:: Jai Ho ::

Ouhkae.. Fine.. Tau la it's been a while since i last blogged in.. Hehehehe... So aniwae, here's the latest update on me, as well as the MAN himself.. =)

11 June was the happiest dae of his life - he passed his TP with 12 points.. 1 tyme, k? Despite the last min practicalz..!! He passed~ Yay.... N so, all hopez were pinned on me afta dat....

Mine waz 22 June, which was yesterdae.. Before the TP, in the morning, a massive issue occured at home..! Wat e heck....! Left home without gettin a gd luck hug frm ma n ayah.. Onli kakak gave me.. Still, i was in e wrong.. I can't expect any verbal contactz frm dem, let alone - physical.. So yeah.. BF was thr to encourage me all e wae... I got car no 85 - juz wat i wanted.. That waz my 3rd tyme takin TP.. During the real test, i got a nice TP man.. He guided me along e wae juz like an instructor.. Heheheheh.. Or maebe on account, i've been takin it 4 3x.. So perhapz, he juz wan me out of that skool.. =p I passed! With 6 pts! Yay!!!!!

At night, showed dad the result n he gave me a hug.. Hehehe.. Mom came back n saw e result, another hug.. Yay~ Ma saed dat when she comes back from her holidae at mersing, she wanz to rent a car... HmMmMm... Ouhkae lor..

Next, planning with BF to rent a car.. I wanna drive as much as he doez. Heheheh. Thinkin of gettin either a Honda Fit or Civic or City.. C la which one is affordable.. Renting frm fridae - mondae.. Hope we can realli get a car under P-Plate... *Prae hard2*

Signin Off : The Kitty Who Can Now Drive - LEGALLY.. Hell Yeah~!

That msg goes out to u too, ayah.... Hehehehe...

What's On My Mind Right Now

What's on my mind right now..? Basically it's my job.. Wat e hell is going on...? Initiallie, u need ppl.. N nw thr's a major change - with reasonz saein that thr are too many DAs ard & also, some or ONE of uz might need to leave.. Wat e hell seii..? This is totally bullshit arh! Seriouzly speakin..

I juz feel like curling up into ball n cry my heart out siak! I'm sick & tired with all this nonsense.. This is ridiculous arh..!! I practically haf no mo0d to do anithin rite now.. I juz wanna shut myself off from e world!

& ayah, u can go ahead with e meeting dat u're gonna haf 2mrw.. I can juz prolly sit at home n rot myself.. Coz suddenly, i feel like i'm useless already - since i'm on e line of havin e need to leave the companie..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes She Can Juz Pull The Trigger & Shoot Herself In The Head..!

Randomness

Stayed at home e whole dae.. Whr elze can i go...? I'm  not feelin well.. BF wantz me 2 stae home, so i'll do juz dat.. Inititallie, tot of askin ma to get me a can of Campbell's Cream Of Mushroom, tapi tak jadik arh.. I dun wanna bother her...

Spent the moment continued watchin The Frog Princess on Mio while i folded the clothes.. Before that, i made my bed despite e pain in my head.. I can't stand the sight of mess la & put the old newspapers in e kitchen.. Shortly after i'm done with the clothez n was halfwae puttin dem into e ro0mz, BF texted me to call him.. Talked with him on e fone while watchin TRACE.. Yez, my voice was like a robot that needed oil siak.. Sheesh! -.- BF was havin fun disturbin me.. Mimickin the tone of my voice.. Hahaha.. Cute la he.. Yes ayah, u're CUTE! =p

As the clock ticks by, my tummy began to rumble.. So hungry liao la.. So i decided to give it another chance by tryin to finish my decent bowl of soup.. N yes, i managed to finish it.. The whole damn bowl!! Kewl kepe..? Yessa!! Still hurts la.. But not as bad as before.. Macam smlm jugak.. Maseh leii melantak.. Regardin e voice, still soundz windy.. =_=

I'm missing bf badly already... Eventho he's on the fone with me right now, i still miss him.. I wan him badly... I wan his hugs!! I wan his kisses!!

I miss u like crazy~~~~~ *Going GAGA*

Signing Off : The Kitty Whose Tummy Is Full - For Now

A Bad Night's Sleep & A Swollen Throat

Adoi!! Was coughin awae at nite.. All e wae till e very moment i had to wake up.. The last tyme i checked the tyme was already 3am... Woke BF up coz previouzly he told me he wanna use e bathroom.. To wake him up, u'll need to wake him up hard.. I uzed wateva energy i had left but still, he didn't wake up.. I ended up finishin e energy due to the cough.. As a result, i gave up.. I juz let him slp.. He wasn't facin me when he sleeps.. Was abt to complain, n den i remembered he complained many tymes bout diz issue.. Hahaha.. So now, it's me facin this.. Lol~ So i hugged him from e back (he's my giant bolster / bear bacen), but it onli lasted for a while, coz after dat, i start coughin again n again.. Alamak!! Gangguan teknikal betol arh.. I was pretty pissed coz my throat hurts like hell - practically swollen, i ended up cryin.. It was so hard, i had to get off e bed n sit at e space in between e wall n my bed.. I dun wanna wake BF up.. He was sound aslp....

I onli managed to sleep ard 5 i think.. When his alarm went off at 5.30am, i juz reached out for it n ended e alarm.. Sori baby.. I was frustrated enuff alreadi.. Gimme at least enader half an hour... So went my alarm went off, i was like - WHAT?? It's half an hour ALREADI?!! Wahlao!!

Took a while to get out of bed coz my head was realli heavy.. After BF left, body heat starts to rise... Temp check - 38.9deg cel.. Wth!

I wanted to go to werk, but my head feels really heavy.. It took me some tyme to go to e kitchen from my ro0m.. Dat'z hw bad it is.. So texted e main ppl dat i won't b comin in.. My throat is realli killing me..

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes To Slit Her Throat Open, Take It Out, Wash It Clean & Place It Back In Place.. -.-

Random

Despite the massive huge fight we had yesterdae, it all ended juz e wae we want it to be - to be in each other'z armz again.. =)

So yeah, todae's saturdae.. Gettin used to staein at home in e dae already.. Waiting patiently for BF to finish werk.. Woke up at 2.30pm n greeted him a gd afternoon via sms.. He's e 1zt person to come across my mind e moment these lazy eyez are open.. Hehehehe... After a few sms, we talked over the fone.. The sound of hiz voice realli putz a smile on my face.. I realli luv him alot leii.. How i wished he's rite here with me now.. In e comfort of my own bed in a cold ro0m...

After we hung up, went to wash my face n brush my teeth.. Had my lunch n decided to watch the Frog Princess on Mio; followed by kinder bueno... I can't help it.. Chocolate is part of my drugs... Hehehehe... I still have lotsa chocolates in my room.. Not to mention, e sour strawberry stripz in which i bought like a while ago, is still in my ro0m.. Not even opened yet.. Y..? Bcoz, either i forgot all abt it or i was juz to0 bz with werk.. Nyeh~

Yay.. Ma called n told me dat she's gettin e biscuits.. The moment she saw the price, she was like - "OMG adeq!! I tot onli ur clothes are expensive.. Ur snackz to0...????'' It's juz once in awhile, mama.. =p But their nice rite...??? Sheesh!! Sometymes, u gotta invest a lil more to get somethin betta...

It's 6.40 now.. Approximately 3 hours more before i can reunite with baby luv!!

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Is Juz Lazing Ard At Home In The Comfort Of Her Own Bed

Wat's Going On...????

I still have that sucky feeling siak.. I feel realli heavy inside.. Wat e hell is happening to me..? Wat's with this attitude...? How long more will this 'other' me control me..? Can i juz have my previous moments back...? For a moment, i even forgot how to be loving.. Even towards my cats.. Dey wanted my attention, i juz shove dem awae... This other me is realli gd at shoving those who wanted her attention pretty good.. She realli deserve an award.. WOW~

All that's in my mind rite now is, wat is going to happen to this relationship..? It's still goin on, but whr issit heading?? Whr will it take us?? I have no clue... Honeymoon prd..? More like it will be comin or has come to an end..

Wat i intend to do now is to juz follow whreva it will lead me to.. Whr to, i dunnoe.. Tyme will tell.. All he has to noe is that i still keep the promises i made..

A Sucky Feeling

Morning started off pretty sucky.. It all started from a minor issue, till now, it evolves into a bigger issue. I dunnoe arh.. I juz feel like screamin n cryin.. My head hurts real bad.. I juz feel like hittin it against e wall... I hafta keep tellin myself to remain calm.. Dun fret too much... But den, i noe it'z onli temporary dat i can control my anger.. After a while, it'll explode again... I keep tellin myself dat ppl will not like it.. But yeah, dis is who i am whether u like it anot..

At 1 point, i juz feel like being a markswoman, enader a ninja & enader juz being myself, waiting for the very moment to reunite back with e man i love.. I do feel like strangling him already... Haiyah!!! I juz feel like lockin myself in my room, shut off from e werld for a moment - something like running awae.. I dun wanna face e bitterness out thr.. Maebe it's juz me.. But den, i love him too much to even see whr the fight is going.. If onli i could turn back e tyme to whr e mistake 1zt started...

My greatest fear - The fact of losing him one dae....

Signing Off : The Kitty Who Wishes To Hide In A Corner & Cry