Lotsa things have been happening lately.. Pretty surprises n also the 'OMG' kinda surprises.. Let's start with 'OMG' shall we..? I was late in my mensus n didn't think much abt it. During the fasting month, thr were some hiccups which i was down with a gastric pain that i neva had before. When i went to the doctor, he kept askin me when was my last period n when should the next one come.. I told him the details and such. As days goes by, i feel a lil uncomfortable n cranky every now n den.. I get hungry easily n i demanded for lotsa things.. HmMmMmMm.. During raya season, i found out i was carryin Smurf..
BF helped me with the research for the clinic he can think off. I was upset for the fact i couldn't keep it.. How to..? i'm not stable enough.. Fast forward - after the appt with the doctor, i decided to keep it for at least a wk before baby has to go.. During the entire wk, i played with it, talked to it, cried with it n even snored with it. Smurf was definitely close to BF coz each n every day, i juz wanna meet him n not wanting to seperate. Eventho i was VERY tired..
During the very last moments, i juz cried my heart out when BF asked me - are you ready for tomorrow..? Truth is - i was NOT..!! I was NOT prepared to let him go~ He was onli 3cm.. He was so0o0o small.. But i could feel how BIG he was inside.. He knew he was luved - alot.. But not much enough to prevent all this from happenin.. He wanted to stae.. But there's nothing we can do.. :'( During the whole procedure, i was aslp.. But then, Smurf gave me a pretty pleasant dream. I love you, Smurf.. Alot.. I juz couldn't stop cryin at nite.. I woke up, with wet face.. OMG.. I was cryin in my slp.
As for work, things are fine now. I've buck with my attendance n definitely - working attitude.
That's all i wanna sae.. My mind is all filled with Smurf.. And BF of coz..
Signing Off : The Kitty Who Has Burried Her Precious Gem Deep In Her Heart.. So So Deep..






