, body-hugging, short skirtz, leggingz awae.. I dun find the purpose into keepin dem already.. So so0n enuff, i'll be back 2 being me again, back in 2005... Whr it's alwaez jeanz n t-shirt... Even if i need to wear office wear, i'll wear those long not-too-tight office pants n long-sleeved office top.. As for work, meeting went well n we came to an agreement between StagingDA & SCCM.. I explained to dem the difficulty on my side, while dey explained theirs.. Back in the office, nearin towards the end of the dae, thingz got pretty rough.. I find myself not in the mo0d for anything since i received an email regarding missing applications.. N truth is, i didn't even do it.. But den, wateva concerns app mapping, i'll b the first in line to get sho0t at by the boss.. Haizz...


Back at home, i didn't noe wat my mind was thinking.. All i azked myself was - wat e hell is wrong with u..? How could u possibly asked for a 4-days off from meetin e man whom u reali luv..? Dun u pity him..? Oh, u self-centered bytch..! But then, he has already agreed to it.. He's givin me all the space he could give even it's for sure it's beyond his meanz.. All i did was cried the moment i got into the room n hugged my bear.. I have no idea wat state i am in now.. All i could think of was to curl up n buried my face in my pillows..


True: I'll miss his hugs..
True: I'll miss his touch..
True: I'll miss his laughter..
True: I'll miss his eyes..
True: I'll miss his kisses..


True enough, I'll miss each & every single detail there is to it abt him..


Signin Off : The Kitty Who Is Dazed & Confuzed

All About My Toooos-Day

Morning started off pretty well.. Instead of waking up at 7.45am (after which BF would msg me, to notify me that he has reached his werkplace), i woke up 5 minz earlier.. Eh, eventho it's onli 5 freakin mins, 5 mins u can dream of something k..?! Heh~ But too bad.. I wasn't dreamin of anything.. :( So, off to the shower n got ready for werk... As usual, would call bf before n upon leaving the house..

Along the wae, an argument broke out.. Not realli argumentative la.. I mean, i was upset with the remarks he gave me.. But den again, that's the truth lor.. Still, which child can accept the fact that someone is talkin bad about her family..? Haiyah... So after we hung up, i juz texted him how i felt at that point.. I juz told him stuffs like if he findz it realli hard to adapt to my family's situation, he can jolly well give up.. Which in a wae, he saed that he won't.. Also, another thing that upsets me more was when he texted me n told me that i dun hafta meet him 2nite.. Wat e heck..?! I noe maebe on acc we, or maebe me who was peeved with him, n perhaps distance would be the best solution.. But den, i wanna meet him.. So, i was already fuming mad n texted him angrily.. I remembered he once told me that the relationship is put on a test - in which if a fight/argument/misunderstanding or watsova occur, we are limited to meet onli 1ce a wk.. So i told him that i'd rather sacrifice these few daez juz 2 spend the saturdae with him.. I was realli pissed off lor..! In the end, he sticked to the plan of the meet-up tonite..

Lunch was at Subwae with Joanne n Dawn.. We talked wateva we can talked about n after that, we went to look ard.. I saw a few clothingz at the interchange in which i planned to buy after i get my pay.. No worries, ayah.. They're cheap stuffs.. But pretty..!! Costs ard $12-$15 as stated on the display sign.. Betta rite..? N also, can we go to far east one of the weekends or weekdaez when u're not werkin..? I wanna take a look at the shoes in the shop called Trendyzone... Joanne saed that there rite, the shoes are always on sale!! It's selling off at $9.90... Can ayah..? Pur-lease!!! Heh~

As for the rest of the dae, thingz went pretty smooth.. Done with all the mapping scheduled for thursdae.. Wanted to do for Fridae, but see how arh.. Tired of rushing la.. :)

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Feels Like Her Head Is Juz Gonna Explode Each Tyme She Coughz!

== A Draggy Monday ==

Before i get into details regarding my draggy mondae, let's flash back to Sat & Sun.. HmMmMm.. Whr do i start..? Ok.. Met bf at 11.30am n head down to Civic Centre to collect my photocard liscense from the post office.. The mail man came personally to my home on Fridae, but no one was at home.. So yeah...!! The main card i've been waiting for..!!! Yeeha..! After that, we head down to Kallang KFC & had our lunch.. I couldn't finish up wat i ordered.. Maebe becoz of the wind in my tummy... Heh~ We chatted over lunch n had a great laugh.. We talked about kids nowadaes who are juz not disciplined enuff despite the fact they're old enuff to think wat's Yes & No.. Sheesh..! After that, we proceed with wat was planned for that dae.. :) Had a helluva great tyme with him, eventho somewhr in btwn, thingz got a lil bit frustratin for him.. Sorri ayah... Heh~

On Sundae, everything went smo0thly till e moment we reached his place.. Silent treatment was given n in the evening, a huge fight almost broke out.. Truth is, i was prepared for the fight.. But den again, i'm not prepared to face how it'll be like if he really blowz his top.. God forbid..! The fight started after he kept on sighing n sighing.. N yes, i was frustrated as on y does he kept sighing..? It's realli annoying, though.. We talked things out at nite n things got betta.. Den again, the relationship has now been put on a test.. As 2 whenever we have a fight, we're onli allowed to meet each otha juz 1 tyme..

Back to Mondae.. HmMmMm.. Reached the office n i started doin the app mappings for tmrw without further delay.. Normally, i'll speed my wae thru so that i can start on Wed's as scheduled.. But todae, it seems like i'm in my comfort zone.. I still do my werk, but more like in my own speed.. Hahahah.. Speakin of still-in-my-wkend-mode... Lol~ I managed to complete Tuesday's & Wednesday's mapping.. Yay~ Eventhough thr was alot of agencies, i can still slot tyme for FB.. Wat e heck.. Normally, i dun even have the tyme to even reply in a short moment after someone commented something.. On  the otha hand, perhaps i managed to complete was due for the fact that remedy was slow, so Joanne couldn't schedule all 40-50 users.. She onli managed to schedule 16.. Heh~ Lucky me.. Initiallie the plan was to stae till like 7.45pm, before knockin off & meeting bf on the spot.. Now it's comin to 6.45 n i'm done with everything.. Should i stae n do the pull sheets for wed's, or should i juz pack up n leave...? HmMmMm... I dunnoe.. See how arh..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is In Her Confused Mode 0_o

Finally... :D

Finally, the week has passed n JAIHO..!! Saturdae'z here..!!! Yessaa..!! Gd morning, Saturdae..!! I welcome u with open armz yaw~ Hehehe.. Still, to wait for this very dae to come, lotsa thingz i went thru.. Top of the chart waz my sickness.. Haiyah~ Started with a cough on mondae.. Tot it was minor.. U noe, those kinda cough that comez when u laugh too hard.. Onli to find out that it was the beginning of a very bad sore throat n possibility - fever...! Kabam...!! When nite fallz, body heatz up.. Not externally, but internally.. My eyez were like on fire, i tell u.. N when i rolled dem from left to right, adoi..!! The muscle was being pulled sia.. Pain u noe..!! :( Had to take an mc the very next dae..

Back to werk on weds n continued doin my tasks.. Minded my own bisnes as per normal.. Hardly talked to anibody coz i juz dun feel like talkin.. Wanted to go lunch at e Makcik's place beside Esso, but it turned out to be somewhr else.. Yes la, i was pissed la kan.. But den, haiya~ Wateva la.. As long as my tummy's filled up, i'm fine.. On the otha hand, was pissed again coz i already saed i might walk a lil slow due to my shortness of breath, but it turned out i had to walk extra fast to catch up.. -.- Thank go0dness BF was thr to accompany me on the fone.. That distracted me from the fact that i was eventuallie - OUT OF BREATH..! After werk, met ma at Fork n Spoon n we had our dinner thr.. Nani, saket2 pon, lamb chop tak lepas ehk.. Heheheh.. Met BF at nite n thingz didn't went pretty well.. I was to0 sick to devote all my attention to him.. Sorrie baby.. :(

As for Thurs, another fucttup thing.. Staging boi came up to me n saed that App Mapping is becomin tremendously ridiculous.. Saein stuffs like it'z realli causin dem lotsa pressure n stress.. Keje maner tak stress, boi..? Da agency request tuh macam.. Kau nak aku buat aper..? Per saje jek.. Lao taknak stress gi dudok umah arh.. Abez crite~ Pfft..!

Den fridae (yesterdae), the flu n cough got real bad.. Enader doctor's visit.. BF was with me.. He's on mc to0.. Reason : Back pain... Hehehehe.. After that, we had our brunch at the kopitiam upstairs.. Both of us had Nasi Lemak.. As for BF, his was extra rice.. We ordered milo peng n teh peng.. Mak ai!! Peh tawar.. yelgh..!! N yes, after brunch, i he reminded me in his stern voice - Da makan obat lom...? Heh!

And so, evenin was as planned.. Followed him to the bbq pit organized by his station colleaguez.. When we reached, it was onli Kak Herda, her hubby, Zaki n Aleesya.. They juz started unpackin.. Nothin was ready yet.. Sat down a while to catch my breath before proceedin into helpin dem... I head up towards Aleesya n helped her peel the corns while she cut dem into half.. Once done, we buttered in n wrap it in the aluminium foilz.. :) The first batch of bbq-ing was done by me n BF.. He did the fanning.. :) We ate n laughed alot.. It was a warming nite in which i really enjoied myself despite the fact i am still not feeling well.. Thanx alot everyone.. :))

Reached home n get down to business.. Pack up some stuffz 1zt so that later in e dae, i won't rush.. I added some to-do thingz in e list which was to head down to the post office at civic to collect my photocard liscense (yay..!!) n also to OCBC to withdraw the cash needed for the dae.. OMG..!! I'm freakin excited rite now.. Can't wait can't wait can't wait..!!!

Signin off : The Kitty Who Is Mad Excited..!!!

Combined Updatez

First n foremost, again, my condolences to Jufri aka Jup n his family, on the death of his beloved daddy.. Mae Allah bestow Jannah upon his soul.. Amin~

So on sat, was suppozed to follow bf to the bike shop get his pipe done (again), but he told me not to coz i was tired.. On fridae (in e wee hours of saturdae mornin), thr was a lil fight in which i didn't expect it to drag till mornin when the sun was up.. Truth is, i couldn't slp maebe bcoz i was guilty dat he doesn't wan me 2 follow on account i was tired.. Well, saper tak penat..? But it's the weekend seii.. Called him at ard 8+am n was told he juz had his shower.. He told me that he planned to leave the house ard 9.. Waited n waited, still no news.. Fell aslp for a few moment before i decided to text him.. He told me that the tymin haz changed n he'z leaving tat 10.40 instead.. Asal tak update ehk..? 0_o

At the bike shop, he doesn't text me much.. So here i was, at home, reading the book which he bought for me at esso near my werkplace.. :) Good book.. Read n read till i forgot the tyme... Quickly got up n had my bath.. Once done, received a text msg from him statin dat he's alreadi on e wae back home.. When he reached home, i juz finished putting on my outfit.. He told me dat he wanted to go to sembawang i think, to get some bike stuffs.. He planned to wash hiz bike with Aan.. He azked if i wanted to follow, which apparently, i declined the offer coz i haven't had my nailz done.. Next, he texted me again to notify that Jup's daddy has passed awae.. Plan was cancelled n they'll be heading down to Jup's place at nite.. I was jokingly askin him, if i could juz stae at home.. N kebam! The war startz again.. Haiz.. Long story.. To cut it short, when we meet up the very evening after he washed hiz bike, thingz are back 2 normal.. :) Luv u, yah~

When nite fallz, we head down to Jup'z place.. In my mindset was, k la.. Jup'z place.. As in umah dier sendiri.. So i came with short sleeve n no selendang at all... Skali sampai, SAPP!! It was hiz parent's blk.. Alamak!! Tak kene gaya beb~ Kuku itam, rambot perang, baju sumwat jarang.. MasyaAllah.. Wateva it iz, i juz had to tebalkan muker arh.. But den again, many ppl tot i was Chinese.. N since i spoke to bf in English, that gave them more assurance that i was Chinese.. Until, when it was the tyme 2 recite the prayers, they have their doubts... Hahahaha~ Tummy was rumbling like hell, i tell u.. When tyme was up, we planned to have supper.. Head down to Jalan Kayu, kesian kitorang tau.. Anak2 terbiar.. Nobody came up 2 serve uz.. Wat e heck!! So after much thiking, we went to Sakura @ Buangkok.. I had Mee Tom Yum Soup.. Power sia! Reached home at ard 2, fell aslp at ard 3 or 3.30am.. Set the alarm at 6.30am, but i overshot n woke up at 7.30am.. Panic jab aku.. Showered n pack the stuffz + make bf hiz tea while he go n shower.. Supposed to be at the place by 9.30am.. We left home juz nice to heat up the bike, meet Aan at hiz blk in which if we dun waste tyme, we can reach at 9.30am.. Skali Aan overslept daa.. Raini pon samer.. Hahahah..

Instead, we reached at ard 10am i think.. Waty n Elynn was thr.. Sit with them n talked wateva we Girls can talk abt.. Wat Elynn wore was, Mak Kau!!! Tak terfikir ke yg kau nih ngah melawat?? Haizz.. Dunnoe la ha.. The boiz escorted the coffin to the cemetery.. Wanted to follow bf, but waty offered to take a ride in her daddy in law's van.. So, ok lor... Dapat air cond.. Heheheh... In the van, i talked to Elynn, juz to distract her from the fact that she has the phobia of goin to the cemetery.. :) When everything was done, i reunited back with bf.. Yay~ Visited Aan's grandma n dad's grave along e wae.. Wanted to visit arwah tok man n pak long nyer jugak.. But i dunnoe whr la.. N i came unprepared.. So, next tyme.. So all i did was to sedekahkan Al-Fateha to each n every jasad lying in thr~Back at the place, we ate kari ayam with french loaf.. I helped myself to 3-4 servingz of the kari n as for the bread, quite a no of slices.. Hehehe.. After eating, was told to change into our uniform coz we're going to a wedding.. Sepatotnyer escort, but tak jadik..

We went to 2 Weddings... 1zt wedding place, i helped myself to lotsa brownies.. hehehehe... Bf luv em too... Sedap u noe~ Taklei angz~
2nd one, aiyo~ Bf was pissed with Ayie.. Kecoh2.. Tsk~
After that, we went bowling.. Uwee~~~ 1zt game, i performed pretty well.. Aan was impressed.. 2nd game, performance dropped real bad.. I sprained my thumb.. Adoi!!!

Fast forward.. Here i am, feelin pretty sick.. Bad sore throat.. Coughing like mad.. Bf is already fast aslp.. But here i am, still wide awake & it's already 3.30am.. I'm on medication, but i dun feel slpy~ Wat e hell seii.. Haizz.. Ayah, i noe u're gonna b pissed off with me for slpin late n sure u have questions like, asal tak tido? asal taklei tido? The ans to those questions is - I tak tau.. That's all.. Blergh~

Niwae, am so0o lookin forward to our 2nd honeymo0n prd this sat.. Planz have been laid out as early as last wk.. Hehehe.. Now is Thursdae.. 2 more daez to go..!! Yabe dabe do0o0o0o~~!!!

Oh n btw, i hate bf's schedule for this week.. It sux! Yucks!

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Wanz To Sleep, But Cannot Sleep.. -.-''

:: The Past, Sumthing In Between & What's New ::

A lot of thingz has been happenin in our livez lately.. The good, the bad  the ugly.. U name it.. We got it.. Be it at werk, at home or in between uz..

Let's start with me ferst..

Previously, things at werk were atrocious, i tell u.. It juz felt like breakin down n cry in front of e whole wide werld.. I was pretty much pushed too hard n also was tryin my very best to make things better.. Stayed back late every nw n den juz to finish up the tasks as much as i could.. There was once, the beginning, i had 2 stae till like 8.15pm juz to complete the tasks.. OMG~ BF was pretty pissed n upset with that.. But thank God he had an extra helmet with him at werk.. So he told me to wait for him.. While waiting, i was practically chillin n sumwhat enjoin the 'nitelife' in a office on a FRIDAE.. Hahahaha.. When BF arrived, he looked super HOT in his FULL uniform.. *Singin* Oh My Gosh~~~~ Ok fine.. Mengakal moment... *slurp*

After that, we head down to Teh Tarik for dinner.. We had a luvly chat during dinner.. Den he received a msg frm Hus n he stated that on dat very nite, thr was a jamming session.. Enader last minute thing... Told him 2 pass the session, but Hus juz kept pleadin him 2 come with the reason the vocal is comin ova.. So ok lor.. Went home right after that, showered, n met him back... To tell u the truth, the vocalist is nowhr near FAME..

Regarding him plak, is basically abt his mom nagging at him 2 get a part tyme job.. Y laze ard at home without any benefits bla bla bla... That's all i noe la kan.. :)

Next, abt us.. Things got pretty much outta hand lately.. There were lotsa fights between us despite we were already ok.. Within a few minutes or perhapz the next dae, we'll start 2 fight again.. Stuffs about gettin a car, abt me, abt him, anything la.. But yesterdae was the werst in our fights list.. Blame me n my foul mouth n PMS.. Haiyah~ I didn't mean to blurt it out coz 2 me, he's not dat kinda person.. He'z juz someone who demands attention whenever he can get any.. And dat onli happenz when he's with me.. Like physically.. So yeah.. He saed somethin hurtftul to me the night before n i made it sound twice as hurtful.. Sometymes i wonder if 'twice' is even the correct calculation.. Could be more den dat.. N yes, i shot him straight in his head, wishing that i could juz point the tip of the gun at my head n juz pull the trigger...But that's equivalent to givin up. I fought for his love so bad. I won't wanna risk everything by givin up..

So we talked the nite awae.. Tryin meanz n waez to settle everything, but it turned out that i'm creatin more problemz in between.. I juz feel like runnin up 2 him n hug him as tight as i could.. Haiz.. I gave him mindless terms n conditions which was in a wae extremely difficult to even sae it out.. But it was saed out aniwae.. Heart was heavy.. It hurts like hell.... I've hurt the man i luved s0o dearly.. This tyme round, it will leave a permanent scar on him.. What haf i done...??? I'm sucha BYTCH....!!!

N yesterdae was fine.. I guess... Met him at his carpark as per normal n had dinner with him.. I talked to him during dinner n shared with him details he nids to noe.. Den along the wae, thru the end, somethin happened.. He was not his oldself.. I could it.. I tried to be nice to him.. But it didn't work out. He was still distant towards me.. But den again, all i could do is juz face up 2 him n smile, assuring myself things are going to be juz fine..

At nite, we chatted on e fone awhile before he started to sing.. I was serenaded by hiz tone n juz remain quiet.. He sang n sang n i wished we could've hung up earlier or maebe i could juz crack my brainz n opened a dumb topic.. He asked me a question which realli hurts me alot.. I tried to avoid it, but comin to e end of the conversation, i juz told him i respected his decisions.. Thinking that he already saed 'gdbye', i juz hung up the fone.. He called me back n saed that i hung up on him again... Wat e heck~ Enader misunderstanding.. He wanted to talk abt it the very nite, but i was too slpy already.. My head was already thumpin like mad it could juz explode.. 

Woke up the very next day n noticed that his msgs were not sincere.. It felt like as if he was forced to msg me.. So i juz texted him that if his not willing to send any msgs, dun bother.. N kabo0m..! The fight continued.. Haishh... We were arguing all the wae from the moment i left home till e very moment i reached the office.. Due to e headache i had, i took a cab..

I juz told him wat was really happenin n wat i'm realli facing. I told him i was apologetic n juz wanz thingz to b the wae it was... I wan the old him back.. I HATE the new him.. I totally DESPISE that person... So i told him that unless i get the old raffi back n m realli assure i got him back, things will definitely b ok.. But den again, onli tyme will tell..

We've been fighting alot lately & it's extremely sucky.. Both of uz juz wan the honeymoon period back.. Coz i can c that e period has sumwhat ended.. I'm tryin my very bezt 2 get that period back.. All i wan is the man whom i used to chase 4 mnths ago like hell - juz to get his freakin attention..

I luv u, ayah.. Alot... More than u can eva imagine.. Despite there are moments i might not show how much u mean 2 me, but truth is, i'm willing to take e bullet for u..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wanz The Man Whom She Used To Chase 4 Months Ago